the tears that are rolling down my cheek
and dying at my lips
hold the hot and solitary love
i have for you in my heart

"IM TIRED " & " IVE TRIED"
how can i explain these two words
to them
how can i make them understand

You were busy painting our love black
While I was trying for it to be colourful

WITH THE WORD "LOVE"
YOU KILLED ME INSIDE

lost count on
how many times i have wished for
"a little less pain "
in this life

I finally realised that I could breathe,
but while I was drowning,
I realised that i would eventually run out of it.

no word hurt me the most
than the word "what if "
in the English literature

How long should my sadness last?
When will it come to an end?
Will it ever stop? For a split second, I might feel happiness touching my heart, but then waves of grief washes over me.
Still, for what length of time should I cover the bridges of my eyes to hide the tears that are starting to well up?
Still, how long should I continue to act as I'm alive  though I'm dead?
when will the world realize that i was dead inside a long time ago...

HOW DOES THAT RUSH FEEL ?
THAT FIRST TOUCH RUSH
THAT FIRST KISS RUSH
THAT GLANCE RUSH

while we continued to suffer
we still loved each other

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

at least , at last love me
even though its not the consuming love
i just wanna experience the warmth of it ...

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

with tears rolling down my cheek
i understood that
"they may want you be the happiest in your life
but you will neve be their first priority"
and this hit me hard...

can i still hold on to you
can i still hold on to us
just a little longer
this dream feels good
than any other reality !!

my tears will confess  you
my smiles will confess  you
my thoughts will confess  you
each and every particle of my existence will confess
"THE STORY OF YOU"

WHAT HAPPENDS TO THE POET
when he completes to tell the story ???
does he live eternally through the poetry
he already wrote or does he vanish just like his words

YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALL THE
"BUTTERFLIES"
BUT SUDDENLY YOU WILL **** THEM ALL

i am running of words to express this feeling!!

how can i say this
if u want u can stay if u don't want then leave
but i do hope u stay!!

The unplanned life is kinda exciting and sad
i never thought i would make it past 18

i know i was the one who told you to let go
but why do i don't like this feeling???

Apart from asking for "LOVE" from me
sometimes
give me some

i cant take this anymore please make it stop!!!!
please please please make it stoooooppppppp

you know what ...
nobody wants the ugly side
everybody want the sunshine and rainbows
but what about the thunders & lightings

what hurts me the most??
feelings , loneliness, breakup, expectations...nah
"HAPPINESS"  hurts the most

the people whom u think will stay till the end
will always leave at the end
don't worry the only thing they leave with
will be the pain

i was drowning in you
i wasn't even aware of it...

"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories

will it hurt always ??
even though i let go of them !!

i know i have to let you go...
but
if i know i have to let you go this early
then i would have never held your hand at all

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

how can i feel the care ..
when i am the one who always cares
and
should always be the one that cares

do others always define of who i am??

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL THIS EMPTINESS INSIDE ME
EVEN TOUGH I MADE SURE I AM FULL FOR THE OTHERS

why do i always get hurt ??
cause u expect the same effort from them
and they don't do that

i  don't know how long i can take this ...

" I AM IMMORTAL
BUT U KILLED ME "

can love be really bittersweet ??
caz all i saw was bitter side of it...
what happened to the sweet side.

Perhaps this explains
why God did not endow hearts with bones
because they break so frequently.

the only definition i know of love is "YOU"
how can i ever change it ??

Why was the world created
without the freedom of love?

"mujhe nahin lagata ki main
aakhiree saans tak jinda rah paoonga,
tumhaare bina unaka kya kaam hai "
I don't think i can live till my last breath ,
what are those without you

AFTER 50 YEARS
" EVEN THE MOST-WELL BUILT BUILDINGS
ARE BOUND TO CRACK
BUT HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT
I STILL DONT HAVE
A SLIGHTEST OPENING
IN MY HEART TO LET YOU GO "
EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT ME

"what should I do with this lonely life
all that left are tears
all I lost are smiles "

" why can't I breath
even though there is air
why do feel suffocated
even though I am free"

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

if i should go to the depths of the misery
then i would gladly do so with you