Bellvadear: Favorites

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

Gone.

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

Jay Lewis

Gone.

As plain as it is to see,
I think of you,
when he's with me.
I still love you,
and it kills me.

Every single time,
I try to leave,
I hear your voice saying,
Don't you dare,
give up on me.

I tried to live as if you were by my side,
But theres only so much acting,
I can do to get by.
I've loved you through this year alone.
And I can't do it anymore on my own.

#gone #alone #death #sadness #remorse #wish #you #were #here

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

Suffering

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

Katli Mathobela

Suffering

In the shadow
There she lies
Waiting for superman to save her life
But she doesn't want be saved
Thinking she owes her life to
He, who abuses her
He, who just uses her
He, who claims to love her
But treats her like an object
She's not strong enough to be on her own
But a choice has to be made
Die under his rule
Or seek freedom from her oppressor ?

#life #suffering #love #heart #saddness #happiness

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

For You

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

VS aka Jason Cole

For You

For you, I would reach up and pick the stars, as flowers of the night

Gathering near, gathering far
Lost in the wonder of what you are

I would fetch the clouds and stitch them together
A coat for your fears
Amid inclement weather

No torrid rain
No howling wind
Nothing could harm or chill you again

I say now as a man-
All that I am, was, and ever will be
Is yours for the taking

For you, my heart, my spirit, my soul
My love, for the breaking

#love #her #me

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

;let//me//in?

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

zero

;let//me//in?

I can hear you crying through the walls,
the muffled, choking of your feelings.
you're falling apart before my very soul,
and all I can do is knock on your door.

I just want to be your friend again.
Open up to me, Kinac.

-D.xo

#love #loss #breakups #friendships #bestfriends #friends #lgbt #lesbian #gay #trans

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

With everything i am

Jan 2018 Bellvadear

Existential me

With everything i am

I love her.
No not ******* worldly,
But softly, purely , celestially.
Obsessively?
Not necessarily, just completely,
selfishly and I'm sorry.
I love her unconditionally, some say unconventionally.
But they don't understand me.
Yes...I love her.
Most spiritually, asexually, platonically and wholly.
I love her, truly, honestly, musically and poetically...
She doesn't have to love me.

Your looks may fade... my love shall not.

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

The Man in the Moon

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Taciturn

The Man in the Moon

Ah, my old friend,
my dearest foe,
the man shrouded in mystery
No one knows who you are.
What's behind that wicked smile of yours.

But I know a thing for certain
My love,
You are the only one who does not tell me any lies.

So let me stay awake a little longer.
Let me listen to your voice that is oh so sweet.
Which sounds like pouring warm honey
in the glistening sun of a July sunset.

How did I got so attached to you?
I hated you
didn't I?

How did you turn out to be one I was longing for?

You forced yourself into my life
the moment I started walking in your light.
How careless it was of me
to let my guard down like that
even though I have been warned.

“Do not trust him” they said.

But what they didn't tell me,
was that he was hypnotizing,
captivating
WAITING
for his prey to come to him.

And I fell hard for him.

So don't let me wait any longer, my love.
I have starred into the dark abyss already.
I have sang songs of you,
like you told me to.

So Sandman do not make my eyelids heavy yet.
Do not make me miss my only chance to see him.

Because if you do,
I might forget how to wake up again.

I wrote this around 4 am, I really don't know how it turned out.(Though I did some editing when I woke up) But thank you for reading

#insomnia #dark #moon #depression #love #hate #sleep #sleepless #restless #night

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Let's Be Friends.

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Salmabanu Hatim

Let's Be Friends.

The humming bird flew,
A mist of rainbow hue,
Hung like a jewel in mid air motionless,
Mesmerized at the beauty below,
speechless,
At a tiny flutter queen,
Dressed in wings of blue green,
Perched on a pink flower,
Drinking its nectar.
Down the bird flew on to the branch,
Where the lady was,its thirst to quench.
"Oh!Dainty ballerina , let me take your hand,
Will you be my friend."
"How can I, when you scorned me a crawling dolt,
A caterpillar about to molt."
"Dear,forgive my rudeness,
Let me show you my goodness,
Here,dip in that flower,
It has the best nectar."
"Little bird,friends we will be indeed,
A piece of advice you must heed,
Never insult the humble,
In time they may be better and able."

The humming bird is a tiny beautiful known to bring you good luck.Being vain it had made fun of the caterpillar not knowing it would become a stunning butterfly.

#humming #bird #caterpillar #butterfly #friends

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Look to the stars

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Adolph Hamilton

Look to the stars

When I am alone I stared at the stars, I look and wonder where you are

I imagine you smiling, I hear your sweet laugh, instantly transported to a time in the past.

I hope your not in some other place, starring longingly out into space.

But should you find yourself there, just thinking of me , know I'll be with you for all eternity.

For someone list on life's winding road

#lovelost

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

I wonder

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

Varsha Nehra

I wonder

I wonder if I knew French,
Would you have understood me?

I wonder if I knew German,
Would you be satisfied by my decisions?

I wonder if I knew Japanese,
Would you have understood my love?

I wonder if I knew Latin,
Would it matter if I knew Sanskrit too?

I wonder if I knew Korean,
Would I be called a better person?

I wonder if I knew you,
Would you have known me too?

I wonder if I knew a code,
Would you be able to decode it?

I wonder why I wonder,
When any language I know wouldn't reach you,
You, my love, is out of this world.

#i #wonder #love #language #understand

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

The Fog in the Night

Dec 2017 Bellvadear

aush g

The Fog in the Night

your glasses fogged up when i touched you.
just my presence shocked you.
we looked at each other eye to eye..
you looked away first because you were amazed that a girl like me would like a guy like you.
you hand grasped firmly on mine when got stuck in a dimension that i never wanted to be in.
you were my saving grace. you cared for me. and i let you go.
the night sky was so dark i never actually realized that morning had come.
and you my love had faded away with the moon.
you and i are opposites and can never be together, for i am the sun- radiant and scattered-
while you are the moon- bold and collected.
our love will never be complete because when i touch you we both lose a part of ourselves; slowly decay.
just like how your glasses fogged up that one cold day.

#love #fog #boys #kiss #cold #moon #sun #dark #eye #opposites