Thunder and pain,
Feeling the rain.
Waiting for salvation,
In a night of starvation.
Brightening the dark sky,
The lightning, fly by.
Why i so feel?
It will make me heal.
Giving self a justification,
For every piece of action.
If it is wrong or right,
Who is to decide?
There is nothing to gain,
Life will eventually drain.
In the moment of despair,
Let hope, make it repair.
Like a thunder in the clouds,
Break through every bounds.
Like the sound of the light,
Keep the zeal to fight.
Your thirst will be quenched,
Thunder will give you the strength...

The silent whisperings of the wind
The Enigmatic dances of the trees
They are welcoming my presence
After a long time I am home…

Woodpeckers are laughing with me
Warblers are making a fuss
A white moth came to greet me
After a long time I am home…

This place is God’s own
In the silence I can feel the soul
The music in the air is prayer
For making me alive and be here

On to the bed of fallen leafs
I want to rest my aching beliefs
Harsh journey I have been through
A beautiful world its suppose to

The Lianas are the playing ground
Where the childhood dreams rebound
The faint memories comes alive
After a long time I am home…

I know I am not alone
She is there if I ever get blown
Into the comforting lap of her
After a long time I am home…

We were flying across the valleys,
Searching the way through the alleys.
Suddenly out of no-where,
It came along with a loud bang!
 
Pulling the car in front of the house,
Two of us started getting into the rouse.
Luckily you knew how to fix the situation,
Changing the tire was a fun exploration.
 
You never know when along the way,
You will get a flat tire right away.
Stopping you along your life’s path,
Making you suddenly stumble across.    
 
When a flat tire actually happens,
Nothing it is just a way to toughen.
Having a spare is always handy,
Change it and move ahead in a jiffy.
 
This is not literal but metaphorical,
Life is like the road and we are in a vehicle.
You will never know when the curves will hit you,
A flat tire is the block anytime you can fall into.
 
Instead of crying and throwing a fist,
Give the time and make it all fit.
There will be many flat tires along the way,
Always buckle up and give your best to the day…

There’s an inner child

Deep inside that it reside

kingdom of heaven

It creates

When we are connected

With this inner child

Playful and joyful

Mysteries and wanderings

Unfolds a new world

Before our sufferings

Age fades it

We suppresses it

But our heart

Can’t deny it

Unexpected and sinful

Makes you behave youthful

We will find a new life

With this inner child

Prankster and trickster

Master of laughter

God’s own devil

Cries to get reveal

Please this child

With game of life

Touch the heart

And feel the sky

Know the life

With the child inside

There was a time I believed

The moments I have truly lived

Everything has now fallen apart

Only left is a stone heart



Sometimes when the past recalls

A white soul lurking in the walls

Renaissance of night has start

Only left is a stone heart



The tears were the strength

Shortening the melancholy length

Through the vein the ashes dart

Only left is a stone heart



The shadow, the rain, the thunder

Once made me to gaze in wonder

The storm has long being depart

Only left is a stone heart



The brightening pages were empty

To fill it with dreams aplenty

They are all gone off the chart

Only left is a stone heart…

Seeing you again after the last kiss,
Never thought would be such a bliss.
Even though the meeting was for sometime,
It has given me memories for a lifetime.
I will cherish them now and then,
Remember us in the thoughts rain.
For giving me something special,
This is a token of appreciation.
You are leaving once again,
Across the thousand oceans.
Tears that fell during the moment,
They are my one and only condolence.
For what could have been, and how it really is.
Still I will be at this shore,
Continuing with my usual galore.
Some things better left undefined,
What I felt for you will always be alive.
Even with our separate lives,
I will keep thinking in my mind.
So was that our last kiss?
Before I see you again...

