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Umi Apr 2018
The desert,
A sea of sand, drought and dry air under a scorching, blazing Sun,
The wind may feel alike a cut, which burns through your senses,
Relentless, the heat takes over by day, yet by night it is cold enough to freeze you if you come unprepared. Such would be a foolish idea,
A dessert of thoughts, driving into my brain, leaving ideas uncovered
Leaving productivity hidden, under the sand of hatred and self doubt
Such places, landscapes, covered by firy silicate or ice are truly lethal,
Such state of mind, covered by uncertainty is truly lethal, for ones wonderful creativity, for art of all kind, conveyed or material, if you might wander through such a land without any guide to help out,
Worry not, for after every drought comes rain, blissful rain to fertilise the soil of thoughts which will blossom in wonderous ways, to shine,
After all, motion without movement cannot be possible so try to move
A wise friend once tought me, that if you give it enough time, even a nigh impossibility becomes a certainty, even a desert could be a forest
But until then, be patient my dear, even the most deserted place, carries some beauty in it, no ?

~ Umi
Finally this Mint Assembly is Complete
As the Last Great Angel will sure confirm
Eight Gold Aureoles from Best Moments replete
A Standing Ovation his Spirit burns
See now, Prince of the Plym! And Testify
How they shared Lives to fertilise your Growth
There was no Contract; Only Hearts abide
Reminding you the Cradle of your Birth
Now you, Sweet Divine, to your Future's spout
Kindly live yourself well for Dream's extract
Know my Prayers stand as Friends throughout
Yet a Friend-on-Purpose I dress intact.
Eight Best Friends. Eight Blessed Souls I give Breath:
Kate. Dil. Jess. Beck. Lauren. Kat. Alice. Beth.
#daleysangels #bethanderson_10
Grahame Jun 2014
THE BANSHEE*

Late at night, whilst lying in bed,
two sisters hear a sound of dread.
Mixed in with the beating hail,
is the dreaded Banshee’s wail.

The storm is directly overhead,
and the thunder so loud, no word is said
Because the sisters cannot hear
anything spoken, even shouted in ear.

However, over the storm’s great row,
they hear the Banshee even now,
Howling around the chimney top,
Oh, will that screaming never stop?

Fiona and Caitlín look at each other,
with fingers in ears, the noise to smother.
The Banshee, a dire harbinger of death,
is wailing louder with every breath.

Who will die in that house tonight?
It really doesn’t seem to be right.
Only the two girls live there now,
for either to die would be a blow.

Eventually, after a couple of hours,
the storm decreases to merely showers.
Quieter now calls the Banshee,
it seems to pleading, “Please help me!”

Fiona and Caitlín become afraid.
Why is the Banshee begging for aid?
It only cries, a death to foretell,
is it predicting its own death as well?

Finally the storm blows out,
and Fiona and Caitlín think about
The Banshee, is it still around?
Then they hear a moaning sound.

It abates, then rises again,
like some creature suffering pain.
The two sisters decide they should
try to help if they could.

With dawn’s approach it is getting light,
and so the sisters think they might
Go outside and try to see
if they can find the groaning Banshee.

The sisters live on a little croft,
in a cottage that’s got a goodly loft
With a sloping ceiling overhead,
in which they’d placed a double bed.

A few outbuildings dotted around,
a meagre crop grows in the ground.
A pig, some sheep and one milk-cow.
that has sustained them both ere now.

A donkey, more a pet than use,
and fattening for Christmas, one grey goose.
A flock of hens and one old duck,
the sisters haven’t had much luck.

The cottage, a mere but-and-ben,
the but, a parlour, the ben, a kitchen.
This hovel is heated by one hearth,
and chinks in the walls are stopped with earth.

The roof is only thatched with turf,
there’s a constant background noise of surf,
And though their homestead looks forlorn,
they have lived there since they were born.

The croft is quite close to the sea,
and seaweed, obtainable for free,
Is often collected by the sisters,
carried in buckets which gives them blisters.

They use it to fertilise their crop,
and work all day until ready to drop.
Their father had been lost at sea,
their mother, heartbroken, soon after died she.

The sisters dress and go outside,
to find the Banshee where’er it may hide.
They can no longer hear its moan,
and wonder if by now it’s flown.

They slowly walk around to try,
the importunate Banshee to spy.
It isn’t now on the roof at all,
it is lying huddled by the wall.

No longer seeming a creature of dread,
only a shivering person, nearly dead.
The sisters kneel down by her side,
they cannot just let her there bide.

