Suffocating inside this monotonous routine.
Surrounded by ignorance and lack of correct communication.
Stuck behind boundaries like I am no more than sheep.
I am here voluntarily, I am here for myself.
Counting down the days until I escape for the precious few days I can ******* own space again.
Remember, I am here for myself.

*-dh

'                                              You Can always tell
                                            When His heart is going astray.
                                        You'll losE his compassion when he talks.
                                 You'll notice A hint of guilt in his walk.
                                        The time Together will feel hallow.
                       Your gut will start Eting away at your thoughts.
                       Maybe it's just youR self consciousness showing through.
It's hard to believe that when he Stops replying "I love you".
*-dh

Run towards the sun;
Don't stop, Don't stop.
And once you've reached the surface,
bring me it's light.

I feel nothing anymore, kept behind well shut doors.
My life is ticking time, so please love just this once please don't lie.
And if I find my way through dripping arms and blood shot eyes, tell me love would you cry?
Desperate for so much need, will I sink as low as death?
Sore and sick, as I take my last breath.
And if I wish you were still here my pulse would cut and I'd disappear.
No honest plea or falling tear will keep me in this atmosphere.
I've come so close but not so far, keeping from falling apart.
Belligerent and broken is the flow my hearts spoken.
Scared and diseased yet you hear no plead.
Is there something wrong or is it just me.
I'm wrong your right, this is the story night after night.
So natural but fake, each whisper keeps me awake.
Take your silent bow as we clap aloud, you've won a well played game
that's not figured out.
The style is my disguise but beneath the cloth thy story lays.
As wise ones wonder strong ones die.
This is the puzzled life, the life of lies.
So take a breath of this sin filled air, no one notices, no one cares.
Heavy hands but hollow hearts, only despair follows.
And yet I ask... take me away so sorry and true and steal the words from my shattered heart
"I love you."

*-dh

Lets talk nonsense as you sip your dignity from my palms. I caught a glimpse of your insanity to only see your all talk but far to broken to walk the walk. Realize your childish games are pitiful and you're appearing pathetic, puddled in your tears you keep so hidden. It's time you pick up your pride, dust it off, and swallow the worthlessness inside. As you choke on the guilt I'll smile and reveal your true self with every cocky smirk. Was I worth the embarrassment?

-dh

choking on the words that wouldn't let you be.
everyone tried to show you, even me.

biting your fingers and twisting your hair,
it wont make it easier.
not one bit, i swear.

stubborn, even stuck.
do you ever wonder whats with your twisted luck?

reaching out for a helping hand,
you're down on your knees.
the pressure wont let you stand.

your chest tightens and you begin to lose the ability to see.
you think to yourself "i can't be okay, this isn't me".  

you long for that pill,
it makes you feel alright.
it gives you the guts to walk alone at night.

the man made medicine floats through the veins in your skin.
the excruciating experience is just about over.
so when your tongue unties and you can focus,
just promise me one thing.

promise me it wont take you,
promise you wont let it win.

*-dh

your words so sweet they rotten your teeth.
guzzling up your lies so we wont see.

it'll be a battle to the death of our dignity.
a fight between just you and just me.

who will be the first to commit the worst?
actions so painful but the memories more like knife work.

they'll fade away and only be remembered as plastered faces.
all that will remain are cigarettes with their lipstick traces.

and to end with nothing but disposition,
all those unaccredited good doings,
all that wasted ambition.

*-dh

Stained thoughts of hollow words.
Hollow words with broken meaning.
A bitter taste, a sick feeling.

A toast to a night I cant remember,
poison in my veins,
but no, no fever.

Practiced smiles and routine portrayal.
So imperfect, expected betrayal.

Eat the lies, curled around your tongue.
Don't choke, don't run.
Meek human, don't cry.
Numb yourself, I know you can.

Numb yourself, it feels better in the end,
just try.

*-dh