Im sure we met in another life
Because no matter what you do
I keep going back to you
Time after time
Again and again

Even though you stare at her
Even though you smile at her
I still love you

Like the warmth of the sun
Like the green of the grass
Like the breeze of the wind
She was April warm and kind

Looking out for everyone and smiles at strangers
You wouldn't notice the cold of the winter
But it was freezing cold, it was intense
Shaking and giving her shoulder and shirt away
"Take it" she says until she is left with nothing

The cold removes her smile
People start noticing yet they do nothing
She has nothing left to give so they forget

Another warmth of the sun comes along
The grass is even greener
The breeze is even stronger
This is summer

No one will save me
So I have to save myself

The beating of my heart
And warm smiles
Is it okay to love you?

This not a poem
Because if it was
I would say something out of my heart
And that would be a start
To my recovery
Or maybe to show my suffering
Either way
You wouldn't care
So now I would dare
To make this a poem

I wish words were enough to make you stay

Kisses so sweet they rot my teeth
Oh, Necromancer
There is no place I would rather be

You are so close
Why would you give now

I know I said I liked him
But the truth is I like you
But you like her

“Why do you always distance  yourself when we get closer...like if you don't want to be friends just say it”
“Okay... I don't want to friends”
When I was 8:
I met this guy
He was nice and kind
He was short and shaped like a ball
He still made me fall
Deep in his eyes
I felt alive
After a while we stoped talking and I never saw him again

When I was 9 my best friends of all my life:
Left
With no regret in their eyes
Like they see something they despise
And all those night thinking I wasn't enough
Were very rough
Losing the only people you love is very tough

When I was 11 :
I understood that they were gone
And I moved on
Thats when I met him
The only one that could make me laugh
Like back then

When I was 12 :
He didn't like me anymore
Says he got bored

When I was 13:
I saw him again
The short was shaped like a ball
Except he wasn't like that at all
He got taller
Taller than my father
He got toned
And it showed
I felt a blush creep on my face
I said hey and he smiled

When I was sure there wasn't any love left:
I trusted her
I told her I liked him
She understood I could never walk up to him
So she did
She got his number
His hoodie
His love

When I gave up:
“Yeah he likes me a lot but I dont”
I then understood  that if you love someone
They will leave
So sorry
But I dont want to be your friend

My brains on the floor
Might as well smash me with the door

Why am I living?

Money

Grow out my hair
Make you stare
But its not like you care

How could you forget so easily?
Even when it was meant to be

Because my pillow dosnt block the sound
Because they think im asleep
It dosnt matter if im sad
If they dont know

When all this is over
Will you remember
Or forget me like the rest
Maybe it's for the best

I know you don't love me
But it's nice to pretend

Time separated us
It grabbed my heart and forced it into your chest
You now had a heart
I gave you everything
It grabbed "your" heart and gave it to her

I wish I could talk to you
But we are separated by too much time

If only you could stop playing with my heart
Maybe Id have some mental stability

Its slavery in disguise

I fear you will love her
But you never even loved me

Acting like I have no feelings to protect my feelings

He hugged her
He hugged he like if she was the world
And letting go meant death

Hi :)
Do you love me?
Because I love you

Oh god, just marry me pls

He plays jazz

Shes melting in the snow

Your on my mind
Most of the time

Why wasnt I good enough?

Hes a narcissist
Tricking his prey to love him
And once she has nothing else to give him
He lets go
Shes melting in the snow

You cant hear what I say
No matter how loud I scream

Once he left
She new things would never be the same
He would inevitably change

Its been a while since I wrote
The thing is, I wanted to show
Show who I am
And for what I stand
Without saying a word

Too bad it didn't work

The thought of another human forming
Inside me

Oh my
I guess its not all so bad

The sky was a bright blue
But to her it was a dark grey
Like every other day

That sick feeling
When you still want him
When you feel like you need him
When your heart hurts when you think about him
Even after all the tears
You still want him
But you could never have him
Because he dosent want you

I hope you find
Just what you seek
What you couldn't see in me
I knew it would end in goodbye

Im still sore from the past
Still I hoped this would last

I watch you slowly get bored

I dont ask for much
Maybe I dont ask enough
But I really want you to be mine
Or this is all a waste of time
Stuck in my head like a song
But thats where your wrong
Its not love
I remind myselff everyday

I wish you would love me
Like I love you
And like you love her

Am... I really... that hard to love?

"Smile for me"
he never did

I keep wondering what it would be like
To have feelings
To smile or feel sympathetic
To have a reason to live, other then yourself
To not see people as objects and tools
But then I see everyones tear and pain
Because they love someone so much
Its funny
Maybe im better like this

You cant try to forget and forgive
But the scars will remind you

I will never be good enough

I cant stop it
But I knew it from the beginning
This would have to end
It was nice to have a friend
Deep down I wanted it to be more

Im still sore from the past
Still I hoped this would last

Your falling out of love
I knew it from the beginning
This would have to end
I just never thought it would hurt this much
But life's tough
But so am I  

No matter how hard I try
I cant lie
To myself or you
I still love you
So ill see you soon

She made me realize what a bad person you are

I annoy u, dont I?