“What can we to to help?” asks Fi.
“Nothing, please just let me die.”
“Not an option,” then declares Cait,
“I’ll fetch a blanket, you two wait.”

The Banshee turns her face away,
“I thought to be gone ere break of day.
I was flying across your croft
when the lightning struck down from aloft.”

“I’ve never been hit like that before,
I couldn’t then fly any more.
I tumbled down from out of the sky
in terrible pain. I thought I’d die.”

“And in my agony I screamed out,
not knowing you would hear me shout.
I am not here, your deaths to foretell,
I would for you that fear dispel.”

Then Caitlín does soon return,
Fiona says, “Our help she’d spurn.”
“Oh no she shan't,” Caitlín said,
“we’ll just to carry her to bed.”

To the girls the Banshee appears light,
extremely pale, albino white.
She hardly seems to have any weight,
and looks as though she rarely ate.

On her shoulders two white wings,
tiny little vestigial things.
Her only clothes, a vestment white,
ripped to shreds by the storm in the night.

Cait carefully lays the blanket down flat,
and they place the Banshee onto that.
Then lifting the blanket between them both,
they carry her in, though the Banshee’s loath.

They go into the but, through the ben,
noticing as they do so, when
The Banshee is shaken around,
she bites her lip hard to prevent any sound.

They lay the Banshee down on their settle,
realising she is full of mettle.
She obviously is still in great pain,
though will not show it, that is plain.

Fiona back into the kitchen goes,
intending to heat up some brose.
Caitlín with the Banshee does stay,
determined to help as best she may.

Beneath the Banshee’s head she lays
a pillow then to the Banshee says,
“You should get out of your wet clothes,
you could catch you death from wearing those.”

Caitlín realised as soon as she spoke,
to the Banshee that would be no joke.
“I’m sorry if I’ve offended you,
that’s the last thing I would want to do.”

“It is just that when *we
were wet,
these words from our mother we would get.”
The Banshee replies, “I don’t mind,
I know you’re trying to be kind.”

“And there’s something you should know,
no-one’s seen my body ere now.
However, although shy I may be,
I will try to let you undress me.”

Fiona at that moment comes in,
carrying on a tray of tin,
A bowl of brose with slices of bread,
then seeming surprised, to her sister said,

“Haven’t you yet the wight undressed
and warmed her up to help her rest?
If she stays in that dress, cold and wet,
she might catch her death from cold, yet!”

The Banshee and Caitlín glance at each other,
and then both snirt, which they try to smother
By each pretending to need to cough
while Fiona snaps, “Let’s get them off.”

Fiona places the tray on a table,
then kindly says, “I think I’ll be able,
If you sit up, to remove your gown,”
then worries, hearing the Banshee groan.

“I’m sorry, I am still in pain,
it came on when I moved again
As the result of having to cough.
Please do your best to get my robe off.”

Caitlín sits by the Banshee’s side,
and across her back her arm does slide.
She helps the Banshee to sit up straight,
who winces and then smiles at Cait.

Fiona manages to ease the robe down
to the Banshee’s waist then gives a frown.
“No wonder so much pain you’ve had,
the lightning seems to have burnt you bad.”

The Banshee’s skin is bleeding and raw,
the robe stuck in places making it sore.
Caitlín asks, “Why didn’t you say?
You don’t need to suffer this way.”

The Banshee begs, “Please don’t be mad,
until now my life’s been bad.
You’re the first mortals I have known,
until now I’ve been alone.”

Overcome with emotion, she cries,
the tears, in rivulets, fall from her eyes.
Caitlín hugs her close to her breast,
saying, “Soon you will be able to rest.”

“Fi, get some scissors and cut her robe free,
then bring some Aloe Vera to me.
I’ll use the sap to coat each wound,
and with strips of cloth they can be bound.”

So Fiona with scissors cuts the cloth,
while the Banshee closes her eyes, both
To avoid watching the scissors being used,
and not see the cloth to her body fused.

After cutting through as much cloth as she may,
Fiona picks the pieces away.
And then Caitlín does tenderly use,
to soothe the wounds, Aloe juice.

Fiona cuts the Banshee’s dress
into strips, which, more or less,
Provide enough cloth, the wounds to cover,
which they hope will soon heal over.

Fiona then goes to the bedroom to get,
to cover the Banshee, a dry blanket.
Caitlín stays sitting with her on the settle,
hoping the Banshee’ll soon be in fine fettle.

The blanket warms her up a treat,
then the sisters help the Banshee to eat.
Caitlín supports the Banshee’s head,
while Fiona feeds her brose and bread.

