Just when I was down to a little flicker,
I let go of every little thing that had come to make me bitter.

I couldnt withstand the barrage of thought my mind tried to deliver
Feet below the surface I was stuck stagnant to quiver

Fearing imagined outcomes I was sinking much faster
I went through the years just to succumb to this disaster?

Heart racing, wincing with faint pain
My face painting the position of strain.

Overwhelmed by memories that staged where I am today,
Along with the visions, of all I didn't get to say.

I was dying,
accepted it as fact
I went against my true nature and fell off every track.

If I was to go, I need to seek to keep my soul intact.

I shared secrets with with the stars,
whispered wisdom and wishes to the wind.
I poured prayers into nature's pores,
so that new life again could spring~

With every little utterance, I gave what was left of me.
Thinking of all of life as family,
with my last breath I thanked the trees,
for providing oxygen to breathe as fuel for all my body's microscopic functionalities.

The self imposed sinkhole was past my nose.
I will provide the earth with nutrients for whatever the future grows.

Blackness.

And then a flicker.

Soared toward the light that now flowed like a river.
Dove in, but rather than sink I chose to ascend.
I felt a bliss so delicious I wished it'd never end
Just then, in my gaze I saw some friends.
I was confused for they wore the faces of the dead.
Was this a hologram figment from too many milligrams of dread?

Just then a beautiful voice, softly spoke in my head
"I love you, son." Was all that it said.
These were words unheard in my time on Earth.
Now I face the man whose seed was the reason for my birth.

That warm smile,
With such gentle eyes,
Dumbfounded for awhile,
Never having felt so surprised.
Basking in something I wanted all my life.

Tears for the first time in years rolled down my face
A hug ensued, floating in love within the most tender embrace.
I wanted to apologize for ever throwing dirt on his name,
But he already knew, like he was inside my brain.

I felt my flicker, again turn into a flame.

"You are love my boy, we all lose our way.
You will earn your wings, but for now you mustn't stay.
You are to head back, and help restore faith.
Express equanimity, and give all walks of life praise.
This means you too, I know you haven't been fine.
Keep only healthy thoughts on the surface of your mind
Give out the contents of your heart for we are all the divine.
Tell your mom, that we up here think of her too,
And to ask for anything, for we know what she's going through.
Let her know she holds the radiance to brighten any room
We all love you both, see you again, when your soul is in bloom."

I awoke on a chair, in front of some paper.
I was to archive everything, this moment is to savor.
Amidst the letter I was writing to the world,
I stopped to notice 2 new flowers on my desk, that had just recently unfurled,
Reminding me to love myself, and share it all with my girl.
Her head on a pillow, and her hair lay in swirls
Nuzzled up and enveloped her, for I am her clam, and she is my pearl.

I have much to vocalize to the infinite, from the confines of my chest.
*I've found heaven on Earth, but first, much-needed rest~

Life is school, this is silly.  
I was always excited for recess,
Born to be Wild like homeboy Free *****
Dustin checked in to eventually check out.
He knew there was so much more that our existence was about.
Went into the wild under the guidance of Rafiki

Nemo found himself at Free Thought Academy

Lion King was seen  weeping only tears of joy
At first roar of his cub, darling baby boy
He knew to nourish this being's mind, body, and soul.  So he gained deep wisdom in the art of breath control.  After this recognition, he taught his practice for free.  Nowadays everything is fluid and the kingdom thrives with ease.

I don't know how to heal, but I sure know what it's like to feel.
Been reeling for such a long time with nothing on the end of the hook.
Everything is wonderful in a fantasy world, narrated eloquently like a book.
But who took me away from completion? What's the reason?
It's no one's fault, I think far more than I have to.
Sometimes I feel confined within walls, and in my own head I get trapped too.
I am a hyper-sensitive being, and I'll admit that I often don't trust what my eyes are seeing.
I usually know what's pure, but sometimes it just helps to make sure.
I flee from the moment, free to hold it - an idea I water that grows into something beautiful.
I don't need to try to show you, but I feel dutiful.
If only it could reflect reality, instead of opposing ideas that seemingly try to battle me.
If anything I've hurt myself more than any one person can.
I still wonder what it is, that is, my "plan".
I cause actions that I retort with emotionally-driven reactions,
and the fact is I hurt on the inside mentally and physically on the daily.
I try to keep the demons out, but sometimes I feel they have a thing for me and don't want me to have a sense of liberation, to be free.
I feel for all you people and it ***** knowing we can't get along.
I wish things didn't always feel wrong. I try to go right but seem to veer left.
I am not ignorant to my actions and how they could inevitably create an untimely death.
We are all uncertain, and it's a part of life.
There are no worlds that exist without strife, but they are handled in a unique manner.
I want all of life, not just a platter sampler.
My heart keeps a beat, unsteady, and not always am I exactly ready for what's to come,
but I go with the flow and continuously row because tomorrow never knows.
My love goes out to you, unquestionably. This isn't just to one, but all of humanity, and more.
With that said, let's go. We have a universe of possibility to explore.

Imagine impacts
Thoughts create reality
Be who you want to

The path ahead splits
Countless opportunities
Choose what lifts your soul

In times such as these
Lethargy is a disease
Now's time for action

Spread the love to me
I'll give exponentially
Then we'll flood the world

When it all soaks in
True colors pour out of pores
Universe adorned

Free from the clutches
Nothing is impossible
We are infinite

Our river runs deep but it trickles to a halt somewhere,
My river has expanded but it's like you don't even know it's there.
Sometimes we are inhibited simply because we care,
Please, take the chance on your life, if you dare.
Know that you won't always be prepared,
But if you never experience, you'll never know how well you fared.

