I loved you
when I loved you,
but now that time is past.

make no mistake,
you made yourself perfectly clear
in your silence

and somehow I moved on
without a second thought
you weren't the one:
a lie I had bought

and now I'm strong,
but still I am weak
I don't know how but you brought out the best in me

that time is over now
you made that perfectly clear
in your silence

I loved you
when I loved you
but now that time is gone

don't cry for me
cause i won't shed a tear for you
in your silence

I loved you
when I loved you
but now those memories are bittersweet

when I was young and I was foolish
running around on much smaller feet.

It is strange,
That I glimpsed you once from afar
In passing
And I saw you
Abandoned. In disrepair and I thought you were
Beautifully tragic.
You were alone and I did nothing
I did nothing
I did nothing but watch you crumble
I saw you again today
Again in passing
And I found that you had been
Saved. Someone had picked you up
And gathered your pieces
They built you back up and I did nothing
I did nothing
I did nothing but watch you stand.

my procrastination
it's a funny thing
only applying to the things i love
when they are forced upon me

give me a packet of mathematics
burden me with backbreaking tasks
hand me a bowl of poison
and i will gladly get it over with--if only to cease its hold over me

yet compel me to read
oblige me to complete my part in a choir
and i will fight
languidly stubborn until i am forced into compliance

to do what i should love
but hate
simply because it is forced on me
i will fight it off

it's my own funny little brand of sloth

Then all at once
The heavens became empty
And as dark as the void
From which God created them
And I knew in my soul
The era of mankind had ended
Yet the faithful remained
To watch the nothingness unfold
And the stars die out
From the eternity spoke a truth
As unseen hands shaped a world
That was always meant to be
"Let there be light."

I lay with my sister who sleeps carefree
Under the boughs of our mother's tree
I look upon her beauty with jealous gaze
Our love for each other an arduous maze

She calls, "Little sister come play with me,"
We jump and we run and we splash in the sea
I cling to her side as the waters rise
Finding her company strong and wise

For my sister I would do most anything
Around my heart she has tied her string
Everyday she paints a picture of perfection
I can only hope that I am a just reflection

Following her footsteps in all that she does
Such is my fate, and always was
I do not mind it, for I love my sister so
Her kindness and beauty like the pure mountain snow

My lonely worship
A beautiful new dawn
Freed from pretty lies

Protection divine
His kiss laid upon my brow
A sanctuary

The song from above
This poor pilgrim's heart is light
Submerged in the spirit

Fortified in you
The sons and the daughters rest
Singing out your name

I am weary but I cannot cease my toil
I have wasted enough time on frivolous pursuits
Yet they are my only respite from the world placed upon my shoulders
The dark softness of the night sky beckons me away from my work and wakefulness
But I cannot cease!
I cannot rest, no matter the personal cost! For the consequence of my failing shall be a much higher toll!
My future in turmoil
My family flummoxed
The joy of my life leeched away by ghoulish specters I cannot fight off, only bow before
And I want it all to end--yet I wish to live my dreams and fulfill my hopes!
Woe be to the laborer who serves the demands of those they love!
No rest seems unselfish, no indulgence is guiltless, the self is stripped away to become a slave of the labors of love!
O sleepless rest! O restless sleep!
How I long for the simpler days of childhood!
How I long for the sweet sleep of the innocent, to which I can never return!
Woe be to the weary soul!

When God created the world
He was so kind to give us eyes
So we could see the wonder
And beauty he placed around us
So we could admire the vast ocean
And the painted sunset sky
And the wildflowers that bloom
Alongside the highway

When God created the world
He was so kind to give us ears
So we could hear the songs
And the rhythm of the earth
So we could listen to the birdsong
And the rustle of the wind
And the cadence of the raindrops
Falling on the rooftops

When God created the world
He was so kind to give us voices
So we could laugh together
And cry on each other's shoulders
So we could share advice
And tell one another stories
And whisper secrets
In the dead of the night

Thy heart is big
Lend me your hand
Because I love you, I shall let you know
That our faults lie not in our stars
But that we are mere mortals

