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the lost girl Nov 2016
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I got a future
As bright as my thoughts
I got thoughts
As bright as
my favorite color Black
falling away
without pain
the lost girl Mar 2017
I wish I could
hold memories in my arms
and cry until the dawn
said you'll love me till death
death never came I can still
feel your breath
I still try to smile
but don't ask me anything
I can't even talk
not because I'm sad
but maybe I became mad
said you'll love me till death
but I could never tell
that I'll love you not even till death
but also when I struggle in hell
I would only call your name
the lost girl Aug 2017
[intro/verse 1]
Follow the ruts
To learn the art
Of shattering one's
Diamond heart

[pre-chorus]
the errs in flair
will flare the prayer
take one more step
if you really dare

[chorus]
the church and it's chairs
will be burning in flames
the frame of the graves
will fade in the darker shades
as the human race
start hating their faith

[verse 2]
Hear the howls
From the demons
Hear the owls
Late at night
Singing lullabies

Unsaid secrets
Unseen crimes
Will fear them all
Walls‘ve eyes
For your lies

Wolves will cry
With both eyes
Closed at night
Showing the signs
Of ending lives

[bridge]
We will all
Typify
The disaster of
Human kind
As the day and light
Will all die

[chorus]
the church and it's chairs
will be burning in flames
the frame of the graves
will fade in the darker shades
as the human race
start hating their faith
the lost girl Jan 2017
little stars are shining
but I feel them burning
twenty years later
still waiting and chasing
for you, for light,
for every piece of my heart
a story out of blue
out of me and you
gone so blurry like the truth
wasted a life
for a year
was it enough
to dry my tears
I can't find my life
I left it here there somewhere
you'll help me finding my way
right? back to home
they say you won't come
only one more night
I'll wait for you
cause gone with light
will come trough tonight
the lost girl Oct 2016
The night and our same old tree
remember?
You and I, we danced to this beat
in December
we got lost in white trees
we called it being free

till we lost the stars
In the same old streets
You faded in to the dark
And you took away my heart
You left me here
you left me to fall apart
you left me with my fears
You left me with my tears

Now you're sorry
but I ain't sorry
now you're crying
now you're trying
friend, please
enjoy watching
our tree house burning
the lost girl Dec 2016
little candy man watches
me, pushing his cotton buttons
running in the candy land
he was grabbing my hand
he was looking so glad
till I said "let me go"

spiders, spiders
runnin away from spiders
he turns to the evil
pushing me to the ground
my death is near
I hear it's sound
he's killing me for my crown
I knew I should've stayed away
from the little candy man
dying in his hands
one last tear falls on the ground
the lost girl Apr 2017
higher in my mind
there's an ocean
under blue sky
surrounded by
vultures
waiting for my future
blood swings from chandelier
and turns to a drop of tear
drops on the woods down here
trees grow trying to fear
spirits flying, they're all near
but I can't control, it's unclear
my heart, fighting for peace
brain shouting,"there's no release"
and that's the last I hear
before everything goes so blear
A mind that is gone
the lost girl Nov 2016
you said
"Everything is clear"
But what about
Darkness behind the light
And colors hidden in dark
And the feelings in colors
And feelings I hide inside
I wanted you to stay
But I just cried instead
I ran following the train
But it just faded away
Nothing was clear
Like why didn't you stay?
Was it something I said?
Or you just hated me?
You called it over
Did you mean my life?
Or was it about my love?
I can't hear my heart
I'm getting weak
I'm on my knees
Falling away
only one thing is clear
I won't rest in peace
the goner is gone
I care about the left ones
the lost girl Mar 2017
The dirt on our shoes
Is not because we're poor
We are only rude*
Ruining all the rules
the lost girl Dec 2016
I know you're not here
to grab the blade
Hug me, telling me
You will stay
Today and tomorrow
When ever I just say...