I am trying to find a balance,
Among all the chaos.
Each day is a fighting chance,
All about the right stance.
It is not easy to please everyone,
If you are not a people person.
Difficult to get accepted,
Being different, not follow the norm.
I wonder and wonder why?
Being outcast has a price to pay.
Trying to be normal is a humongous task,
For the survival do I have to put up the mask?
I know I don’t want to be alone,
I do feel and I have a soul.
Still there is the fear of unknown,
Makes me sometime give up the hope.
In love or among the peers,
I should do whatever makes me steer.
If you want to stay, stay.
It shouldn’t affect me anyway.
Life will always find its way,
Even among the chaos and storm…

I don’t know what is this?
I know it is a bit selfish
All I want is to care for you
Without you everything is blue

I am trying to show how I feel
Putting them here as an appeal
Like a sea in the high tide
You ignite the poet inside

You keep on saying I get better for sure
But my heart wants only to be your
Can’t you see in the depth of my eyes?
They are true and it never denies

So many things that I want to say
In front of you my words shy away
That is why this rhyme is to preside
You ignite the poet inside

I don’t know what the future holds
I want to be with you as it unfolds
All I want is to be there for you
Thick or thin we will get through

No matter wherever you go
These lines will let you know
For you my heart has cried
You ignite the poet inside….

Over inflated view of self,
Need to see what others see.
To know the real person you are,
Closely look who reflects back at thee.

Don't just live in that self-made bubble,
It will eventually close in on you.
Better to include few wrong others,
To make you more aware of your troubles.

Even though this world is cruel,
You anyway are not entitled.
So be humble of your fragility,
Accept that you need the humility.

The whole life is contradictory,
Right and wrong are subjugatory.
You never know what is in store,
Better to have few people ashore.

A life with only 'I',
Ain't it narrow and purely a lie?
The truth will only be revealed
When two fates are eventually sealed.

We are merely a speck in the universe,
Which is by the way doesn't revolve around you!
The moment you see over this fact,
A more humbling world is right before you.

Let go of the self and the ego,
Be one with others and the world.
You will step into a universe,
Which you thought was beyond your grasp....

You will be lonely
Whether in a party
Or, at night at home.
You will be lonely
Throughout your life
Till you continue to breath.
You will be lonely
With your love beside you
Or, with the broken pieces of heart.
You will be lonely
Among the dazzling star
Or, in the brightest sky.
You will be lonely
With the glass of wine
Or, with the bottles in hand.
You will be lonely
With the thousand tears
Or, with the longest smile.
You will be lonely
With the pain from the past
Or, with all the happy memories.
You will be lonely
In this time
Or, in the realms unknown.
You will be lonely
Till you learn the art of being alone…

I have been waiting long
To hear the unknown song
The words were gone adrift
The veil has now been lift
Moment I heard your voice
My heart had no more choice
Tears that fell from my eyes
Soon they made me realize
I have found the shelter
Your love is in the center
I have found my home
Inside your heart’s dome
This is just the beginning
To set the world spinning
The songs you sang for me
Words that made me see
Strings been playing hard
Heart that once was scarred
The music has been heard
Your rhythm has concurred
Long pain that’s inside me
Your love is the only key
Through my eyes window
You see the past shadow
The touch of your hand
Will make me withstand
The past, the present, the future
Your love is all that matters….

Finding the serenity within
I lay awake watching the rain
Moment the light begin
Washed away all my pain

The smell of the morning glow
Feeling the droplets outside
As it fell through my window
I wrote these words and cried

When your mind is turbulent
You feel everything is lost
Repeat you are fortunate
Life has not yet exhaust

Snow melts in the distant hill
The raindrop fills the garden
Everything comes to a stand still
When your soul gets harden

To find the peace within
You need to empty the mind
So as the distant past spin
I move ahead leaving it behind

When the dawn gently breaks
You will feel this is the moment
Fight with everything that it takes
Gate to the future has just open…

Feeling of being close to someone
Sharing the secrets all along
The timid smile on the face
Thinking of him, the heart race

The sensation of love is wonderful
Life will become just beautiful
No matter where the story goes
Let it flow as it comes along

Love doesn’t see the barrier
Thousands of Miles Sea apart
Who knows what love has to offer
You will always be the trooper

Thinking of being in his arms
Swept away by his alluring charm
It is weird and funny
Heart behaves like a little bunny

There is no point of being sad
When you know there is a lad
Who is waiting as much as you are
To come and heal all your scar

Its just a moment of patience
Everyone will find the essence
Let the love touch your soul
Let it free and make you whole….