Your once commended beauty--
Still Lingers

All my vows of love--
Still Strong

You are as dear to me
As the life blood in my veins

Kneel not, gentle Portia

I love you well
Not without cause
Let me, upon my knee, prevail in this

Let there be music to fill my ears
with the voices & melodies I cannot make
Let there be music to fill my soul
with the crescendos & chords I cannot replicate

Let there be stars to fill my eyes
with the wonder & beauty I cannot be
Let there be stars to fill the night
with the majesty & radiance from which I cannot flee

Let there be music to fill my ears
Let there be stars to fill my eyes
So I may be understood as I shed tears
So I am not alone when I cry

Take a few minutes
Each and every day
Stand in front of the mirror
Look at your reflection
And ask yourself a few questions

"How are you feeling today?"
Ask politely, pause for a heartbeat or two
"What's wrong?" With sincerity, mind you
Because no one is as strong as they think
"I haven't seen so-and-so for a while!
It's so good to finally meet up with them again."
Reminisce on good times long gone
Imagine the future he'll give you

"Do you really want to have to go through with this?"
Ask yourself, staring into your own eyes
Put down the razor and the skin cream
Put away the curling iron and the makeup
Give up the fad diet and the guarantees
Stop worrying about what your parents will say

Smile at yourself in the mirror
Wink and lean in close
So close your breath fogs up the mirror
Have a good long laugh
Send a few thoughts up his way

'Cause he's looking down from paradise
And believe me when I say
That God loves all his children as they are
After all, he did make you that way

As far as I've heard
There are two types of country songs
Those that say
"People never Change!"
And those that say,
"Oh, yes they can."

As far as I've seen
There are two types of Christians
Those that think
That they are high and righteous
And those that know
They should be so very humbled

As far as I think, not know,
There are only two sides of a coin
One is called the head
And the other is
known as the tail

As far as I know
there is no black and white
There is no fat line that divides them
And there is no line at all, just millions of shades of gray
So have a little faith in me

As I walk
the words of those that never existed
echo inside of my mind

I have learned
that you don't have to share each other's blood
to be the closest brothers

I can hear
thousands of voices swelling up inside
each begging for just one chance

I can see
every one of those smiling faces
that I've never laid eyes upon

Now I know
I'm friends with those that never existed
those that I have never met

I have fought
hundreds of battles with nary a scratch
but been mortally wounded

For I am
A warrior, a queen, a servant, a child,
a mere bystander

Because I
Have a library inside of my head
of all that I read

People can change
For the better
Or for worse
And I know this for certain
Because I lost a friend

The others don't blame me
We did our best
Trying to bring him home
But our promises were all made void

She believed in me
Said I was the only one
Who could save him from himself
But I am not wiser or stronger
Because I lost a friend

He laughs and he mocks me
For the friendship I believed in
The one he betrayed
And inside I am wounded deeply
Because we lost a friend

The world went dark at midnight.

Fires gave one last valiant roar and died away.

Candles sputtered and drowned in their pools of wax.

Lanterns flickered and fell into an eternal sleep.

And the moon itself turned black
and came crashing down;
as the stars drifted away
abandoning us here.

The end of the world was at midnight.

I do not
think that I
was meant
to break away

For now
My thoughts are scattered
and
shattered
like shards of
glass

I
do not know when
I will find
a light
or a hope
for me
in this darkness
that drowns
me

I do not
think that I
was meant
to break away

For now I
cannot sleep
I have
no
identity

I am
broken
and forgotten
crushed underfoot
by the
masses
like
shattered glass

Everyone here is smiling,
We've just saved the day.
We all cheer and pat each other on the back,
Why shouldn't We?
We've just saved the world again.

Inside I am screaming,
They have just killed my heart.
My shoulders are shaking and my eyes stream tears,
Why shouldn't they?
They've just destroyed my only hope again.

Our heroes descend with flying colors,
They've just saved the day.
We all shout with joy as they take a lap of victory,
Why shouldn't they?
They've just saved the world again.

I pick up the pieces now,
I have to try again somehow.
Though my heart shudders and my hands
My hands, they won't stop trembling,
And why shouldn't they?
They've just conquered the world again,
And all know me as the villain.

I will try to save the world again,
****** it from their illusions.
But what good is a single hero,
*When all know me as the villain.