Failure can happen,
But no longer do I fear it.
Happiness is across the gap,
I can help you clear it.
Love can stain,
and I just want to smear it.
Sometimes when i sing,
I wish that you could hear it.

"I've found myself fall into madness so I dove, the best thing I ever did was let go.."

Let your life, flow, freely without fear of current situations or the future. Trust, trust in the universe to show you exactly what you need. Risks, take risks to prevent what-ifs. This, here, now, the present of a present...be aware of it.. the sounds, sights, as well as how you feel. Always take the time to check in with yourself because your soul already knows the right answer. Patience, know that through the trials will come a new life, springing beautifully from what was. There, you'll find bliss.. Only if you believe it. No coincidences, there is no such thing. Everything happens for a reason, from the smallest of occasions to the biggest of situations. We can learn from it all if we choose to. Mostly though, learn to love, yourself. Only then can it spread like a deliberate wildfire, boosting the universal consciousness higher. Sit with the self from time to time and be silent. Eventually, your mind begins to speak in ways that stray from self-defeat. It needs to be silenced before you can shine with all you have to give and be the best form of you, that you never thought was even possible.

Have a wonderful day! Namaste~

You don't need crutches when you have wings

I do believe people are always changing, for better or worse - ever fascinating.  I'm no saint, and I strive only to be, the me better than the individual I used to see.  Our fractals react to every train of thought on the track.  Once we live with intent our cells fully-optimized will reflect.  Beyond our body, we are being.  We are the space between our sub-atomic particles resonating. Now how do you want your vibe to sound?  We transcend to new peaks when we allow our feet to leave the ground.
Let's choose to grow beyond the person we were yesterday, or even 3 hours ago,
                           *1 second
Eyes closed, purge the mold, develop sensations and unravel the soul~

Talk to those without something physical to hold.. if you don't already.  Send out intent with the individual in your mind's gaze, and don't wait until you're ready.  The action has been healing for me, and in a way, helps me see our timelessness.  Years have passed since yesterday, but the presence within is here to stay.  May seem cliche but I am who I am because of the love at play.  
                     Thank you
 Forever blessed, moving forward with my eyes closed.  Walls fall, allowing my light inside to be exposed.  When was the last time I granted myself permission to be vulnerable?  This life is a limited-time offer and our body is returnable.  
Eventual satisfaction guarantee, for every star explodes, only to create galaxies.  Look to the sky tonight to feel grounded.  When you feel the effortless love, you are always surrounded.  Waves talk, but the depths listen.  I honor you, fellow cosmonaut, and appreciate your mission
Home

I get to look at self, through messages you conveyed
A higher meaning that resonates with each song played
So I would like to take this opportunity to give thanks
Before I walk the plank to take another dip in this think tank

Okay.

When I was just a little me I noticed those around living unhappily.
It was something I knew I never wanted to be
But now I sit, blindsided by my misery
Drearily demeaning, cigarette breathing
Heating up the glass til it cracks
With no admittance, cuz that requires taking off the mask.
Haphazardly grappling, maybe it's better to be bashing the image
Livin with a grimace, wondering how long until this timeline is finished.
Dinner was delicious but I'm sick of eating the dead.
Makes you wonder how that haunted biology ***** with your head.
Quit my job, and now I rarely leave the house.  Quiet as a mouse until ego decides to come around.  No verbal notions but words bounce off my skull.  How did I decide to let my light get this dull?  The reservoir is full, but the pollutants keep it from being used.
Much like a body that's been abused and refuses to stand despite having the chance.
A delicate dance between what's real and what's not.  You behavior can directly grow or shrink blood clots.  Lost the plot in a Milwaukee pothole, only realized now I had forgotten.  Healthy seeds were dropped
But I stopped taking care of self and grew some tainted crops.  Just wanna talk to pops, and other like minds that will cry realizing their own props to the stage subconsciously set.  Blessed to have made it to this point, but on the opposite side of the coin we're closer to death.  Cousin of sleep cousin of sleep, haven't found any happiness even inside my dreams.  Inaudible screams, beam into my brain.  The house has been extra noisey lately that or I'm going insane.  I fear not.
Forward into the unknown
We'll find home even if we go it alone.
So long as you remember you're more than your bones.
"Do you feel better now?"
I don't know

My dream cycle continues after my eyes first open
But they're as fleeting as the feelings I've tried to rope in.
It was a hassle to make the lasso for it was a vast chore
I see more than I speak, wondering what people wear the mask for.
Trading in the conversating to check how I am operating
Too many problems we've been elongating,
It's frustrating, and painstakingly obvious we've been separating
When only, our thoughts are rearranging, fluctuating, and demonstrating -
New ways to gain power.  So I'm trying new ways to spend my hours
Find bliss through lists I want to accomplish.
Melancholy thoughts can create or demolish
And so through routine, our being, we must constantly polish.
Free yourselves from the skull and get astonished
by the magic in the universe, inside your soul.
You're carefully crafting this fractal of reality that we see,
with every thought
Letting go is a must, even with things we had sought.
The spirit speaks, listen to what it has taught, and is currently teaching.
Your higher self will take you to higher peaks, so where are you reaching?

Does it serve yourself enough to be happy within?

Accepting the oneness and your ability to inspire, a new life begins.

Hey friends,
just want you to know as this year ends,
whether you ingest brownies, alcohol or ecstasy,
stay safe, hydrate and create some new history, blissfully.
Get live, just don't drink and drive cuz we still have memories to make.
Consciously enjoy your slice of heaven, for heaven's sake.
Much love to you and the stars above
May you feel peace as clear and symbolic as the emergence of a dove.
Wear a glove if you get frisky,
and if you're strapped for cash drink off-brand whiskey.
May the music vibrate your soul, and the collective energy-field take hold
For you to seize control and own the present.
Let intuition guide you to a place more pleasant.
Even if you're gonna sit at home, sippin' on some beer,
*I hope you enjoy yourself, and have an amazing New Year!