They leave her sleeping on the settee,
and go to the kitchen to brew some tea,
Then sitting down, they discuss what to do,
it’s new to them, they haven’t a clue.

Cait says, “I thought her a creature of myth,
a fable, though mentioned long sith.”
Fiona remarks, “And I thought as well,
she only appeared, a death to foretell.”

“This, she has said, is not why she’s here,
and also her life’s bad, so I fear
If we don’t help her to try to mend,
she might think her own life to end.”

At that the sisters feel so sad,
how can the Banshee’s life be so bad?
Since she’s a poor creature in so much need,
they’ll try to help and not ask for meed.

Into the parlour they quietly peep,
the Banshee still seems to be asleep.
So Fiona and Caitlín each start on a chore,
Fi feeds the hens, Cait goes to the shore.

On the beach Cait harvests seaweed,
collecting only as much as they need,
Then carries it back to the croft, up the lane,
trying to ignore, caused by blisters, the pain.

Cait leaves the buckets and enters the ben,
and sees the Banshee is awake, then
She goes to her and sitting down,
asks, “Why’ve you always been on your own?”

The Banshee replies, “That’s just how it is.
There’s never been a time ywis,
That I’ve ever met another like me.
Mayhap I’m the only one to be.”

At that the Banshee seems so sad,
and continues, “And what else is bad
Is that I feel Death draw near
to mortals. That’s the time I fear.”

“I cannot stop that ‘sergeant fell,’
however, I feel his pull too well.
I feel so sad at what he does,
and try to help by being close.”

“That is why when he is present,
I always try not to be absent.
I give warning as best I might,
by screaming loudly in the night.”

“People hear me and suppose,
I am there, a life to foreclose.
Then I feel the awful hate,
which from the mortals does emanate.”

Caitlín then goes back outside,
leaving the Banshee safe inside.
Fiona and Cait continue the work
that they must do and should not shirk.

Fiona finally milks the cow,
and hoping the Banshee’s feeling less low,
Pours some warm milk into a cup,
and carries it in for the Banshee to sup.

The Banshee wakes as Fiona comes in,
Fi says to her, giving a grin,
“I can’t believe you’re really here,
I must say, you are quite a dear!”

The Banshee gratefully takes the cup,
and with Fi’s help drinks the milk up.
Then back down on the couch she does lie,
and Fiona, embarrassed, again sees her cry.

Fiona sits down by her side,
while the Banshee tries, her face to hide.
Fiona, silent, her hand does hold,
noticing it’s very cold.

She strokes the Banshee’s silvery hair,
and waits for the tears to disappear.
The Banshee, eventually, does her eyes dry,
and then gives out a heartfelt sigh.

“I am so happy here with you,
without you I’d not know what to do.
Please forgive my moody tears,
I haven’t cried like this for years.”

“The first time was when I experienced Death.
I was drawn to a blasted heath,
Where a woman had a babe, stillborn,
and was gazing at it so forlorn.”

“She’d been constuprated in a wood,
by a man who’d left as soon as he could.
She was overcome with shame,
she hadn’t even known his name.”

“The babe was born before its time,
the ground was cold and hard with rime.
The woman did not even have
a ***** to dig the baby’s grave.”

“She opened the clothes across her chest,
and wrapped it tightly to her breast,
Then untied the cincture from her waist,
moving slowly not in haste.”

“When, going to a nearby tree,
not knowing I was there to see,
Around a branch she did it thread,
and hanged herself. She soon was dead.”

“Death knew what there would occur,
and therefore, to lay claim to her,
Had gone to the heath to watch her die,
and I’d been drawn, by Death, nearby.”

“I could feel the woman’s pain.
It came in waves again and again.
I didn’t know what it did mean,
and in my anguish I did keen.”

“My voice grew louder, I did scream,
Death looked at me and it did seem
At that moment, in pity, said,
‘She really is now better off dead.’”

They then hear the back door open
as Caitlín enters into the ben.
She shuts it close and locks it tight,
as she comes inside for the night.

“The animals are safely put away,
and now it’s time to hit the hay.
I’ll make supper and a *** of tea,
then it’s off to bed for me.”

Fiona says, “I’ll give you a hand.”
Then slowly stretches and up does stand.
She goes with Cait to make the tea,
leaving behind the poor Banshee.

Fiona tells Cait of the Banshee’s plight,
though they cannot think how to make it right.
They place three bowls and cups on a tray,
and back to the parlour make their way.