I am sitting here in my room
Closing my eyes
I see all of you
Out there somewhere
Suffering and torturing
Not any faults of yours
Still getting what you don’t deserve
This is the way of life
Even if we say to fight it all
Sometimes it is beyond our control
We are limited by our thoughts
Breaking free is just not meant to be
I say to you with all my heart
I weep for you in the silence of the dark
Be strong and steady
Let your tears just out to be
Make it the elixir and heal
The time will come when all will be gone
A dawn will eventually come
Even if not in this life
May be in the life beyond
Don’t let go of the hope
Remember that I am here
Weeping for those who cannot weep…

What is it that I crave for?
What is it that I want?
I have lost myself in time
I am guilty of the crime

I am standing middle of nowhere
I don’t know which way to go?
The standing ground gives a tremor
The thought makes me quiver

I have lost all the interests
The things I used to hold dear
Now those are my distant past
Nothing makes anything clear

What I want now?
This question keeps me awake
How will I shape my future?
The answer is yet to remake

I reach out for help
I reach out for support
The only thing I see
More questions I can bear

I am standing in a place
Where there is nothing
Even the darkness elude me
The light has gone beyond the reach

I know I can be many things
I have lost the will to see
Everything seems so unreal
Don’t know where it will lead

The things I once held so dear
Now they are against me
I am lost and so unclear
I even can’t see me

I cry for the enlighting visions
Those once were my souls
It seems I don’t have my eyes
The blindness have made me sore

Where I will find the answers?
When I will know what to do?
My inactions became my action
My action got lost in roar

The burning fire inside my veins
Washed away with time
The dream, the passion, the pain
Got replaced by desire to fail

Books say past is past
Live in the present
But how should I act in now?
To make sure I see tomorrow

What is it that I am going through?
What is it that I want anew?
My course of life has changed
Everything I have built, now chained

I want to be free
Free of all the decree
I want to know how I became
How I became like thee?

What is it that I am looking for?
The faraway land is waiting for?
I should let go of the fear
Thrive again to achieve the spear

Enough of living in the denial
I have to act and stop being senile
Accept that I have failed
I the one to be blamed

Time is now to rise once again
Like the phoenix and empire in ruin
The lost can always be found
The doomed can always be crowned…

The thought of his lips touching mine
The closed eyes
The heart beat
Being one
Two different soul

The thought of his hands on my waist
Tickling fun
Naughty words
Dancing night
Two opposite poles

The thought of him on top of me
Sweet pain
Silent moan
Sweating along
Two musical notes

The thought of night with him alone
Racing tides
Jumping nerves
Thousands of miles
Getting short

The thought of him not letting me go
Wistful thinking
Raining wishes
Decided by fate
Time is at stake....

As the days go by
You are going through a standby
The life has stopped moving
The road ahead is disapproving
The time of life has come
Where there is no way to return
The only way is to move on
Even if you want is to stick on
To the only road your heart craves
Leads to that beautiful waves
Holding hands onto the sand
You want him to understand
But the tides have turned
The hard way you have learned
The only road is the one
Leads you away from the sun
With all the hopes in the heart
The best thing is a fresh start
You are born to grow up
Some new things to steer up
The road will always be black
The light you have to unpack
There will always be detours
The decision should be yours
Life is a continuous journey
Not all roses, it will be thorny
The mystery you have to decode
After all it is your road….