David? Whatthefuck, back in the day we used to kick it,
today I wake to the news that you paid the ultimate ticket.
The world is wicked, and killing is shameful.
To know there'll never be just justice is painful.
Thinking back to some of the memories we had,
I laugh with the moments cuz they really made me glad to know you.
Still I've always known you to be a good person,
I know how occasions can lead to bad situations.
We all have a temper,
now it'sbest to remember that we should just cool down.
Otherwise there'll be other times where we find others are gone now.
I'm taking this time to reflect, because you getting shot is something i'd never expect.
You texted me months ago, and I saw you last week.
The questions of life is now something we're all to seek.
David, hopefully at least some will learn based on what was done,
and learn that f*cking with guns really aint that fun.
Much love to the heaven above for you or whatever place there may be.
You're gone but not gone, for in our hearts will always be Dahveeeeed!
Rest peacefully :/

"Follow me," she said, "I'll take you on a journey. I'll take you to the one place that I know no one can hurt me. First you must take this." I saw in her hand was a root of some kind. I looked into her eyes and saw a genuine sincerity that is hard to find. She then closed 'em, now sitting indian-style. Where we were there couldn't have been another person on these green pastures for miles. Now was the time to consume. My body was disappearing though I felt as a flower in bloom. There existed no such things as space and time, as I turned into a wavelength and flowed right into her mind. My body was back as I strolled through this garden of beauty, I know nothing of this foreign land, yet it meant so much to me. There she was, under a tree next to clear pond. We were very connected right now in an unspoken bond. "What is this place?" I asked as the end of her lips rose to a curl. "You're in the deepest, most sacred part of my world. When you ate the root your soul came loose and led you to where you want to be. I could tell by the way you fumbled your words that you wanted to be with me, or so I'd hoped." No words i spoke because I realized my dreams were now a tangible reality. I let go of every grudge and every endured fallacy, because I am where I'm meant to be. I never knew that my world would know peace, and hers is mine. Everything was in a straight line in accordance to get me to this place. All these thoughts are rolling through with my eyes never leaving her face. When those eyes locked with mine we inched closer fulfilling the embrace. In this moment we lived forever and it was everything I had hoped. Everything was perfect as our mind, body, and souls eloped.

Another day, another existential crisis
Stress releases cortisol which leaves the body lifeless
Working on my posture, getting twisted in fine print
Spending moments for money doesn't feed the idea of timeless
Baking in the sun, not having fun, I quit.
Not sure exactly when it was that my mind split
I refuse to die without expressing my gift
Or curse, to disperse words even when they hurt in bursts.  A surging splurge that can take away my energy.
Not sure if I'm my best friend or worst enemy
Coincidentally the mental fees are a mix between too heavy and really aint ****.
But it's been a long time since I believed in coincidence.  Time to change the skit - redirect focus from the cobweb tombs to flowers in full bloom.  I am one with the sun but currently resonate with the moon.  This distance is true, but I'll come back and love loudly again sometime soon.  Better make it now, why wear a head full of dread when a smile is more profound?  Better make it now.
*breathes

How can one understand the philosophy of these systemic chronological oddities?
Possibly my position on the path postures me to reach beyond the math to fall asleep.
The division just doesn't add up to me with the black hole of immeasurable probabilities
And so I must subtract laps on this lapse, and get back on track.  We all have the facts but haven't yet seen beyond the grasp of the mask.
Skip across the subject and skim inside the water.  Let go of the words that float, for clenched fists prove to be a bother.  
Ripples in the being speak to the entity of new ways to branch out the offer
All along the watchtower you've been waiting for yourself at the harbour.
Happy to see you decided to stretch the frequencies farther, genuinely smiling at the horizon.
Sometimes I think about my father, in my mind I then hear "Hi son"
This is currently Ryan, the thunder and the lightning
I am Lion delighted for the opportunity to be enlightening.  
This is me, when I exist beyond the body.  I was once stuck in front of the mirror while my soul waited in the lobby.
Wasting time gauging myself by opinions and consuming jobbies.
Now I freestyle life, and it's blossomed into my full-time hobby.

Image insecurities replace beauty with impurity
Open your lungs fully, then graciously exhale with me.
Address yourself with light and do so gently
Express what you feel inside even if it's just venting.

Refreshed, we sort this mess with inventive intention.  Perplexed, reading between the ledger lines of divine intervention.
Imagining that we indeed are the water we drink and the air we breathe..  Makes me want to Use the given limbs to stand mighty like the tree, yet, still sway softly with the breeze.  I've finally realized all of life comes to me with ease.
Inevitably enveloping are the vibrations of everything.  The magnetic field you posses, poses pictures of your surroundings.  Be sure to nurture seedlings to see the dawn of a new spring.  Positive affirmations promote productivity. So let's really mean what we speak - as this becomes reality.  Pay attention to thoughts and dreams, because there we spend our energy. 

Equipped with a beat in my chest, eye wear wings of patience as this existence rapidly manifests.
Let's rock the fashion of passion on the sleeve, infinitely blessed.