The Banshee sits up, with her feet on the ground,
it seems as though some strength she’s found.
She takes a bowl and says, “I suppose
it’s another delicious helping of brose.”

She beams at the sisters, who feel a glow
deep inside them slowly grow.
They realise that perhaps this is how
the Banshee is able, her feelings to show.

The Banshee asks, “Will it be all right
if I go outside for a stroll tonight?
I’ll only take a turn round the croft,
I will not try to fly aloft.”

“I am a denizen of the night,
which is why I thought I might
Have a walk by the light of the moon.
I promise I will be back soon.”
  
Round the Banshee’s waist Cait ties some rope
so that the blanket will not ope,
Then walks with her across the floor,
to help her get to the back door.
  
Caitlín unlocks it and opens it out,
though, for the Banshee, has some doubt.
Suppose the effort is too great?
She can only watch and wait.

Meanwhile Fi does the washing up,
and then she shouts, “I’m going up
To make our bed, don’t be late!”
Caitlín replies, “All right, don’t wait.”

Fiona goes to the top of the stair,
she makes up the bed then brushes her hair.
She quickly undresses and gets into bed,
and on the pillow rests her head.

Caitlín’s still standing at the door,
she’s not anxious any more.
The Banshee seems to be doing fine,
walking slowly in the bright moonshine.

As she walks she seems to get stronger,
so Caitlín, waiting for her for longer
Than she’d thought that she might do,
steps outside to have a walk too.

She takes the Banshee by the hand,
For a time they slowly walk round and
Then the Banshee asks to stop,
to rest before she’s likely to drop.

Still on her feet the Banshee sways,
and seems to be in a sort of daze.
So Caitlín holds her in her arms tight,
and thus they stand in the bright moonlight.

Hugging the Banshee close to her breast,
she’s aware of her nearness to their guest.
Caitlín feels her heart start to pound,
and in some confusion stands stilly and stound.

Then she pulls herself together,
at the same time wondering whether
She has experienced her first love,
or if this feeling false will prove.

So fragile and helpless the Banshee appears,
Caitlín can’t help but be moved to tears.
She lifts her up, and carries her inside,
and places her onto the sofa to bide.

Caitlín then stumbles up the stairs,
Fiona is shocked to see her in tears,
And asks her if she is all right,
and if anything’s happened out there in the night.

Caitlín, crying, lies down on the bed,
then Fiona, on her *****, pillows Caits head.
She gently wipes Caitlín’s tears away,
and waits to hear what she might say.

Caitlín then cuddles up to Fi,
saying, “Thank you for looking after me.
Really, I am quite all right,
nothing bad happened out there in the night.”

“It’s just that the Banshee is still frail,
she appeared to be getting a little more hale,
And then she seemed to become weak again,
so I carried her in, on the sofa she’s lain.”

Cait then stands and doffs her dress,
and gets into bed, still feeling a mess.
Fiona holds Cait as to sleep they go,
and they stay like that the whole night through.

Fiona and Caitlín wake up together,
and happily smile at one another.
It’s the start of a brand new day
which they’ll face together, come what may.

Fiona dresses and downstairs goes she,
into the kitchen to make some tea.
Caitlín shortly comes down too,
entering the parlour, the Banshee to view.

The Banshee wakes as Caitlín goes in,
still looking pale and painfully thin.
Caitlín sits on the sofa with care,
saying, “Last night you gave me quite a scare.”

“You seemed to get stronger in the moonlight,
so I thought everything was going all right.
Then I feared that you might fall down,
and so I carried you back here on my own.”

The Banshee responded, “I’m ever so sorry.
I didn’t mean to cause you worry.
I also felt I was getting str
Umi Mar 2018
Created by dopamine and memories entitled with the sweetness of life, this process of thought becomes a nice place to rest and hide,
From the cruelty of what misery life could hold upon us if we didn't fight back, do something to make a day blissful, at least for a moment,
Serene and clear, events which occur far or near, are a trigger for this,
Created by an imaginated landscape inside my heart, forming from the techtonics of the transience, from those I hold dear to myself,
Step by step, on passing time, joyful memories seep through my head,
Sure there are those, who would find glee in even a clouded raining sky, but it is well to know; it comes in all different kinds and ways,
A mysterious but beautiful lense, reflected by a raindrop from the drizzling cloud, whichs mission it is to fertilise the earth, so may life grows out from the gentleness of the suns majestic golden light,
Perspective, is what makes thoughts wonderful and happy, or drenched in the deepest misery of ones own nightmare fueled fears,
Rain drops, seen as tears could turn to jewels, cast in the smile of your beloved, sitting with them, watching the rain showering a landscape,
No matter the weather, this world shines brilliantly as long as you keep your heart from being drenched by sorrow and let it soar into the blue sky, carefree, pure and filled with wonderful happy thoughts