Promise you won't cry
If I die
Just like u didn't
When u left me
Cause I lied
You asked if it mattered
If you left
And I said
That's okay
Nothing's gonna change
But I lied
Everything has changed
the lost girl Dec 2016
My mom won't be happy
When she sees my white dress ******
Nothing was more beautiful than
his tears dropping down from his eyes
When he heared
I was about to die
Nothing was more beautiful than
The drops of the blood on the ground
Me bleeding in his hands
He screaming at my face
Breathe ! Now !
Even more beautiful than
the rainbow out of the window
Laughing like
it was kidding all my people around
it was too beautiful to happen
I open my eyes
A knife in my hand
Wearing my favorite white dress
A song prowling in my mouth
I came back to where I started
My mom won't be happy
When she sees my white dress blooded
this is the first poem that i wrote and shared.. 24 weeks ago ... hope you'll like it
the lost girl Mar 2017
tidal waves may seem brave
but they never can leave
because of the grave
so if you want to seem bold
you can shout or scream
but it won't work
first break the chains
that you hold
then stop walking in the way
that you've always been told
the lost girl Oct 2016
Thinking of your eyes
I fake a smile
Telling them I'm Alright
You laughed so much
When I tried to hide
My tears
When I was about to cry
You used to call me the light
But how funny it was
Cause you were my sun
and I was the moon
We kept going on
In the dark
Following the twinkling stars
Turning around
And getting high
But I fell on the ground
And now
you're on the other side
the lost girl Nov 2016
Can we watch the stars
Far from the city lights
Can we look for rights
In the darkest crimes
Can't we sleep tonight
And party all day
Till we see the dark
laugh when we fail
Cause we can try again?
Why should we hate
Everything we love?
Why should we learn
To say goodbye
I'll rather say goodnight
Cause I know
The sun will rise
And we will try again
There's an other chance
I can change my life oneday
the part "the sun will rise
and we will try again"
is by twenty one pilots <3
the lost girl Nov 2016
I'm the missing boat
    In the widest ocean
      I'm the little hope
          In the biggest war
              I'm left alone
            Like little girl's doll
         The girl grown old
    The doll left at home
 All alone

                      They will rise
Watching me sinking
                     They will fight
Watching me crying
                              But soon
                         I will go on
when they're already gone
what I think all day
and all night
the lost girl Nov 2016
I've been chasing for heaven
In the deepest holes of hell
My sins are still unforgiven
    Turn the lights on
I'm on the broken threads
     **I'm falling away
religious little poem
about me and god
the lost girl Mar 2017
If you've got no heart
Then never try to
Describe art.
the lost girl Dec 2016
your eyes as an ocean
which I can sink in
every time I gaze at
I feel my bones burning
I found myself thinking
how my life is ending
ringing bells like singing
a goodbye as I'm leaving
I'm going to an end
to an end without you
up my way everything
turns into black and blue
hope is so far away
shades of blue turns to gray
there's nothing left to say
all I gotta do is" fade away
and never comeback again."
My love was too much
to stay alive
in such a life
2016/ 30/ 12
the lost girl Jan 2017
contemplating suicide
I remember how my life
was like
watching you with those girls
I could only run or hide
you can't see how it hurts
that every time I end up
with my knife
contemplating suicide
under the tree house
we built when we're child
how far we've come
separated but we got along
contemplating suicide*
one last thing I only want
bury me in all the colors
and all the flowers
which are faded and dark
with a rainbow out of blue
faded in darkness of the night
standing on bridge
ready to jump
ready to fly
*with no hope, no fear
the lost girl Oct 2016
The little girl
and her father
Her father was the goner
He was drowning in the water
She was crying on the side
She's got no one to lean
She's leaning on the wind
Her mother was a goner
Goner with the wind
Now she leans on the water
She leans on the wind
Now her heart isn't cotton
Her heart isn't pink
Her heart is ice cold
Her mind is sinking
Now she's the queen
Now she's the king
Held by two pairs of wings
the lost girl Dec 2016
I'm tired
Tired of the silent books
Of all the empty looks
Hearts searching for freedom
Brains saying "not today"
Our bodies used to pain
The more we walk
The more we fail
Pretending we don't care
But I know
you're killing your brain
Feeling so close to scream
Go on it's not a shame
Try it this time
Try the one you won't ever say
Lie on the rails
Light a cigarette
Forget about aims
Run till you feel breathless
Now you know the happiness
Without money, pain
Without steps, faith
All you need is to say
"Yes, let's run away."
the lost girl Jan 2017
"let there be light," he said.
and there was the light*
we lit our cigarettes
and burned down our lives
no I can't handle this song
no I can't even rhyme
cause it's so meaningless
to always be undone

