I love you more than air
If I lost you I would suffocate
For you would have stolen
The only thing keeping me alive
You are my reason to be alive
So stay
For you are my world
My air
My reason to be alive
You deserve to be alive
Don't talk about suicide
Because it hurts me that you would think such things.
When you mean so much to me.

I don't feel like writing
Or breathing
Or even living
I have no inspiration to do anything.
I just want to lay down
And fall asleep
To never wake up.
But I always do.
Each day feels like a drag
Like I am bringing everyone down with me.
I can't smile.
My heart feels too tight
Too tight to breath
I wish I could do anything.
But forcing myself to do something only makes me self conscious
I don't feel like doing anything
But I will always wake up
Just to feel the same way.

I am not strong
But I am brave
I can put on a smile
Through anything
I am not strong
But that doesn't make weak
I can fight for what I believe in
Even if it means losing
I am not strong
But I can hold back tears
If it means you will be happy
I am not strong
But being strong on the outside
Doesn't make you strong on the inside
The inside is what counts
Be strong in your own way.

This is what I am
And what I was
For as long as I could remember
I was trash under your feet
Only trash that could be thrown away
Whenever you felt like it.
I was treated like trash
So I thought I was trash
I thought I was only good enough to be used
And abused
And cut
And bruised
I thought I deserved it because of you
I was trash
But trash doesn't always stay trash
It gets found
Treated like it isn't trash.
Pampered because it was never trash.
I am trash
No I was trash
But now I am not
Because trash doesn't stay trash forever
Sometimes it gets recycled.

I am not perfect
I can be sweet
And I can be serious
I fall apart easily
In hopes that someone can fix me
I fall in love too deep
And I hope someday you can fall in with me.
I am not perfect
I have my flaws
Many flaws
I laugh with my heart even if it is too much
I trip and fall all the time
Hoping you can catch me
I am not perfect
But thanks for believing I am.

I have fallen
Into the ashes
Of what we were
You have forgotten
Who I am
The minute I fell
Into the mess you made
I have fallen
Away from us
Because I was never enough
To make you feel alive
So instead I died
I have fallen
To my heartbreak
Because I somehow thought
You would change.

I have fell to deep for you.
So deep
That I can't escape
My mind only revolves around you
And how my heart soars
When you talk to me
Maybe this is love
But all I know
Is I have fell so deep for you
That no one can save me
But you.

I feel lost in my mind
Like everything is a mess
And I can't find my way out
And I stay there
In the mess that is my mind
Never seeking help
To find the exit
Just staying in the mess
Until I either find it myself
Or die

Am I not good enough
That you won't say I look good
You say there is never a right moment
But there always has been
I love you
But never saying anything to me
Makes me feel useless and not good enough
Like saying it would be a lie
And a single compliment just is too hard
I try and compliment you
But now that I know I won't get it back
Then why should I
You don't even try
So why should I
I guess I am not good enough
Like everyone already says

I am upset
Always depressed
Never liking myself in a dress
Obsessed with death
unless my flesh has been dressed red

I hate myself
I hate how I don't talk
I hate my fake smiles and laughs
I hate the mask of makeup I put on my face
Just to feel a little prettier
I hate how I look
Never skinner enough
No matter what I do
I hate myself
I hate how I have no friends
And how I will stay at home
Cutting my arm into a millions pieces
Just to feel something
I hate how everyone thinks that I am always like that
I hate no one will notice when I cry
I hate myself
I hate my body
I am trapped in and I can't escape
I hate how you don't notice how unhappy I am
And how I want to die
More than anything
But you have never seen me happy.
Not always depressed
With how I think people will think about me.
I hate myself
But I am trying to feel better
But I keep pushing myself down
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate how you love me
I hate how you love my curves
And love how I snort when I truly laugh
I hate myself
But I will love myself if you will stay.
I hate how much you love me.
I hate myself