*Serendipiditous stardust woven with a love that can make a galaxy combust, you will make it.  I honor you and hope that you place faith in your trust.  Aware, you're now Lucid in this life, it is you - create it~

Told a friend ,"You should be proud man.." - his art's inspirIng.
Meanwhile I've been worried about a better job hiring
Haven't been on stage, or even really creating,
but i feel inside the times are finally changing.  
Rearranging my brain to drain the mundane and reignite the flame.  
I was born equipped with the tools made to manipulate the terrain.
In one hand, a mic, guitar and an 8track recorder.  
The other is three million excuses from a temporary bruised disorder.  
The decision is easy when Eye leave my mind behind and lose it.  
I smile knowing I've come alive again because all of life is music~

Frustration fueled isolation, not knowing I needed help
Then, the invocation of motivation brought me outside the self.
We're all swimming, free to choose how far you delve
& With thought we consciously cast our spells
The arrows in my marrow point to the magician in tarot,
Bring to light your intent, but please be careful.
Full of care, dare to share, life is rare
So don't compare, or be scared to bare
For you are as fluid as the elements in the air
Pull up a chair and stare into the flesh of the intricate infinite
Dissolve the walls, and embrace the colors of your breath while you sit with it.
The time is now, no need to fret over simple chores.
Instead I will lose myself in the moments between guitar chords
My cup has always been full, but i was once too fearful to pour
Spilled my words which illuminated a new path to explore
interpret the purpose as you will, the choice is yours
Perception can bring out heaven, or one hell of a storm
Not limited by norms Eye see eyedeas take form
Currently graced with space I have come with faith to create a life we can adore.
You've always held the key, and once you believe, you can open up the door

~

Some people are poisonous, keep at a distance.
Drain your soul, and consciously watch your body diminish.
They'll secretly sting you when you let them in the door,
and smile while you try to scrub them out of your pores.
Your quality of life can be heightened and restored,
but first you must do away with Lucy Ford.

I'm going to lose my mind, otherwise it's going to be made to seem as though it's true.
There are people manipulating your every day though you still may think this doesn't mean **** to you. We "misunderstood" are always gonna be considered crazy,
standing up to the powers, even maybe those that pay me.
Lazy is the mindset we're supposed to persist with
and knock off the protester sayin' "oh they're just throwing a ***** fit".
Wake up, we're all stuck.
We can join the powers that be and revel,
so long as you sign the dotted line and sell your soul to the devil.
Questioning observations can lead to revelations.
The fear that is sewn into us makes us turn away, with constant hesitations.
Our society is delicately controlled and to it, we are constricted.
Even sharing these thoughts with you, I am conflicted,
for most don't wanna see what's behind the advertisement.
Some people go along with anything as if they're mindbent.
Hello?
There's lots of RED(onthestreets), and WHITE(behindthescenes), so why can't you see?
Someday maybe MORAL (more'll) realize that we really aren't free.

Good morning Sunshine, it's almost 8
Pass you the bowl for a proper wake and bake
Today's a clean slate, get up and participate
Gotta give out love for it to reciprocate

Circle of life, we're responsible for our fate
Outside we fly into magic beyond the gate
One with our surroundings,
Growing when we meditate
Show the world your shine,
Let go and radiate~

Is this a daydream or hallucination
Steady lost in fascination
Climb the steps of preparation
Build bonds while staying patient
Live a life of experimentation
Illuminate in exotic sensations
Learn how to decipher manipulation
& how to speak with articulation

Exhale to ensure preservation,
Notice every indiviidual in every situation,
and choose who to keep in your rotation

Life

..Is what you make it
Dreams manifest, when you chase 'em
Runner's high, when ya face 'em
Guided by, Intuition
Down a long road on a constant mission

Perspective paves way for all envisioned,
To be in the right position for fruition
nnnnnow's the time to dance, you're free!
No need to worry, just be!
If you're ever hurtin', just breathe
If ya need someone to talk to, call me

Come together have fun and releaseee

I Believe..

Drastic changes happen in an instance
I am you, more than just a witness
Cross another item off your wishlist
Open your mind with no resistance

I've lived a life, as a misfit
To show you the truth, behind the fine print
We are actors creating al that's scripted,
but most is unconscious 'til we see we're gifted.
We work for more than entertanment
Satisfaction from passion comes as payment

Let's plan a map of action aboard my groovy spaceship
Coordinates locked in, but can we make it?
The vessels under attack, they're trying to break it
Stuck in the ego basement
They failed while trying to fake it
But we've been conditioned to take hits

And blindside opponents using our wits.

We have more force than when an atom splits

The difference lies in what you choose to do with it.

This is our time, we don't need a patent.
Inventing our lives, through all that's happened
I'll still smile, as the moments are passing
Because Eye am made of a kind of love that's everlasting

*Water the seeds to feel replenished
Still won't be finished after my body's diminished
This is a new age, a space with no limits
Forever together, making music for existence~

And in the drought, passion roared through that eternal water spout.
There was some doubt but then the world realized what this life was really about.
Heads were in the clouds only to find out that the stars have aligned.
Enraptured in love is where we've found ourselves so gently intertwined.
And in this time, no such face with numbers existed.
We ran together taking the opportunity as though we could have missed it.
It was bliss and had the moment had physical elements I might have kissed it, too.
For only from all perspectives do we acknowledge what is true.
It was indefinitely inspiring and on that notion we flew.

*What we share is beautiful, and what's not commonly known is taboo.
It just might be that what potentially starts with me, could end with you

Silence...a moment with self, because from no other can the answers be dealt.
It's nice to get help, but within you is informational untapped wealth.
Can't keep riding down this avenue, for, with what I believe in, in the long run it'd be untrue.
Excuses are for those who refuse to cope.
A life led in that direction without reflection will only stumble,
Crashing from a downhill *****.
Simply existing is genuinely resisting the life that could be.
Slave to the system, and slave to your mind, are you ever going to be free?

Is anybody listening, or rather glistening from contentment?
In a future time don't look back upset with where the years went.
Be true and think through how it is you want the currency spent.
Some people keep kicking in the wrong direction never really ever leaving a dent.
Is this just to vent, or to better human nature?
Chances are, by tomorrow, this won't even be remembered.

