I love him for all he is
and all he could be
I see the stars in his eyes
and the ones in his future
I look back at how far he's came
and how far he's got to go
I want to grow with him
and continue on growing
He is beautiful
and will be beautiful for all his days

A world to describe
the first thing that comes to mind
is simply inadequate
I am not enough
I cannot keep up
All my stress comes out through tears
I am spilling over the edges
I have too much to handle
Yet I am simply not enough
Utterly inadequate
I cannot keep up
Scores, calculations, projects
I cannot focus
It is all simply too much

I live in my head
so much sometimes I forget
I am in a room full of people
that I'm not just a spectator to reality

bubbles in my stomach
giggles in my throat
intoxicated more so by you
than any alcohol I’d consumed

I want you to know
you’re beautiful
in the way that deserves
to be talked about
I want you to know
that I notice
all the little things
you do
without thinking
the kindness
the smiles you give
I appreciate it all
and admire it
I think you’re fantastic
and always will

I wonder if you miss me
the way I miss you
I wonder if you see the same stars
if we even live in the same world
You seem two lifetimes away
Every morning, day and night together
I wish I had know
the last time we said goodbye
so I would’ve held you longer,
kissed you goodbye
I wonder if you’re wishing
the same thing too

I will not sit
I will not observe,
Or see any sort
of discrimination
Quietly
Not until
Racist,
Sexist,
Homophobic
people
do not exist
Which is never,
so I will never
Sit

I’ve looked up in awe
my heart nearly bursts
it’s beating so rapidly
because this is beauty
& I get to witness it
I am humbled
by the beauty
I am so small
& so are my worries
This gives me inspiration
The same hand
which sculpted these mountains
and painted these stars
Will carry me through
I am so happy to be alive
& to have a purpose

Maybe someday
someone will waltz along
and teach my heart
it's not okay
to give joyrides
to average people
who will make me feel insubstantial
someday for someone that will cherish me
for more than the skin that covers my bones
but who can kiss me on the head
not because it's pretty
but because of all, it contains
Maybe I'll stop overcompensating
for people who don't deserve any piece of me
I'll be honest with myself
and not desperate for any form of pleasure

in an effort to be original, unique & different
we really all end up the same
your independent stance
and your expostulation
is hackneyed
we all seem like social justice warriors
fighting the same core issue
with different diction

Numbers are good
for tests
colleges
Numbers are bad
for weight
Make yourself small
Minimize your worth
to a grade point average
Stay up all night
studying
until the bags under your eyes
become more to bear
than the AP textbooks
Yet get your beauty sleep
because it’s important
you maintain flawless skin
Drink coffee to stay awake
yet not too much because you’ll get headaches and acne
Forget your friends, family and hobbies
but don’t complain too much
Work hard
but then you’re a try hard
who apparently never tries hard enough
because in the end your number
could always be higher
unless you’re on the scale
then it’s lower
because apparently
we all agreed
that our self worth
isn’t self determined
right?

The universe may not give me what I want, but I know it’ll give me what I need

I thought you
were the missing piece
but in reality
you were stealing pieces
of me

I’m tired of hearing
the same things
“you’re amazing”
I don’t want to be told
I want to be shown
that I’m captivating
of your attention
that I’m worth your days
Words mean nothing
without the feeling
behind them
that evokes them
in the first place