So used to being hurt
That pain has become a part of me
My better half

You cant have the juice
Until you break the coconut

I wont lie and say cant live without you
But what's the purpose of life with no inspiration

I have fallen a thousand times
And it was hard enough
To dig a foundation
Now I'm stronger than ever

I have always made poetry my safe haven
But it always betrayed my conscience
Because l thought you would always be my shield
How can l keep the promise now when you the cause of the grief
If l came, will you console me with more pain
Though you make me forget my sorrow you  always adding more tears
Now tell me how l should keep my words when all you do is give me painful happiness
An imagination forever

You dont need to sleep to dream
Stay awake and watch it happen

I find pleasure in comments
Good or bad
So they defined me as abnormal

Only a dog goes back to its *****
Think twice and stop being used

Ever felt like living is useless
All you want to is give up
If only suicide could set you free
That makes the 2 of us

I can't expain where it hurts
I can only feel my heart thundering trying to escape
As l become weak and spend hours sleeping trying to get it in place


Could this be just sadness

What l thought Was my comfort zone
Turned out to be my worst nightmare
It killed all the  potential l had

forever is promised i won't break it
i'll make a wish for every twinkle in your eye
even if we lock eyes, your smile shall set me free
fireworks you create
is Shalom
leaving vast particles as sweetened pieces of art in wildfires
the nostalgia became a beautiful memory
amnesia is lost in every scent that displayed petals
within flowers i found thorns, in foresight a Lily like you was found

Why cant we all be like stars
They shine despite the darkness
That surrounds them

It's so hard fighting for things that dont wanna be fought for
It's like fighting an invisible battle

I thought l would use their judgements
As inspiration
But it's not enough motivation

As l reminisce on the past days
All l can say is thank you God
Had so many downs but still got up
Not by might not by power

Why is  death
such a jealous man

I don't know how l found darkness in what they all saw as light

I were poetry l would be seen in between the lines and felt in the words

If criticism was a superpower
I would be flawless

How can you be with people and feel so lonely

The ones who can make us smile
Usually cause us the worst pains
And
The ones who can heal us
Are the ones far from reach

the best feeling is letting go
of what you never had
and finding happiness in what
you can have

When l said you were a dream
I knew l would wake up
That's why you aint here anymore

Her  smile was hatred
coated as happiness and love

I told him to let go
Of his mistakes and he
left

Criticism from the wrong person
Is the greatest motivation

We all thought it was passion,
Because in his presence l could feel his devotion.
It's like when l was with him l lost concentration,
And l became so sure that he was mine.
Little did l realise that it was just an infatuation.

I thought he was my prince charming
Yet he left me hanging
I didn't realise when l drowned in his love the same way l didn't notice his feelings were drastically fading.
He left me crying as he continued running.

When l was with him l was truly living life
But now I'm just surviving.
I miss his singing as well as his drawing .
At times l feel like his around me yet l'll be just hallucinating.
Still l don't picture myself healing.

Through his love l lost my reputation.
I thought l could see his love through his expression
Since his actions were full of connotations.
And his love came with destruction
Yet this happened without realisation
Now my life is full of humiliation
Since what I'm left with now is lamentation.

# Diamond Pickle

I wish life was a fairytale
Where happy ever after
Did exist

I fell so hard , so hard
That my heart broke
The feeling faded
The pain ended

"Will love you until the end of forever"
Those were his words

Now I'm running to reach forever
Maybe he will be there
Just hoping the forever will be long enough to let me enjoy all his promises

"I will hold you till the end of eternity"


The few words she valued but caused her grief
She failed to understand eternity  for him  was just a short time

She believed in a happily ever after
But later realised it existed only beyond imagination

She fell too hard till sorrow became the song
Loneliness the chorus

And now she is long gone with betayed love

Beauty is what you see
When you look in the mirror

She asked why im always in the dark
My response was "thats where broken people find joy "

They say the 1st step to achieving your dreams is to wake up
Why not dream with your eyes wide open?

Love never dies
What dies is what we once saw in the person

Love is eternal,
It never fades

Misconception
I am only but just a child
Seeking to have an adventure
But l understand
I was taught to understand the world and most times l realise my mistake
I might almost repeat it but if rectified
Don't l deserve some forgiveness
In a split l would have already reformed and  in return what do l get?
Judgement....the kind that leaves you bruised and buttered
In pain n agony only asking why
Why now of all times when l was being good
In the solemn of your pain u battle to sleep
Is it you or misconceptions
Getting wrongly judged

She said " go out there, find yourself and do what l taught you"
But she never taught me to live without her thats why she never leaves my heart

I see you everyday
You torment my soul
Hunt my dreams
And abstract my vision
And now all l see are your memories

Distance has taken you away
You so far yet so near
Your shadow follows my every step
All our conversation keeps playing in my mind

I wish just your voice could do the healing
But the brokenness needs more than that
Your words brought me to live
And now they keep me awake

I want to be in hope not hopeless
I want to love not to be broken
Dont want to be weak but I'm shattered
I wish l could bring back the old times