Searching through the boxes for some books.
I was standing there wondering how it all looks?  
The kiss we had before we parted,
Will always be something that I will keep it guarded.

The moments we shared were for sometime,
Even though it was nothing still it had some life.
The beauty of what we have shared,
It never was confounding and/ or snared.

I will fondly remember your beautiful smile,
My loneliest hours were made worthwhile.
You have made me feel good in a way,
The guitar solo in the back on the first day.

We are flying to our separate continents,
Will only can meet if there is a providence.
Whatever the future may unfold for us,
Will you remember me with a sweet blush?

I am not me anymore
Lost myself through a black door
My soul and body now separate
Put them together, I am desperate

We two are poles apart
Day by day the life depart
I cry, day and night
To make everything right

Only the desolate heart, beating hard
Inner child has long being scarred
A dying repertoire of beautiful thoughts
Words are fighting to end the wars

The only thing that I see in me
A falling soldier in a ****** sea
The last breaths that I am taking now
The wounds I got, I wonder how

Where is the hope, where is the sign
Black smoke over the fallen reign
If it gets too painful to swallow
I pray, I die now in this rotten hallow

I am ready to see the other side
Not scared of what may preside
The hell I have seen in my blood
Drowned in my own tear’s flood

The scars will always reminds me
Many deaths through it would be
Hell and heaven both are here
I am the one who has to bear…

The Innocent:

Opening my eyes

With the bright sunlight

Starting a new day

With hope and dismay

Whole world to explore

With brand new body and soul

Where is my Goddess?

She will get me out of this mess

I don’t know where to go?

What to say, what to do?

Show me the light

Oh! Almighty knight

I surrender myself to you

Please give me some clue

I am the innocent

And you are my goddess...

The Goddess:**

You are my creation

Oh! The innocent one

I will show you the way

For a whole new day

So, don’t be afraid

Call me as you wade

I am here to protect you

I am here to teach you

The ways of the decade

And the tricks of the trade

That I have learned

Through the journey into the world

You are my star, moon and sun

Through the pain you have come

You are my angel

And I am your Guardian…

You and I are miles apart,
Connected by our frail heart.
Long distance is so difficult,
When we both want to be together.
I know we eventually will find a way,
Desperately waiting for that day.
In you, I have finally found a home,
To call someone as my own.
You are everything that I ever wanted,
The universe has my wish granted.
The connection I feel when with you,
Keeping us together, it is the glue.
You have seen me at my best,
You have seen me in my unrest.
I hope we can beat the weather,
All I want is to grow old together.
Life can pour all its misery,
We will get through the mystery.
Your love gives me the wings to fly,
Sky is the limit, when it is you and I...

When too bored I get
Seldom I do regret
The opportunity to get up
And knock some pigeons out
New always gets old
and old always gets bored
Nothing anymore
Seems to excite the neuron
Repetition is so dull
Makes life absolutely null
Been there, done that
What is so new about the act?
Same words, same path
Where is the fire and the wrath?
Even writing this is a task
Blowing away an empty cask
Boredom is inevitable
Pushing yourself is manageable
Go deeper and down
With everything in the town
Will find the new kingdom
And get out of the boredom..

The clock strikes 12 in the morning,
Trying hard to get into the stream.
But when it does not let you sleep,
you are wide awake in your dream.

What is it that keeps you awake at night?
Have you find your cause to fight?
If not so, oh my dear!
You will live only in fear.

Let this feeling set you free,
Open the lock with this key.
Don't be living just a life,
Make it larger, while you strive.

Don't think it will be easy,
Many more endless nights to see.
But when it does not let you sleep,
There is nothing more meaningful,
and deep.

Storms will come and go,
You have to face it all.
What matters in the end,
That you get up after the fall.

They will eventually weep,
Don't just wait for the slumberday.
When it does not let you sleep,
You have found the right way...