Rub the dust off the windowsill,
For the blinds won't hide you forever.
Open up the lungs with toxic chemicals,
Dying in an attempt to feel better.
Tragic design, outlined with the beautiful,
Got me wondering what the words will mean in my last letter.

Saddened by the losses of those I barely know,
When they played such big parts in my soul's growth.
Even though I know that nothing's set in stone,
I'm haunted all alone by my own death's ghost.
Hard not to imagine the status of my bones
When the aches are awakened by a solo thought's groan.

Every single ripple refuses to reflect the picture clearly,
So I stopped throwing rocks at all I was fearing.
Measuring correlations between my mood and the weather,
Wounds healed, finding me to be recipient and sender.
Eye lost my mind under the moon to realize it really gets better.

Just then I stared at the surface of the calm water and placed my feather~

We'll float on, and carry messages in waves
Your inner child already knows what you need to feel saved
In this life we often place a lot of pain on the grave,
It's time to focus on now, release worry, and be brave.

*Of love, we are all limitless banks
To you, and universal truths, I give thanks~

I confess in this test that we call life,
We all use, various things, to reduce strife.
In dark times it's hard, to be a light.
Which leads us to getting lost in tunes after a long night.
Now despite whatever's the preferred genre,
I'll manifest what I rep and lay it down upon ya.
Break down your walls with a magnetic new energy,
Crafted in the kitchen and blended so splendidly.
Differences in instances have influenced the bliss in this,
This art is how you choose it
However you view it, we were blessed with music.

I saw you alone, with headphones,
and it was almost sad to see.
I nod as I walk past, casually.
We're both drowning, in you I see the eternal me
It hasn't taken long to see that we connect perfectly.
Our soul is our luxury,
Deeply rooted we have grown astronomically
and by the music we are bound Universally.


It promotes your liberation,
Instilling feelings in you without hesitation, no need for contemplation.

Music will be with you wherever you take it,
Find solace in it's comfort like a security blanket.

My Utmost Significance Isn't Confined
The art lies in what you see within the lines.

It's now time to literally sing, time to open up my heart and let my voice ring.  The music is my passion and I wear as if it's an everyday fashion that'll never go out of style.  As for singing in front of people though, it's honestly been awhile.  Gonna give 'em a big smile, let out a joke so my nerves aren't all riled and relieve some tension.  Gotta give it my all, but that really goes without mention.

In the middle of mountains was no less than astounding.
Incredibly blessed for the situations I'm found in.
Forever youthful, not looking for the fountain.
Soaking in energies from the moon brightens me from what was, dim.
Exploring porous auras that I help fill when I touch ya skin
Was so consumed with Yang, I forgot about the Yin
Curiosity has gotten me, in the deep end of sin~

Yet.. all a matter of interpretation
Letting go of contemplations
Jumping in without hesitation
Unconsciously yielding manifestations.
So this is a new proclamation to flip the lever
Water rising, and it's exciting biting on a new endeavor
Flooding over with no control my whole world's getting wetter
Drown it out, increase the sounds, while working for something better.

I love you, majestic source of passion.
The fire inside excites, and also soothes me.  
Your twinkling sparkle sends out evocative thoughts throughout my synapses.  I let it flood my & consume me, encompassing my brilliant universe.  I breathe you in and every cell dances to our tune, enchanted.  Tingling sensations run down my spine, as my fingers trace yours.  You divine being of light - Eye thnk the space inside every little atom for your shine.  Molecular containers filled with love, weaving our way through dimensions.  The chemicals fluctuate, but the truth, is set in flourite - No longer mechanically charged to remain stagnant deciphering symbols and codes thousands of times over.  
My truth, is that I'm here, and I forever love you.

Vaccinate vacant expressions and hold elections for mayor
Impregnate impurities in the pure pawns that came for prayer
One dimension at a time trying to get across the chess board confined by squares
Spawn a queen made of dreams with the freedom to explore realms everywhere

Stone starts to float with malleable motions
Essence ascended after the mind broke open
Parting clouds allowed for clear messages the sun encrypted
Waves, sounding like home, powerfully reminiscent

Outside the atmosphere
eye could see the stars of the universe growing more clear
Only then to notice, my body disappeared
I transformed into light, in space manifesting new life
Creative insight, noticing wholeness in this day turned night

Limitless and diggin' this free flight
I feel the ecstasy teaching me all will be alright
Imagined a landscape and relocated with only beauty in sight

I raised mountains and probably thousands of trees
All commands consciously constructing the physical with ease
Waterfalls and animals emitting the only sounds
Accompanied by the breezy orchestra composed of those rooted in the ground

Astounded, awestruck, amazed, and confused
All this ability without a clue on what to do.
I flew back home and descended through the roof
My tether hasn't weathered and here is my proof
Every eloquent energy that rests in that room,
Is a petal on the flower that has yet to bloom

Beautiful regardless, all year 'round
Growing into capabilities we've only just found
Tuning in to open, peeling off the last mask's frown
Realizing the source inside yourself knows no bounds~

Triumphantly
Exploring
Imperfections
Yielding
A*ngles of this Angelic Actuality

Thoughtful and
Experienced, she
Intertwines the
Yin with Yang.  She yearns for a life well-lived while
Appreciating any and every
Profound piece's place, whether
Arbitrary or thought by some as
Trivial.  What's
Transparent by most who see through, don't
Embody the life that she would choose, and those beautiful artifacts are surely never
N*eglected by her, impacted by everything she views.

Revisiting the past and sorting through countless
Years of memories, times when there were no stress.
All along the playbacks were building blocks, an unfailing test
Not saying many of them were not stress related, that could be debated, but all of the above left me blessed.

Many times I've searched for more.
Anything other than what is.
Time, has showed me the real score.
That there is nothing better than this.
Heaven can be above, but it's always what we can make for ourselves.
Eternally grateful for everything I was ever able to put onto my shelves.
We are to know no positive limits, unless we want to find out what inhibits.

