I pay no mind to the man in the doorway
I've been learned that he will do no harm.
I diverge my attention from the knife in his hand,
Though I feel like calling out an alarm.
I pay no mind to what I hear inside
I've been learned that they don't mean a thing.
I keep the shriekings behind the bars of my cage
Though they often dance out when there's drinking
I pay no mind to deep grayscale urges.
I've been learned to work to give a ****.
I have a head who'd never lead me that way,
Though it's become harder to herd all the lamb.
I pay no mind to the changing of eyes
I've been learned that it's purely of face
I cover my own as I try to ignore them
Though they see how they're planning a race.
I pay no mind to the battles I witness
I've been learned to accept all our world.
I turn off the screen and cover my ears
Though the fists of my hands each have curled.

At River End
Or at the chop block,
Any old place-
It's still better than what I've got

When I see you
Out with her
And the jewels you give her
I Can't help but see they look better

On her skin and oh
How I get jealous
And how I wish
I Were all she is to you

Then maybe I'd have you
And not the lock
You put over my heart
When you left but threw out the key

And I'm sure
It's at the bottom
Of the sea
Nowhere to be found

Oh lucky me
Cursed soul of mine
I still have a heart
But it's not worth any mans time

Cars all driving off
To work in a rush,
For fear of missing the same
Old thing.

Wind is desperately
Trying to move me,
But it isn't going to do
A thing.

Things all running,
Rushing, flying out to see
New places, but never stay
So long to look.

We could all be
Going somewhere,
If we stayed
A while to look.

Look at the footprints,
Running through the
Grass, all so
Unaware.

Trying to mark
Something, somewhere.
But where? Well they're
Unaware.

Unaware of the world
Turning us where it
Disappears

Holding onto dandelions
Thinking maybe I could
Disappear

i've really messed up
my whole life now f
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                         ­              l
                                         t
                                           e
                                             ring
slowly   each moment pushed
on my heart   a   l i t t l e  h e a v i e r

waiting for it to ...BURST...
and blow us all    p
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                          ^^^^
i just don't know what could've been done+

preventing a storm :
only works when you know
it's going to come, coME, COME!
-not- when you're in the eye
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tOo   tOnGuE     tIeD to speak
and just to hürt to try


ive gr0WN accustomed to
        u  m
the l        p    in the throat
the damming of ~water~ behind eyelids                                          f  c
the quivering of my reddened  a  e
and the knifē through the back to my heart

isn't it a shhhhhhame when pain is so common                         B O
and we learn HOW to T  T
                                        L  E   it up       y
and where to store it so                      a
nobody se•es                                    w
                 only   ..   to be hiding it a
from those who gave you heartbreak
                         $         !
and still they act surprised,
                   and condemn you
                   *  *   *   *             tops
when you    POP    off the ^^^
and DrrrüNK enLY g..g..guzzled them all

You know you drive me crazy.
Quite truthfully, doubly,
Because you drove me off the road,
Literally, and figuratively.

I've normally embraced that,
Not literally, because it's abstract,
But this craziness is mad,
In a double meaning.

We were never attached,
Physically or emotionally.
So I'm not sure why I'm so hurt
On the inside, not the outside (for I know)

So I'm guessing something's hidden
In the world and in my soul,
Because I'm not sad that you left
Me and not your own blind ego.

Ed thought he was a cat
So he gave a rat
To his dearest friend Magee.
He didn't take it lightly..

The rancid little thing
That poor Ed did bring,
Fell from Magee's hand,
Into his frying pan.

The rat cooked in his dish
Among the chips and fish,
And neither of them knew
The rat had joined it too.

The men clambered, glorped, and glopped
Until the timer stopped.
So they put it on a plate,
And then it was too late.

The grimy paws dug in
As Ed's face begin to grin,
And Magee was most aware
Of some furry little hair.

Magee quickly threw it out
And hit Ed all about.
He shooed his pal away,
Soggy Ed was now a stray.

But Ed finished up the dinner,
Though felt a little thinner.
Now old Ed has fleas,
And will probably get rabies.

I watched you leave through the window.
Did you even think twice?
I bet not.

You used to be a sad, old thing,
Silent and fat, dangerously nice
Not even a clue.

But did you...did you know?
You certainly thought you knew me...
Mistake number 1.

But I, I made some terrible mistakes.
I needed you to see,
You became a friend...

And an odd friend at that!
Picking fights not meant for you-
Didn't help anyone.

And picking fights with me!
Until you knew what I'd do.
I thought it odd.

Polar opposites, but it worked alright.
The world seemed to move again.
Well, it was twirling down.

It was something that I'd never do,
Which is why you would begin.
Greedy, still, for a rich one.

You were told to close that window,
By maybe, your mother?
I know she hated me.

Or, just because you didn't need loyalty,
But numbers and numbers-another, another.
I wasn't going along!

You knew such, so you wanted me out.
I was the wrong one for that.
It tore me apart.

Simply, I was a gateway. A way
To become an insider...you rat!
Like all of the others.

I must say, rich-y, you fit well.
It's a blood-******* town.
We all hate each other.

But mostly, me, you see.
You didn't know I was down.
It's all happened before.

You knew that! I told you!
You just didn't have a heart.
I bet not.

Did you even think twice,
Before making a start?
I bet not!