I will not be the punchline.
I will not be the definition of the joke you aimlessly threw at me.
I remember in school when people would tell me that sticks and stones may break my bones but words would never hurt me.
I can't help but feel the words hurt me.
And maybe the broken bone would hurt more than the words they threw at me, but a broken bone would always heal.
But the words?
They didn't
They would stay with me until I started loving myself.
And even then, they'd always be at the back of my mind.

Twists internally
Mirror bent
Shadow creature haunts me
Mind mental madness

Drop the mallet
Fool the believer
Smash the car into the junction
It's a beautiful motorcrash!!

Time gone
Shadows before
Cast on the wall
Lost soul abort

Crushed sign
Eyes shut
Heart stops
So abrupt

Rain down
sad drops
Good bye
Cries stop

Separate the touch
distant is more
Left all alone
Empty little *****

Let me out
I’m your art
I’m your life
I am pain
Therefore I am beauty

Let me out
Don’t do this
You know you need me
You can’t keep me
I know you need me

I’ll have the sins
I’ll take the punches,
I’ll be torn apart.
I’ll break a bone if I had to..
I won’t let them destroy you
I won’t let them get the best of you

I am evil...
But I’ll be the one who’ll protect you

Don’t worry about me.

I was made to bear the pain,
To absorb the madness
To swallow all of your fears..

Embrace me.
Accept me.
And you’ll never feel empty
Again...

Deep within you
I rest..
I know you can feel me too.
Somehow you know,
I'm waiting here for you
Waiting for you….

To let me out…

Marked up face
I am battered
Senseless emotion
Life is shattered

Nothing clear
All is blurry
Swollen in darkness
Left in a hurry

All pain no purpose
Scares me afraid
Conquered you over
I am human made

Scars for life
Internally marred
Stand up stronger
I fell down hard

Not alone anymore
Surrounded by heart
You can not hurt me
Alive and apart

Smack me
Hit me
Lock me in the dark

Stain me
Drain me
Falling off my mark

Hurt me
Break me
Hide all my pain

Stab you
**** you
Gone with all the rain

"Cradle my emotions in the gentlest of whispers"* ~~ *Ryn



Hold me
Tenderly
Make me feel something
Be gentle with me
I've been hurt lately
Despair courses through me
Depression
Regret, guilt
Can you help me?
Don't just tell me
What I want to hear
Tell me what you really feel
Take away the fears
Don't scream
Tell me softly
Whisper in my ear
The beautiful things
I need to hear
Make me feel something
Cause lately
All I've felt is...





Absolutely nothing

Something that stands out so completely;* Resilience, is not so very discreetly kept locked away from the planets you shine on, to their envy. ~~ *Frank Ruland

Yes, I shine
I smile
I carry on through the days
But my light gets dimmer
Each passing moment
With nothing to shine on
I simply fill darkness with light
I don't bring anything
Those planets that envy?
They're crazy...
I shoot past,
The speed of light
(really fast)
What is there to be jealous of?
My speed...
My strength...
My bright, shining glow...
That may be so,
But what are all these things worth
If I have to do it all alone?



Absolutely Nothing