I wanted to give you the world, Unfortunately it wasn’t in a college student’s budget. So I gave you the next best thing, I made you my world. Gave you the keys, And I threw away any locks. I let you free roam and play around my heart, and I prayed you wouldn’t play GTA 5. I may have a big heart, but it can only take so many drive-bys. Once you hit five stars, All I could do is spray and pray for my feelings. When you finally said goodbye, Everything hurt exponentially. So I tried to find the locks, Before the damage could be done. But they disappeared the first time I looked into your eyes, Eyes that completely changed my perspective. Once I opened up everything to you, Now I can't go back to heart lock down. My world has transformed, For better or for worse only time can decide.
Every morning I lock myself in the closet. I look myself in the eyes and sigh, before I bind my hands and shove myself in. I lock the door. There are many locks. Bolts too. Big ones, small ones Old ones, new ones I fasten them all before I leave.
I cry to myself as I sit in the dark, my arms numb from my restraints. Even as each day grinds past and responsibilities come and go. Sometimes when I get home at night I will kick the door to remind myself I'm still in there. The locks rattle and strain. I yell at myself to shut up.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ This poem is self translated version of my Hindi language poem titled "शिव लीला" published in pratilipi on (June. 2018) Can be read through the link ==>> https://bit.ly/2Z9Z57t ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
His neck has entirely turned blue due to Kalkoot, This is just a Leela of Shiva He has taken everyone's pain and sorrow for the betterment of the world
He is the keeper of all the three loka's and also called as Trilokinath He hold the holy Ganga in his locks, but do not drinks a drop from it
He sits on the yellow Tiger skin mat and keeps meditating for years to come He satiates hunger by Datura and Madaar and drinks Bhang to quench thirst
He has a marvellous third eye through which all the three lokas are visible Sitting in the Mahayoga posture, He keeps on concentrating and meditating
Brahma and Vishnu also bows before him with respect and feels blessed Such a beautiful holy Leela of Shiva. Nothing else but Shiva's holy Leela
Kalkoot(Line 1): A poison generated due to Samudra Manthan ( The Churning of the Ocean by Devtas[Gods] and Asuras[Demons] ) Leela(Line 1): "Divine Play" (Just a pastime) Shiva(Line 1): A God (The Destroyer) in Hindu Mythology
Loka(Line 3): Three three different worlds/realms. Swargaloka, the land of gods; Mrityuloka, the middle kingdom of men; and Pataloka, home of the Asuras, the fallen gods, and demons. Trilokinath(Line 3): The Lord of the Three world/realms.
Ganga (Line 4): The Holy river whose flow and speed is controlled by the locks (Jatas - The thick hair strands) of Lord Shiiva
Datura and Madaar (Line 6): Poisonous plants (Datura stramonium and Calotropis gigantean) Bhang (Line 6): Poisonous plants (Cannabis Plant) Mahayoga (Line 8): Also called as Mahamudra – The Great Gesture (a posture for meditating)
The World is not real its Maya. Its the Divine Play of God