When gazing upon her reflection
She doesn’t see wisdom in grey hairs
Or find memories in smile lines
She sees bags and wrinkles
Pain and stress
Tears roll over the hills and valleys
On her aging cheeks
Oh how I wish she could see
There is simple beauty in living
A long and happy life

My wandering fingertips
Trail up and down my skin
I can’t help but wish
It was your lips again

From this nightmare
I cannot wake

To wake up
I must first fall asleep

If nothing lasts forever
Why do we expect love to be the exception?

I've loved that      smile of your's
Like   the   shining  bright  sun  
Oh, that eyes, little two stars
View full of bright lights
Echo in my mind
You in my heart
Only two of
Us.

Everyday I wake up with the storm in my chest
No, you don't know nor understand
I am okay or somehow I look okay
My mind is clear,
My heart in turmoil
The knife in my hands ready to stab my heart out
I am exhausted, yet I want to ****
End not your life but mine.

I am ambitious
Sinner for her ambition
Deserves nothing but a life sentence
Behold, the disappearance of my presence

Eyes are watching.... judging...
Do I deserve their piercing gazes?
Probably.
I've let down the people in my life,
The ones that really matters

Now, I am surrounded of booming laughter
Thy name, hold up to shame
Ridiculed for trying to achieve a star so far
I should have known that it's impossible to fly.

This suicidal note is not for you
It is for me, for I need to calm my nerves
For I am holding the knife that is ready to rip my heart.

Goodbyes aren’t always evident.
A person doesn’t have to pack a bag,
and kiss you goodbye,
to leave forever.
Sometimes they slip away so subtly,
you don’t even notice,
until they are gone forever.