Hey, you Hooman,
Don't look at me that way
I am not gonna stay
Give me my food
And I will be on my way

I see you, and I come in
If I like, I start purrin'
For a belly rub I roll on
thus, I make you my pawn

I lick and scratch for my good
You find it to be so cute
You start talking like a baby
I think you are a fool and crazy

I am my own queen
I always keep myself clean
Don't be such a smug
I am the cutest ****

You think I may not care
My love is for the rare
When I decide to show
Then only you will know

I teach you to be you
Plenty of stories in every mew
Listen closely for your sake
Be yourself and don't be a fake....

I am an alien in a foreign land,
Away from family and familiar sand.
I am awed  by the beauty of this place,
Learning their language and try to find some solace.
Though the sky and the water looks the same,
I can't call it as my own and not for me to claim.
I can feel the colour of the skin is different,
It is apparent so much, though it is irrelevant.
We all need food and air in the end,
In hunger the colour eventually blend.
Soon I will find a humble abode,
Till then I have to continue on the road.
The questions that brought me so far,
I hope to find the answers in southern star...

Love and the reality
Have two opposite polarities
The illusion, that it creats
An utopia it projects
The beauty and the beast
Dancing together in a feast
Spectators do not know
The disaster, that will follow
The two shall eventually meet
Fate then will get defeat
In the flood of pain and tears
Why the beauty has all to bear?
The castle of expectations
A rumbling ruins of creations
The question that I now ask?
Should beauty put a mask?
Beast only gets the power
If we let faith get devour
Time will eventually seek
The beauty in the beast....

Hold on and be strong,
After few months it will be gone.
As if for now you feel the pain,
Over the time a tiny scar will remain.

Everybody has to go through all this ****,
Life lessons can't be learned in the bliss.
You won't value what is in the front,
Till you fall hard, as hard as the runt.

Don't despair or do some mistake,
Try to fight and keep yourself straight.
Eventually that day will come,
You will wake up to a whole new sun.

Every experiences that you have,
Will make you wiser and make you brave.
Don’t ever let the fire die inside,
Fuel it with love and make it thrive.

This is the lesson I have learned,
When in hell I was being burned.
You are not alone in this world,
Everyone is there or has been gone…

The solemn on the tide,
As the note plays high.
Up it rises like a fire,
When the bow hits the wire.
Swaying like a boat,
Up and down the road.
It strikes like a light,
Through the darkness of night.
Transferring into the world,
Your soul get twirled.
Wave of life it generates,
What the four strings creates.
Beethoven to Mozart,
It showed through their art.
When it bleeds on to the string,
Converts sorrow into the spring.
You can feel through the vein,
Lifts you beyond the plane.  
The rainbow of sound,
It keeps you spell-bound.
An attainment it brings
This music on the strings…

I have not written anything since long,
Somewhere I have lost all the songs.
To rekindle my love for the rhyme,
Here is to my romance with an alpine.
 
I have been seeing you for some time,
Your beauty is just so sublime.
In summers or in winters,
You give me a special comfort.
 
When I step out of the door,
I turn around to see and adore.
No matter how I feel inside,
Looking at you fills me with pride.
 
In summers, I can see the dolerites,
Reminds me of the past it writes.
It screams with all its magnanimity,
To wear your scars with vanity.
 
In winters, whenever it snows,
And the cold air that flows.
Even though it makes me quiver,
I love the splendour it delivers.
 
The snow covered rocks on the top,
Makes you look like an old pop.
With your experience of ages,
It can fill up thousands of pages.
 
I will continue to admire you till the time,
You have welcomed me with a shine.
In a strange land of uncertainty,
You made me feel at home Kunanyi…

Right now at this moment,
I feel my heart is in pieces.
The strings I am looking for,
Out there somewhere in the world.

One day soon enough,
This will all go away.
I will be staring through the window,
With all the content of the moment.

When I read through my past pages,
I see I was aware.
Still I jumped ahead,
Thinking the thorns are all dead.