Jury duty is what most play when they're not in court.
Experts too can be very wrong, from presidents to a sport.
Now to judge another is easy, but how is it we see we?
Kindness truly is a virtue that goes too often unnoticed.
Instincts push for competition often putting others below us.
Never look past the actions of others, and please don't be so quick to brand
Seeing things,not as they are, but how we are, is the real issue at hand.

I tire from the 8-5 work life.
Opinions from everywhere tell us what some believe is right.
But I can't cosign with that slave fight
For I want to align with the stars that shine all night
The light is still bright during the day,
But our vision is limited in this universe anyway.
I must cut open my hand,
To remove this pesky splinter
Growing only more alive
Flowing into the dead of winter
Time to straighten out my spine
To show this world I'm no beginner.
Not financially where I'd like to be,
But I don't have to fret over dinner.
Oh what a tangled web we can weave,
When we let our head be the thread spinner.

I never fail to rise with the sun,
Even when my mind is cloudy
Release the pressure with adventure
Take some time to re-ground me.
Melt away the unnecessary "realities"
And live the life you find astounding.

Energize in the storm
Even though the sounds rain vicious
Soak the electrons into your soul
Natural atmospheres reign nutritious

My partner and I had tickets to the show last night in Chicago.  After 7days in the hospital my girlfriend's 89 year old grandma was to come home with hospice care to follow.  Instead of a splendid concert experience I  knew I had to be there for her fam to ease the tough pill to swallow.  Grandma Monica shed the shell, saw it bagged up and hollow.  I was able to provide hugs and love, along with the opportunity to speak about the flow of energy.   I like to remind myself and others to speak to the "deceased" for in my own scope it's been therapeutic for me. Haven't been this heavy in a long time.  The rain and gray are beautiful,  relaxed in the lack of sunshine.  I've visualized our meeting many times, I look up to you being a fellow sayer of rhymes.  I appreciate the way you've spent your mind.  It wasn't until a couple days ago I realized one of the impossible inserts may have been signed.  Thank you for your shine, highlighting the design of divine. The life you've made manifest helps others feel breaths inside their chests.  Two legends yesterday were laid to rest, so now I look at myself and decide to clean my mess.
Gotta reconnect with my descendant sandwich before the organic ingredients are digested and appear to vanish.  To those I want to know, you are one of my favorite artists.   I laugh but could totally see some sort of apprentice partnership.  Doesn't look like I'll make it this tour...and one of my cats just puked, gonna go skip aesop rocks in my ripped up Lugz boots.
Much love,
Ryan

30 hours with 45 minutes sleep. Busy day today, much work to do and roll through on a hill that's steep.  Thoughts run deep, intoxicated by events.  Some things are meant to happen, no use in trying to prevent.  I just want to vent, soul exposure.  Thinking about people with whom there may be no closure.  Head in the sky as people and houses fly by.  Acceptance is a choice one must utilize, don't just try.  Pandora's box, you know what will happen when you pry.  Send me some good vibes, my body's feeling low.  Deeply rooted into a sea of cravings and mystery, so I know there's room to grow.  Shaken world superstorm, I thrive on the unknown.  We'll see how it goes, how one will survive.  Count your blessings now, and be happy to see we are alive.  I've had to hide, the person I was to please.  Through this I've accumulated a vast mass of mental fees.  Feel the breeze, it's real and energizing.  Beware of thoughts that breed illness, no matter how hypnotizing.  Realizing new things on a daily basis.  I've pushed myself to extremes, now the nature of everything is making me face it.  A train's coming, slowly I step off the tracks.  It cuts through the land, reminding you it's best not to go back.  Memories are moments, we know they won't last.  Just don't dictate your future, based on what happened in the past.

Discerning wastes by the way we trace
Erasing bad tastes from our face
Til the internal happiness takes it's place
Fumbling habits were now laced with grace.  
Brighter are the fires we chase
Eyes wider, the wildflowers are looking up
Vitamin d rush,
accompanied by the satisfaction
that happens with this chance to touch.  
So many actions were taken to please,
but now we naturally seek necessity. 
Loving everything endlessly
Catering to our specialties
Waking up inside our pleasant dreams.
Getting to see beyond the scenes, and understand why we can be so easily carried like leaves once free.
Narrating with speculation,
generating all you wanna be.  
Accomplishing with mindful reminders to breathe.  
Beauty is the beast, perceived in a different form.  
What's truth honestly may not be the norm -
but we branch out like the mighty tree
& embrace the storm pouring soulful warmth.  
So peace to you and yours.  
Make great with the way you spend time having been reborn.  
Adorn your temple, with any methods or colors you choose.  
Show care for the confession hidden breathless in a bruise,
and be thankful for the light spectrum expression
highlighting time to still choose.  
With that awareness comes the space ready to take in the lessons and Synchronicities we are blessed with.  
I know I've made a mess of this, testing abilities to clean.  
Release disharmony and leftover negative energy streams.  
Just need room to be, fly swirling within serenity.  
Faith suddenly gleams over the horizon, "Hi Son"
"Hi Sun.  I see you glowing keeping everything flowing.  
Knowing you're watching over me feels healthier
than taking potion.  
Thank you for letting me be at ease with my uncertainty.  
Clouds part, allowing light right through, perfectly
Learning to lessen the level of fear
by looking at self by way of Mirrors,
reflecting back at different angles with messages so moving.
Here we are, allllright, and all one.  
Hands in the shared air, have fun, no need to run.  
Prepare to open to a sea of signs that will stun.
Soak in love of present feeling, heart in sync with mother earth.  
I must say I'm very gracious to have been acquainted with life in this corner of the youniverse.