   Umi
tierney morris Feb 2019
I used to face the light
The world was so bright
I looked to my future
Now my demons pick fights

Although it's sunny and my soil is dry
My tears are her to help me fertilise
Now I have reason to let myself cry

People call me beautiful
I can't seem to see it
But the monsters in my head
They won't stop until I'm dead

They deprive me of sunlight
The wont allow me to smile
In this garden of hell I won't last long
I guess it's time I say goodbye
I'm a broken sunflower and have been for a while..
Anna Dec 2018
7 hours of tears
An incessant cascade
Swollen eyes and pale face
Deep blue crescents carved
With blunt knives
By 1 hours sleep and
All functions cease because
You don't want me

When your 3am text shot me
It hit my spine and I was paralysed
The deepest layer of hell is ice
And that’s where my body resided
Agony spilling over into numbness
As infection set in
I stood in front of the tsunami of misery
And let it smash down on my head

I think it broke my skull
I keep finding fragments of me
On the shores of my subconscious
Trying to gently piece them together
Dedicated to the hunt and
Giving them everything
But they don’t want to come back
They say they need time

I wanted to care for you
Until you forgot how to be broken
But it was muscle memory for you
That didn't leave on whim
You had to break me too
Until I became the floor
Under your feet
That couldn't stop supporting you

I gave you my existence
But you gave me half
And I was still thirsty after
Half a glass of water
On a warm night
During passionate ***
But I'm even more parched
With the nothing I have now

Now I have to erase
Your dancing tiger eyes
Burning holes in mine
And talking
Late into the night
Until we hallucinated
And didn't know who we were talking to
Anymore

I just want you to stop leaving
Over and over
Like you do in my dreams
A thought loop I can’t leave
And even now you’re gone
You still want to play
With the wound in my chest
Picking off the scab when it tries to heal

If you had nails
You'd dig them into my brain
But you chewed them all off
Leaving unsightly stumps
So you resort to other games
Touching me tenderly
Then pushing me away
I hope you’re having fun

We were only alive during the night
You were nocturnal
And I wished the day away
So I could fall into your arms
And admire the contrast
Of our hair and skin
Rich brown on milky white
Gold on black

The sun always anaesthetised you
As it peered into your room
Stealing your essence
Leaving you a demotivated husk
But the night gave it back
And I was always grateful
That I could have the real you then
I gave up my day for my nights with you

I’d wait through all the smoking
Watching you try to fill the void
Hunting for a way
To try and straighten out
All your vicious insecurities
Too scared to deal with them sober
But you never needed to be high
For me to love you

I want my nerves to register
Your teeth clamped on my bare skin,
Pressure around my neck
And hands on my hips.
Your touch snaking all over
My fragile body
With locked lips
And your soft hair under my fingers

You infiltrate every memory
Imprinting your half smile
Behind my eyelids
I can still feel your hands
The lines they traced
I wish they'd trace more
Something to sooth
The hole in my chest

Sunlight shines through the hole but
Even as its edges become less raw
It's still punched through my chest
My heart’s missing
I hope you have it
Because I’d like it back at some point
Maybe we can plant it in the hole
And fertilise it with new flesh

I wish I could make more memories
And lie in bed with you for hours
But you won’t let me
You’re tidal, pushing and pulling
Until I disintegrate
In your sea of indecision
I’ll do whatever you want me to
I just wish it didn’t make me so sad
Heartbreak
Jeter ma gourme
Voilà ce que je voudrais faire
Et surtout la jeter avec toi
Et commettre ainsi mes premières frasques
Ou plutôt les secondes
Car j'ai oublié les premières.

Jeter sa gourme
Ce n'est pas se gourmer
Ce n'est pas un duel
C'est faire exploser sa pureté séminale
Et vouloir semer sa semence
Aux quatre vents
Mais moi ma semence telle une pivoine sauvage
Vole légère et virginale pour se blottir en toi
Te pénétrer, te fertiliser, ma méduse pélagique, à l'ombrelle bleue et rose,
Jusqu'aux derniers interstices
Accepte ma gourme, translucide et molle
Je ne la jette pas
Je te l'offre, cette efflorescence,
Je te la destine
Je te l'adresse dans tes eaux.
Je suis dans ma seconde jeunesse
Et je te prie de croire que cette gourme
Est un précipité pimenté de cheval, d'hippocampe et d'hippopotame
Même si elle n 'a rien d'un mastodonte.

