I wish I could fly

Up to the sky

So that when I cry

My tears and my pain

Will blend with the rain

Then no one will know

I’m dying so slow

I’ll lie on a cloud

And fade away.

Slit your wrists

And take those pills

Down that bleach

Until you lie still

Kick the stool

And hang from the tree

Jump into traffic

Will you do that for me?

You say we don’t care

You say we don’t see

That we wouldn’t miss you

Well you just wait and see.

They’ll box up your room,

Cry every time they pass.

Your friends all have depression,

Your teacher won’t teach class.

Your bully’s now a cutter,

Your grandma passed away.

Her heart just couldn’t take it,

Knowing it was you she couldn’t save.

I’m scared of dying

I’m tired of crying

I look in her eyes

She says I’m lying

She says I’m ugly

She says I’m a *****

I leave the mirror

And slit my wrists

She left her mark

I felt her sting

The voice in my head

Urges me to bring

The blade to my arm

Not sure if I’m living

I go to sleep

I wake up again

I go see her

For another conversation.

I can’t repress these feelings

Inside of my head

They’re loud

They’re fast

They’ll lead to my death.

I can’t repress

But I can’t let them out.

I’m silently shouting

And you’ll never find out

I’m slowly dying

Killing myself

From these repressed feelings

Inside my head.

I’m fighting this war

Behind my closed door

I sit on the floor

It’s happening more

More than before

It eats at my core

Behind my closed door

It’s a painful ****** war

I look at the clock

It’s late

And I can’t stop

I rock

Tears falling from my face

And I can’t stop

I slice

I burn

And pick up the pace

There’s no more flesh

Just a river of red

The pain is unbearable

So I crawl into bed

It’s 8 o’clock

I head to school

Wearing long-sleeved shirts

Because I am so cruel

Cruel to my mind

And more to my body

It’s an endless war

That I won’t win

Behind my closed door

Let the night begin.

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I let you down

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I never came around

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I pushed you away

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I wish you would stay

But it can’t be that way

I’ll **** you

You’re my prey

I miss you

I need you

But you have to stay away

I’ll hurt you

Like I do

Every single day

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

It has to be this way.