so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

how can i feel the care ..
when i am the one who always cares
and
should always be the one that cares

do others always define of who i am??

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL THIS EMPTINESS INSIDE ME
EVEN TOUGH I MADE SURE I AM FULL FOR THE OTHERS

why do i always get hurt ??
cause u expect the same effort from them
and they don't do that

i  don't know how long i can take this ...

" I AM IMMORTAL
BUT U KILLED ME "

can love be really bittersweet ??
caz all i saw was bitter side of it...
what happened to the sweet side.

Perhaps this explains
why God did not endow hearts with bones
because they break so frequently.

the only definition i know of love is "YOU"
how can i ever change it ??

Why was the world created
without the freedom of love?

"mujhe nahin lagata ki main
aakhiree saans tak jinda rah paoonga,
tumhaare bina unaka kya kaam hai "
I don't think i can live till my last breath ,
what are those without you

AFTER 50 YEARS
" EVEN THE MOST-WELL BUILT BUILDINGS
ARE BOUND TO CRACK
BUT HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT
I STILL DONT HAVE
A SLIGHTEST OPENING
IN MY HEART TO LET YOU GO "
EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT ME

"what should I do with this lonely life
all that left are tears
all I lost are smiles "

" why can't I breath
even though there is air
why do feel suffocated
even though I am free"

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

if i should go to the depths of the misery
then i would gladly do so with you

because we cant relive the moment
we try capture it in photographs
then we the person is gone
that photographs will break ur heart

he asked: "why do people write poetry
when they can just talk with words "
she replied: "even with words they cant understand but in poetry I can just say I am drowning in the air  and be understood"

is it only me or everyone think:
" Sun die every night for moon.
and the moon brings him back to life every morning."

" Hum the dhoondte jisse
Woh kami ban gaye
Tum mere ishq ki
Sar-zameen ban gaye"
now these lines hit me hard.

why do people doesn't care of others
like how do we tell them that it hurts
no matter how many tears go through the eyes
the pain just never fades
how do we tell this to the people

you are my story for love
you are the meaning of my forever

so many words but still not enough
to tell you that
how much it huts to be like this
how much it hurts to let  everything go
how much it hurts to forgive u
u just make me a mute
and the words die at the back of my throat
those form a lump inside
that I try hard to digest to breath again

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

when i think of life
i think of you
all the things u do
all times when you call me pretty
the look u give me
when u can't hide Ur love
all the times u said u were there
all the times u asked me to love you
all those smiles u hide
all the blushes I see
the happiness on your face
all the nights u stay awake for me
all the dreams you have of me
all these remind me of life

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

should I finally agree the fact that I lost you!!
even though u were never mine from the start

how to heal the broken parts of the soul
that keep breaking on daily basis
how is that "nothing is so broken that can't be fixed"
while all I feel is feel broken with every ounce of air i breath..

All the things that were left unsaid.
what does they ****?
the words of free will
just like the tears that
never cross the bridges of the eyes
all the memories of drowning
and never learning never to swim

As the day goes by
the breath gets heavier to breath.
the mind gets weighed down.
heart get burned.
with all the things it sees, takes, heard.

can anyone love me like Achillies did Patroclus
can anyone describe be like Patroclus did Achillies
can anyone fight like Achillies
love me like Patroclus

FORGIVING IS WHEN U CAN’T LET THEM GOO
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD A DAUGHTER BE TOWARDS HER FATHER
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD AMOTHER TOWARDS HER CHILDERN
HOW FOR GIVING SHOULD A WIFE BE TOWARDS HER HUSBAND

WHEN YOU LOST YOURSELF
WHERE DO YOU SEARCH FOR IT ???

WHY ARE YOU GIVEN THIS LIFE??
WHAT DOES LIVING LIFE MEAN???
WHY ARE THERE DIFFERNT AGES
DOES IT EVER BECOME HARD TO REMEMBER ALL THE MEMORIES
SHOULD WE BE HAPPY TO REMEMBER
OR
SHOULD WE SAD TO ONLY REMEMBER
WHY ARE THERE DIFFERNT PAHSES
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DIFFERNT FEELINGS ONE SHOULD FEEL
SO MANY QUESTIONS WITHOUT ANSWERS
ALL THE MOTIVATION REALLY WORK.
ALL THE POSTIVE AFFRIMATONS
HOW MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE STILL KNOW THE MEANING OF THE REAL SMILE
HOW MANY OF THEM CAN ACTUALLY HAVE A REAL SMILE ON THEIR LIPS...