In all my days,
& throughout all the events and alibis,
It seems that now, not much comes as a surprise.

I've seen a fully-armed man, cower and retreat,
& I've also seen a cat who couldn't land on his feet.
I've seen a person as warm as summer grow cold,
Just as we've all seen something so fresh and new, grow old.
I've seen the inspirational waters that are peoples' lives run dry
&I;'ve seen people so low in their own depths, get high.
It seems to me that the love has been misplaced,
When someone can't even regard the troubles that another has faced.

Empathy is a virtue, but first you must walk a mile in someone's shoes.
Try to see what they've seen & find their source of the blues.
You can pick and choose your battles, because I believe in freewill.
Just know I wish you the best despite whatever space you pick to fill.
There's more to life than to simply just cope.
When all feels lost remember there's always hope!
You best believe you can overcome the strife,
& know that what you do now will affect you the rest of your life.

Regardless of religion, ethnicity, culture, gender, orientation, or race-
I hope you all find your minds in a comfortable and soothing place.
That way we can live, love, laugh, and be merry,
*Because the weight of the world is something that we together can carry.

Our plans of meeting collapsed when seven years ago today you passed. Based on pictures you seemed to live a life filled with laughs. We carry on in this existence that only seems to move so fast. The grudge held most of my life vanished in a flash. I hope you smile when looking down, I think of you often. Feel free to give me a sign when inside my head I get lost in. I wrote the letter of consent for your body to endure cremation. I think since I've opened up enough to mentally handle a visitation. Energy can never be created or destroyed, so I know you're more than a memory. You got your wings early, keep flying within the realm of eternity. Miss you pops, rip

Deflate me, break me, rearrange and stake me.  Throw me between the earth's plates and let the quake take me.  Shake me, drag a rake across my face.  Anything to get feeling, blast me into space.

Hang me by interpretations before claiming forgetful.  Squint through your scope attempting to hit soul, but blinded are we giving in to our egos.  It's your fault it's my fault, taunts haunt the physical shell.  I'm acquainted with heaven and still take part in hell.  Attitudes beyond words can cast malicious spells.  Is it coming from a singular source, it's really ******* hard to tell.  I don't even know who to talk to when I'm not feeling well.  Set up traps for self and swiftly fell.  Here I am again, cross-legged at the bottom.  Want nothing more than to transcend and blossom.  Maybe I'll be found as nothing more than a fossil.  No biological functions or need for a role model.  Into the infinite where all things are possible.  It is my intention to let go and heal through astral projection.  Strange how things can seem so hollow in this 3rd dimension.  I want to see past holograms and move forward beyond fear.  Body still warm into the night I disappear.

It feels like all I'm gonna be for Halloween is depressed.  No need for a purchase which at this point is certain debt.  I wanna show my insides, peer past the pigments of flesh.  Is everything coming together or apart, my head is a mess.  Ego got me thinking certain ways as if possessed.  When I only wanna speak from the ***** in my chest.  A costume that shows what you are on the inside, dead.  Dry bones resting on a cobwebbed throne, with crown upside down pressed into my dome.  King of nothing other than this holy temple with holes poked through the face with the sharpest of pencils.  I offer payment for my strangeness in the form of two words, let go.  Took my first breath on the day of the dead, coincidence?  Oh no.  Look through eye holes to the back of my skull.  Pushed as far as I thought I could go, only to know I needed to pull.  Cup was full of luke warm contents.  Why do conversations morph into a blind rage contest?  I jumped into the depths and tried to befriend the loch Ness.  It was conditioned to it's living and saw me as more stress.  I just thought I needed someone with whom I could decompress.  Lesson learned I swam away shouting "blessed!" with no regrets I sat in the cemetery among the lifeless. Only to remind us all about being timeless. 
Take a breath.

We must steam-clean the rugs that we pray on in our dreams
Lest we forget to address the inaudible screams
Tar pit vocals get you stuck on words said
Yet My essence is stronger than my coffee and cigarette breath.
I walk a thin line between wanting to call upon spirit guides, and not wanting to waste their time.
Who is speaking, me or some form of you glued to my mind?
I feel undefined in a world so categorized
Still trying to heal my blindness to the light that shines
Stretch through confines and decompress the spine
I make my way from the grave after ridding stressful expressions through rhyme
Again falling in lines with life
Say goodbye to the plight, and keep the dreams in sight - peace/goodnight

Silence...a moment with self, because from no other can the answers be dealt.  It's nice to get help, but within you is informational untapped wealth.  Can't keep riding down this avenue, for, with what I believe in, in the long run it'd be untrue.  Excuses are for those who refuse to cope.  A life led in that direction without reflection will only stumble to crash from a downhill *****.  Simply existing is genuinely resisting the life that could be.  Slave to the system, and slave to your mind, are you ever going to be free?

Is anybody listening, or rather glistening from contentment?  In a future time don't look back upset with where the years went.  Be true and think through how it is you want the currency spent.  Some people keep kicking in the wrong direction never really ever leaving a dent.  Is this just to vent, or to better human nature?  Chances are, by tomorrow, it won't even be remembered - reminding me again the time is now to savor -  get going creator, show the world your flavors.

Refreshed, I exist in this mindstate
With a new zest for a blank page
After walking out of hell's gate -
Never looking back
The vision that was fading to black
Quickly became engulfed by flames
Realizing my disposition to get on track
The angels whispered to me through music,
Again putting meaning behind the name.
Kept my fire indoors strumming guitar chords knowing someday soon it will rain.
The darkness and breaking through the shell is any plant's only chance of gain
Sifting through dirt and various sediment let's the entity rise up above the pain.
Seeing the light for the first time still vibrating with a single thought that only growth and connection is ingrained.