I shouldn't blame anyone,
I shouldn't make any excuses.
But should embrace my mistakes,
Learn and cherish those carcasses.

I am what I am,
Not to be forgotten.
No one is perfect,
It is all there to learn.

Time changes each second,
It is I, who need to change.
For better or for worse,
Again time will only tell.

One thing is for sure,
This is what is life.
Time is everything,
Time decides all....

I am hurting my child,
I am weeping through the pain,
May be it is no big deal,
For me, I have lost my heart.

I am grieving for you my child,
Even though it was just four weeks,
I always wanted you in my life,
It was not just the moment.

I am hoping to see you my child,
During my life this time,
To hold you in my arms,
And look into your eyes.

I am sending you my child,
All the love I have for you,
I beg you to forgive me,
You too deserve the world.

I am waiting for you my child,
To call me your mother for once,
Even though my fate is unknown,
I want to feel your breath on mine.

I am fighting for you my child,
To live in this world of hell,
Because one day I believe,
You will be my saviour.

We will be united again,
because you already are mine,
From where you came and gone,
I am still yours, my child....

Why do we need protection?
Why are we scared of rejection?
We are a cradle of complexities,
Full of lies and duplicities.
Why do we show, what we are not?
Layering up things and making it rot,
The chaos that we create for a gain,
I don't comprehend the love for the pain.
What is it that makes life move on?
With all the sorrows, it still beats on.
Laughing faces with aching hearts,
So many wishes and faking arts.
Why it is important to always win?
Pain is everywhere but still faces grin.
Should we, be scared or break free?
Self preservation is a strong decree.
Survival is a continuous fight,
Who knows which path is right?
Best to follow where the heart leads,
In the end we'll know if we did succeed.

Should I open up this chapter?
When I know the end will be ******.
Should I walk into the fire again?
Just to fulfill the needs of my body.
Love and lust are two different sides,
Whichever I get I will be the loser.
You know why?
Because beggars are not choosers.
I beg to be loved for a change,
Get drenched not by sweat but by tears of longing.
To stand on the sand bare footed,
Holding hands with a naked soul.
I too deserve to get touched,
By a heart who wants mine.
For a change the union of the mind,
Not only the entangled legs.
I want to feel what it is like,
For once to love and be loved.
I am tired of the one-sided game
I am ready to lose only if I can gain.
For once and for a change,
To feel what it is like to be loved again.
To see the reflection of my own heart,
Not only my skin and flesh.
For once and for a change,
Love me as I love,
Feel me as I feel.
For once and for a change,
This chapter, I wish will not be muddy...

After a very long day,
Dropping on the couch in dismay.
You let the ghosts haunt you,
Allow the tears to run through.
The black clouds above your head,
Follow you until you are dead.
Even if you do feel lonely,
You are never alone,
when you want to be.
Thousand thoughts running around,
Breaking you down to the ground.
We are always connected,
To the universe and the past,
Loved ones and those who passed.
So, when you get defeated by the scars,
Just look up and feel the stars.
The link we have to the universe,
Is like union of two lovers.
You are and will always be protected,
Never alone when you are  connected...

Cry to me; cry with me.

You know you can. 

When you are with me.

You’ll just be whom I see.

I’ll ignore the image I may have of you.

Even what the world thinks of you.

Good, bad, ugly — who gets a say in that?

I’ll even take evil if it comes as truth.

Look into my eyes,

Strip to your soul.

I promise I will have no filters.

I see you as whole.

There is an unasked why to each what.

Something has led you to this rut.

So, cry! Be angry! Shout, scream, and yell!

I know you want to, I can tell.

When you are with me, it's a deal.

You don't need to hide what you feel.

The world is fond of liars.

But you stay true to yourself.

Live what is now, it won’t be back.

Live what is real, let’s not pretend.

I see in you a reflection of my lost soul.

May be you will find yourself in my stroll.

That's the soul connection we have...