so tell me what to do
Just tell me what to do...
Sinfull hands
aimless minds
the lost girl Nov 2016
Born with flowers
Burned with blues
Gone with hours
Lost with truth
Following the dogs
Without any clues
Shouting tears
Obeying the fools
the lost girl Oct 2016
A little dark
A big war
A little girl
Lost in park
Looking for her doll
All in my mind
All in my heart
Even if I try
I can't stop them,
At all... and I'm
Drowning in my own blood

Can you help me friend?
Can you be my light?
Can you make it all end?
Can we run away?
impressed by a video, video of a girl lost in a war.
the lost girl Oct 2016
I didn't tell you but it felt like
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how it felt when you looked at me for the first time.
the lost girl Dec 2016
Memories
Are still so clear
would you like to listen?
Cause it's hard to deal
With all of these alone
The scars would heal
What about my broken heart?
Would you ever care
about what I feel
Cold walls would only know
About my fears
You can ask them
About voices I hear
But what is about to change?
You always disappear
You think I'm mad
But can't u see my tears?
You think I laugh
If you only see my mask
Then you must
forget about past
I'll keep this memory
I'll walk down the same street
And watch our glory
That probably would be dead
You'll be the murderer
And it will be
Alive in my sheets
the lost girl Apr 2017
tree house is on fire
but I just lost my lighter
ashes get higher
I'm so sorry father
cause I was only a liar
birds fly further
they carry my hopes
can I follow them?
and fly against the flow
but my heart is dead
my brain still says no
tears turned to dust
faded with all I trust
now that I'm alone
I'll go with the flow
down this road
against my hopes
down to my grave
with everything
I hate
the lost girl Dec 2016
Oh little blade
Open my cage
Let me
Fly to stars
Oh little blade
Tell me
What this is
Is it my blood?
Oh my blood
Why are you pouring
Aren't my tears
enough ?
One more scar
Right on my vein
Wish it will help
Forgetting my pain...
this poem is written by me for my own book named nyctophilia
the lost girl Mar 2017
It's not important,
what I'm feeling
mind's full of sirens
but I'm healing
a bell still ringing
but I am leaving
to sail inside blues
as my raft's sinking
I'm looking for truce
for every piece of truth
but light's so far away
cause I murdered
my dreams today
without light
without hope
I'm going
through this road
in the eye of the storm...
the lost girl Oct 2016
Would you walk with me
To the end of this road
Even if you know it leads
To the end of the hell?
Would you drown with me
In the deepest ocean
Telling me you won't leave,
You don't need to breathe?
Would you spend your youth
Just to live with me forever?
Would u color everything blue
For me ?
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You called me the dreamer
You called my world surreal
Now I just want to know
Are you a part of my world
Or are you real?
the lost girl Dec 2016
Shall we dance?
Under the light
Of the million stars
Would you fake a smile
telling me it's alright
Then there would be no time
No past, no future. Just you and I
And the music of the trees
Silence of the night
We will dance to this beat
I know it's not more than a dream
But it would be nice
That you and I
We could  just dance
And forget about past
You and I
Forever we could last
the lost girl Dec 2016
He used to fly around me
    but he should've known
it is the kingdom of my fears
even the birds get lost in here
the lost girl Oct 2016
running in the dark
away from the night
away from the silence
looking for the light
looking for your eyes