What borders your windowpanes were once trees
Releasing oxygen for us to breathe
They ask only for carbon dioxide when we exhale to feed
So enrich your red blood cells and release the chemical compound we don't even need

There is balance, within give and take
Work and break, earth and quake
Low pressure and high stakes
The cloudy skies and the shifty snakes
Accelerated pace and a soft pressure on the breaks
For we are all being guided.
With the wind We are reminded,
To see fullness and not let ourselves be mindless
The space within our atoms tells me we are timeless
Free from the measurements that could adequately define this.

You will find bliss
The flame is only your passion
I see dry leaves blowing down the street and I call it fall fashion
Mirrors inside every being around me
Taught me to see that only within was I clashin'
Now is the time to take this mental paint and create something everlasting

I wrote what I could.  
The lump in my throat pressed with such intent that tears were forced to fall.
So I've dropped the ball, and the doors have opened up

Two small trebutaries have emerged with little direction on where to go next
Confined and repressed, they now live a life so complex-
That had their thoughts existed, they wouldn't make it in the real world.

At the chin they met and swirled,
As if they've been meant to be together all along
Yet spiky hairs on the neck proved to be much more than they'd expect.

They tumbled as wrecks, independently til they hit the chest.
Anything but gently, they crashed.  
Apart now but memories remain
They've darkened the shirt as if they created stains.

It was the consensus to trade in the cards the dealer dealt..
But they'll flow on, and continue making impressions felt.
We'll absorb our pains to, establish growth
The one thing that I know though
is that I don't.

There's a persistent stream of "This happened for a reason"
But changes in feeling come and go like the changing of seasons.

Two opposing forces
with no eventual winner.
No matter how you cook it,
BOOM
Chicken dinner.

Low in the depths of tar-pit lungs
Teeter tottering on words stilll unsung
Dreading bother thinking I can't add up to the sum
Treading water with the head above to breathe by the beat of the drum
Reflecting all of life even when the thought of existence stung
Already rebirthed a few times at 25 years young
And I'm not done
I know it's just my heart by all the switching of the rhythms
Haven't yet lost sight of land, therefore I must keep swimming
Slipping through ripples of time, knowing we're only just beginning.
Blessed to have seen the sun set but now darkness reigns king.
Serve the mind for entrapment, where are you taking me?  No, wait hold up where are you taking me?
A cold cell mold confine hell-bent on destruction
As soul sits with patience until we're ready for instruction


Is this life a cavernous abyss, or buoyant brilliance stuffed with unfolding bliss?
Loosening our grips throwing caution to the wind
For at our rest date we can smile about all we actually did

Vining my way through a period of construction.
Acquisition with reduction
ThisCurrent position holds no grin
When ya gotta weak spine slumped so thin caught in the midst of a mental tailspin intertwining the connections as another whirlwind - lesson
Holes were punched in for memory's retention.
Acknowledging the unknown came with clairvoyant introspection
And conscious intention management
Be aware of body language and how you translate it
Moments sink like the rock that skipped over lake waves.  
Dare to act now and not be afraid
Be an aid to humanity and ultimately yourself for we are the space within everything once the oneness has been felt
The weather has helped.
...And so in it I delve
for ive already slipped through hell
and honestly im quite glad I fell
Flames fueled us enough to embrace our hold
While Rain soaks the soul for us to flower and grow
Rise up from below to experience the mighty breeze blow
Your trials through the dirt allow the light to show
Apollo wants to see your glow
Let go and tap into the flow, present tense beauty forward into the unknown

But if you don't break out of your shell how are you to ever know?

Is this life a cavernous abyss, or buoyant brilliance stuffed with unfolding bliss?
Loosening our grips throwing caution to the wind
For at our rest date we can smile about all we actually did

(€€Fool you will never be good enough,
Should have stayed in school
Remain obedient to your masters
Your ocean is really a pool
Your attempts to peer past the hollowgram Have been deemed uncool
Get back in line and enjoy life as a tool€€

Sir you got me a all wrong,
Let'***** the brakes for a second
Pull off onto the shoulder for a moment to be reflective.
Your energy is scattered, the gears are wearing thin.  When's the last time you sat alone and sought answers from within?
No matter, there is time now to begin.
Conscious living is by no means an accident
I appreciate the time you've already spent
But I must ask
What is the tale of your means to an end?
The answer is rhetorical, but I am here for you as a friend.

Life; a story you're writing, conscious of the fact or not
We can choose abuse being snake bitten and rot
raising tense stresses into a self-induced blood clot.
Yet I won't relinquish one single red drop, to a moment I don't give consent to
Faith bled through having left school for not wanting to have to wear that bruise
Rent's due, hop out of the pool put on your shoes and proceed with the program
even if black and blue
I can squeeze in a nap first though, yeah? Coo'

Z speaks heat keeping me from lucid, leading me to secretly seek guidance from the druids.
They said I need to travel to a mindspace less polluted.
Dance with your soul outside the confines of institutions.
Stop with the concept of timeframes, and shooting blame at the moon
It is you, and has your back at high noon with a bird's eye view
Respect it's ability to shine true, seemingly alone in the dark.  
The evidence grew, pulsating passion pushing you past the place you first found your spark
This is your territory, now is time to chart.

It's all a game, and you write the screenplay ruled even by the thoughts you don't say
Feeding energy into the flame that has lead us unto elevated states.
The ground shakes and high richter reading earthquakes break your world apart
Rocks into sand into dust into nothing, to realize the only truths were not in your brain,
but rather your heart

With every reflex bursting from nerve-endings, there's satisfying new start.
Inside infinity within forever your being is slowly seeing its' mark.
Release the resentment and anger that lays wait in your brow
For existence flows in whatever reflection you allow
Right here you have the choice to either fly or drown
So believe that all that ever matters, is **now