Et non seulement je veux qu'elle te fertilise
Mais je veux que tu la goûtes
Et la savoure comme un bon bourgogne
Ou beaujolais nouveau
Je veux que tu t'en badigeonnes
Le corps et l'âme
Je veux que tu t'en maquilles
Les lèvres et les paupières
Et que ce fluide soit ta crème de beauté permanente.

Je veux que dans chaque café du petit matin
Une deux ou trois gouttelettes de cette gourme vienne sucrer ta journée
Et l'égayer de délicieuses bandaisons intimes
Et invisibles mais réelles
Lèche, prends, c'est de la tendresse liquide
De la chaleur liquide
De l'amour liquide
C'est ma cyprine à moi
Et comme je suis bavard et volubile
Je m'en sers pour t'écrire
En hiéroglyphes dont seule toi peut lire
Les encres sympathiques
Et je te dis :
Ma gourme t'aime maintenant
Ma douce, torride et brûlante Pelagia noctulica.
Mateuš Conrad Jun 2016
poetry masquerades under too much
freedom of ineffective
politics, which it does not which to
engage with, namely it's own:
far-left mummification,
the far left mummified its heroes,
the far right cremated theirs...
one took the route to
Prometheus absence as subsequent
lack of camp-fire eagerly hell-bent;
what truth is woman? the woman worthy
of socio-political affairs, or affairs
of paranoid idealism signature sentenced
as counter-argument with haircut stylistics
and tattooing?  a healthy visible status,
rather than an unhealthy counter, status
or no status, one ascribed the guillotine phobia,
the second a necessary Buddhist heroism -
both left reward-lost: dream of troll maidens,
dream of perfected bedroom antics with
so much ****, reducing acting to naught
and theatre to desperation with the ignited
insignia of bureaucracy rather than
bored harpsichord rebels hash tagging
emily davison for bets and awareness in having
monopoly - of her beauty i'll speak but little,
am i the shopkeeper, the merchant,
easier under the Niqab than for her fancy of ******
taking place... dreadlocks un-kept,
and three signatures on lips that made kissing
a pain... removed, thus revenged...
if i knew woman i'd have kept one...
but since i know none, i kept cats, bypassing women
and imagining children; and all the better
for my liking, such that the world shrunk
to the size of Lichtenstein - oh but the few
buttered friendships are there to be spoken off
in old age... the few that remain have already leveraged you
to bite the worm closest to the heart,
in times when educating yourself equated itself to being shamed;
when education became shame and trivia quizzing,
when education became Latin bulimia
and even that didn't fertilise the earth to spawn
the awaiting, unearthed root for what came to be
known as the chattering colour: as death stood,
in its wintry palace, jokingly mannequin.
TLK Aug 2012
I know you'll tell me
straight,
and she looks at me for assurance.
You always tell people
straight
right-side-up
exactly what you're thinking.

I just let her talk.

Well,
the sigh comes out like she's been punched in the belly,
I've been thinking about killing myself.
Not in a big way,
hands outstretched, face wide,
I don't want to die,
like,
tomorrow.

She looks at me.
She wants me to say,
"You're not crazy.  It's normal to feel like this.  To feel the steady drip drip drip of life wear you down.  To want to avoid it.  To make little decisions that shield you from the drips.  Numb you.  'Turn on, tune in, drop out.'"

I just let her talk.

Just small things,
she reiterates,
for example:
I've started to eat meat again.
One day,
boom,
clogged arteries.
Because,
part of me wants to die.
I'm stealing my mum's cigarettes.
One day,
boom,
lung cancer.
Same thing.



She shrugs,
Hands, elbows, shoulders undulating like a sea serpent.

I am unperturbed.
We live in a universe of humanity
and
there are so many galaxies hurtling towards
and away from
each other that all things have been done before.
Each galaxy screams with conflicting needs
solar systems tearing themselves apart
planets and moons swirling towards each other
to burn and burst into hateful dust.

One person can want to live
and want to die,
can want to say sorry
even as their hand makes a fist.
You don't need to know about Freud,
Thanatos,
Eros,
or all the grand words that litter the street of fake comprehension
to see
that
this
is
true.

Her eyes narrow.
She can see I am not impressed.
She is not stupid, at least not about others.
But we can all be stupid about ourselves,


no,


we all must be stupid about ourselves.
Life is not for the strong,
or the fast,
or the clever,
life is for the stupid.
Why play a game you cannot win?
How can you enjoy it without embracing your own recklessness?
I don't pity her,
not how she wants.
I am happy for her.
This discontent is
the ****
which might fertilise her life.