stars are crying for you
ashes of them rain
got lost in the sounds of my pain

my train's out of its rail
it's going down the hell
tomorrow or today
it won't ever change
I'm the lost one
you're already gone
some how, some way
some where in some day
you and I
we were in love
when you were already gone
when the one you love is gone all you can do is to get lost in your mind.
the more you think the worse it gets.
the lost girl Dec 2016
Drowning in the darkness of your eyes
I will still be counting the stars
Ignoring the voice shouting inside
Saying "stupid girl! Just run!!"
no time, no sound
just me and you
and you and me around
feeling your hands
pushing me down
Grabbing my neck
stealing my breath
I can feel your fears
pouring through your tears
but no matter dear
I will fly away
with no hope, no fear
the lost girl Dec 2016
Darkness comes around
As it gets cloudy
You holding my hand
Saying you're proud of me
A tear falling down
Now it seems blurry
Would you help me, dad?
Or you'll watch me drowning?
Can we go back
To when we were happy
Feels like I'm dying
But I just say
I'm crying
Happy endings are real
But happiness
is always
Built on sb's sadness.
the lost girl Oct 2016
little girl grown old
her world of gold
was built to fall
her heart's cold
her hair is sold
her life's a lie
she is left alone
on the way home
the lost girl Mar 2017
ocean and the sky
will join their hands
trying to wear me down
as the sand
runs through my mouth
everything goes darker
as the sky wears black
and lack
of sleep has gone so further now
my mother and my father
they will try to persuade me
to **** my dreams and follow
the ones they've already seen
as the streams carry me down
I would only scream
not for you or another
but only for my dreams
the lost girl Mar 2017
It's not important,
what I'm feeling
mind's full of sirens
but I'm healing
a bell still ringing
but I am leaving
to sail inside blues
as my raft's sinking
I'm looking for truce
for every piece of truth
but light's so far away
cause I murdered
my dreams today
without light
without hope
I'm going
through this road
in the eye of the storm...
light can be considered as God
I'm looking for God
but somehow he's not
looking for me
the lost girl Nov 2016
When I'm gone
  Call the sun
           Let it shine
      I won't leave
   With a sky in tears
                         Burry me
                 In blue
       Let me disappear
  Without a clue
Tell him to smile
             At least
              I didn't bleed
              Call the stars
  Let them meet
                      The sun once
                           Tell people
                    About my dreams
                        About the person
        Drowned in my tears
About the person
        I wanted to be
                 About the reasons
                    helped me to live
         And about the things
Made me leave
things I want
things which won't ever be done
You
the lost girl Mar 2017
You
Like crystal  *****
You could separate my light
To million colors
To still make me feel alive
But I was dead inside
Like a little kite
Lost in dark
Suffered and afraid of hight
But somehow
You tought me to glide
Trough wind
Trough the streams
To reach my dreams
the lost girl Nov 2016
your love left a permanent mark
a scar on my heart
            a scar on my mind
                        my heart, my mind
                               they bleed without blood
                      they struggle in pain
            while my eyes rain
   the bees, the flies
they fly around
                  they know I'm lying on ground
                     they know I'm already dead
the lost girl Mar 2017
we are lost..........................and we want to die
as the dust.........................has covered our lies
first we killed..............................all our dreams
and we built....................our hopes on streams
we are gone..........................but still too young
we just run....without knowing what's wrong
we just try.............................. to have some fun
and live our youth
till we die young...
the lost girl Oct 2016
"I need love"
"I need a hug"
I won't say
Even if u want
Your heart's locked
I've lost my heart
You're throwing rocks
Burying me alive
You're going on
I'm falling from height
While dying in the fog
And watching u in sun
I would still fake a smile
**You won't ever see me cry

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