CAN EVERYONE HIDE THE TEARS
BEHIND ALL THE BRIGHT SMILES
CAN EVERYONE ACT NORMAL
WHEN THEY CAN'T EVEN BREATH
CAN EVERYONE WALK PROPERLY
WHEN THEIR HANDS AND LEGS WENT COLD
DOES EVERYONE ACT FINE WERE U ARE AT THE EDGE OF
JUMPING OF A CLIFF
DOES EVERYONE NEED ONE SOUL WHO CAN SEE THE
STRUGGLE TO BREATH
THE SHAKING HANDS
THE TEARS WHILE SIMLING
THE PAIN INSIDE ...

HOW HARD CAN IT BE TO SMILE?
WAS MY FIRST THOUHT
NOW I KNOW HOW HARD IT CAN BE TO SMILE
TO HIDE THE TEARS IN YOUR EYES...

PEOPLE SAY THAT EYES DOESNT LIE
CAN A STRANGER LOOK INTO MY EYES AND
TELL HOW DEAD I AM INSIDE??

HOW DO YOU KNOW IT'S "LOVE"
HOW DO PEOPLE TELL ITS LOVE
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN ALL YOUR LOVE IS FINISHED?
DOES PEOPLE RUN OUT OF LOVE? LIKE FUEL FOR A CAR ...
HOW LONG CAN A PERSON LOVE ANTHOER PERSON ...
DO YOU THINK ALL THE " TILL DO US APART PROMISES ARE TRUE "
WHAT DOES A PROMISE MEAN??

Our love story started when you were there
and I was standing next to you.

Then you had disappeared when I turned around.

I would always walk by myself with you.

In our tale of love

I thus made the decision to stroll by myself.

Without you this moment

just like the ocean kiss the shore.
I want you.
all of you
all the time
in my dreams
in my breaths
in my skin and bones
in my blood
I desire for us to be the great Patroclus and Achilles.
just like how the Achilles calls Patroclus "PHILTATOS"
and how the Patroclus knows Achilles in "DEATH."
I shall know you at the end of the world.    
What I desire between us is their love to one another.  
cause I am not ready to let you go yet.
but just like Patroclus
I shall long for you in the after world.

all the words to express the feelings
all the feelings i am expressing
pointed you
propel me in the
direction of your fantasies
letting  me to exist in your speculations
The day I met you
was the day I understood
how frightening being apart can be.

Little did u know
How I was crying
While u were blaming me
for all the things u did
and all that we had to go through
but
Why couldn't you realise
how you were killing me
piece by piece?
word by word?
action by action?
day by  day?
hour by hour?
minute by minute?
till every last butterfly perished and
every last leaf withered to the dust...

All we do is to
Live in the imagination
Of things that will never
Come across or happens in real life
like each and every person did
i did too but u were my imagination
all ur smiles
all ur laughs
all ur tears
all the funny jokes
and the "just woke up face"
i imagined all to well and everything perfect
but u never saw me in ur imagination

All i wanted was time
All i needed were the words
U you never gave them
In the search of the other
Now all u left me with is the pain
But still all i can ever think of is u
Now it's just the thoughts of u
I am all left with ....
Now i wanna move on
But everytime i try
All i see is u everywhere
Now when all u see is her

U and me can't be together
I know we have  tired
And there were times
when we thought of us
In a future
Now it's just a dream
That is nothing but a black screen
We can't be together
When our meaning of forever is never same

I stood infornt and knocked
the door of my heart
Heart asked .. who's there?
I replied it's me..
Heart told there is no me
It's only you ....
With hope I searched
The door of your heart
Hoping your heart
Would answer it's all me
But when I stood infornt and  knocked
The door of your heart
And told it's me
It told me it's all "her"

You taught me the art of eye contact
And yet u left me
So now I am so lost
And losing all my inspiration

When the world is ending
Death is the beginning
I will be there standing
To show the world
Despite the distance
People and problems
My love wins ....
And tell u
I LOVE YOU ❤️
For the first and last time ...