You don't understand,
she alleges
as if my listening has a different quality to it now.
A bewildered quality.
As if my ears are cocked at a different angle
eyes at a different brightness
breathing less or more in time with my heartbeat.

You don't understand,
she is sure of this.
I want to ruin myself.
I am applying for courses that I could never hope to be eligible for or
courses that I would never enjoy.
I am not doing what I am best at to make sure I never succeed at it.
I turn away my friends and loved ones with spitefulness.

I want to wake up tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that
and
never
be
anything
else.



Now it is her turn
to
listen.

Death is a private business,
I declare,
as you have already found.
It is hard to talk about,
hard to reveal,
it is between yourself and nothing else.
You could strangle all opportunities out of
fear
spite
self-loathing.
And as much as others complained,
it would be your choice.

Life,
though,
Life,
is a public business.
To live is to walk past and through other people.
Where they've been, where they are, where they are going.
If you want to live,
you have to negotiate it.
We are all hostages for each other,
we are all human shields,
we bear the brunt of each other's sorrow, sometimes,
or else we turn our backs to avoid it and so exclude ourselves.
We limit ourselves and each other.

You have been honest to me about your feelings,
and I am honoured,
but you must talk to the people who hold you
and to who you hold
nested in each other's pockets like Russian dolls.

All I can give you is this.
Here it is.
Here is my human sympathy.
You will pass it on to others,
one day.
David Barr Dec 2013
Look before you leap, because there is a chasm of fashionable awareness which is subject to the discriminations of the wise.
The cactus is a survivor in the desert of Arizona. But I will follow you if you dare to escape. Tadpoles will truly fertilise the obscurity of fallopian wells. Rise up and walk. Come on…break away from the chain-gang.
Charise Clarke Jun 2010
The page was blank until I wrote this,
that, then, now.

All time is passing,
this thing we are party to is everlasting
and our bodies grow old.

I will not let this poem go
I could just let it grow and grow
and never develop it.

The word develop makes me think of the womb
and camera film.
A poem is an egg, fertilise it with your vision,
photograph it with your eye.

Every word releases image after image,
fireworks form a question mark in a dark sky,
synapses snap like fruition,
my apples smother the ground, waiting to rot.

I can’t remember anything that has happened to me clearly                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                
let alone to the world.
Is anyone ever sure that anything really happened?

And the tea is too hot and the toast is too cold,
dreams of intermingling sips of tea and
bites of toast crust, turn to dust on my lips
and it is time to go to work.
Mary Pear Jul 2016
Disquiet,

Not dismay. Just disquiet
Lingers like the bitter leaves in a sweetened cup.
No tea without its bitter leaves,
No coffee without its dregs.

Disquiet

Fed by a gloomy day,
Nourished by wind and rain and a drear sky
Banished by bird song
Or a streak of sunlight.

Disquiet

Lingering from a half- forgotten dream
An echo of anxiety
Or chemical reaction
In the body?

Another day
Another season
Another place
Can swamp disquiet

Or starve it

Can fertilise anger or panic

Or can
deconstruct it

Sending

It's.

     Atoms

                   Hurtling

Into
        
          Space.
Fable I, Livre II.

À M. Andrieux, de L'Institut.


Toi qui vis vraiment comme un sage,
Sans te montrer, sans te cacher,
Sans fuir les grands, sans les chercher,
Exemple assez rare en notre âge ;
Pardonne-moi, cher Andrieux,
Dans ces vers qu'aux vents je confie,
De dévoiler à tous les yeux
Ta secrète philosophie.

Certain Lapon des plus trapus,
Certain Cafre des plus camus,
Équipaient, comme on dit, de la bonne manière,
Un homme qui, fermant l'oreille à leurs raisons
Vantait l'astre éclatant qui préside aux saisons,
Enfante la chaleur, et produit la lumière.
- Peut-il ériger, s'il n'est fou,
En bienfaiteur de la nature,
Un astre qui, six mois, me cache sa figure,
Et va briller je ne sais où,
Tandis que je gèle en mon trou,
Malgré ma femme et ma fourrure ?
On conçoit que celui qui s'exprimait ainsi
N'était pas l'habitant de la zone torride.
Pour moi, disait cet autre, en mon climat aride,
Je ne gèle pas, Dieu merci !
Mais je rôtis en récompense ;
Et sans avoir l'honneur d'être Lapon, je pense
Qu'un fou, lui seul, a pu vanter
La douce et bénigne influence
Du soleil, qui ne luit que pour me tourmenter ;
Qui, d'un bout de l'année à l'autre,
Embrase la terre, les airs,
Et porte en mon pays, jusques au fond des mers,
La chaleur qu'il refuse au vôtre.
Le fou, qui cependant célébrait les bienfaits
Du roi de la plaine éthérée,
Fils de la zone tempérée,
N'était rien moins que fou, quoiqu'il fût né Français.
Sans se formaliser des vives apostrophes
Du nègre et du nain philosophes,
Seigneur Lapon, dit-il, votre raisonnement
Est sans réplique, en Sibérie ;
Comme le vôtre en Cafrerie,
Monsieur le noir ; mais franchement,
Autre part, c'est tout autrement.
En France, par exemple, on ne vous croirait guère.
L'astre à qui vous faites la guerre,
Là, par ses rayons bienfaisants,
De fleurs et de fruits, tous les ans,
Couvre mes champs et mon parterre ;
S'éloignant sans trop me geler,
S'approchant sans trop me brûler,
De mon climat, qu'il favorise ;
À la faucille, au soc, il livre tour à tour
Mes campagnes, qu'il fertilise
Par son départ et son retour.
Vous qui craignez le feu, vous qui craignez la glace
Venez donc à Paris. Gens d'excellent conseil
Disent qu'un sage ne se place
Trop près ni trop **** du soleil.
Olivia Kent Oct 2015
As granite stands with sullen face.
As shall she beat with loves embrace.
As garlands tangled through her hair.
Twisted quaint and beautiful.
All diamond spangles bought to bare.
Upon a cushion, resting there.
As a marigolds unfolding petals, flutter slowly to the deck.
Where hen and **** birds, doth respect each others humble point of view.
That love before thy ne'er knew.
As bumblebees and butterflies, between them ever fertilise.
As strength grows more each day be passed.
In hope we pray thy love shall last.
Eternal as that granite mound, as love in thine iced heart be found.
Thine heart be ever truly frozen, granite set immovable,
Set in stone.
The cold heart of the lonely one.
(c)LIVVI
David Barr Apr 2018
The horse and cart slowly meander along the cobbled village lane,
as smoke projects her pungent and spiraling emissions from thatched rooves - casting her grey contrast as she penetrates the menacing darkness and caresses the trees of the ancient forest, in her journey of elemental consummation.
Rotten teeth, debauchery and tankards of ale abound at the candle-lit inn, where the curvaceous ******* and buttocks of the wanton ***** are roughly groped in medieval lust.
Her shrieks of surprise are an expression of unleashed restraint, that release a shower of blazing embers of interconnectedness, which prohibitively fertilise the barren land of depleted social mores.
Let us now share explicit and superstitious tales around the crackling moonlight fire tonight, as the screech of the owl shatters the eerie silence of Olde English folklore.
Look at the children as they gaze wondrously with sleepy eyes and open mouths, in a state of nocturnal slumber.
The tension is tangible.
Long live the King.
the chocolate fertilised egg


it is getting close to easter and my friend was wanting to have a baby

right in time, for the big holiday, so i went to the ***** bank and asked them

if i could make a fertilised egg to put in my friends ****** to create life, and it just

so happens that my friend loves chocolate and she wanted her baby to love it too,

so every time the baby kicked, she would eat a block of chocolate, but she had no idea

of why she did that, it just seemed to make her happy i guess,  but it forced the baby

to kick and kick and kick, and when i leaned over to hear the sound of the baby kicking

she would yell out, HEY, LOVE, GIVE ME THE CHOCOLATE, SO IT CAN MAKE MY FUCKEN EGGS

AND CREATE A LIFE WORTH LOVING.  and i gave her a chocolate, and i started thinking

fancy a baby loving chocolate and i hope he or she is born at easter, it could make a superb

birthday present, yeah a chocolate bunny or an egg with smarties in the middle, and this will

be the the right time to fertilise the egg with a nice dose of chocolate, where every easter we will

have many parties to celebrate this wonderful easter.
Saumya Dec 2018
We're like dispersed seeds.
We've no specific destination.
We're just blowing in the wind.
Once we've reached,
We either fertilise or wait for the right plant.
Or worse, yearn to go back to where we came from.
Poetic T Aug 2020
I'll burn you all like your stumps,
          cutting you lower than you define.


You thought you were surpassing
         maturating high with fake

                               terminology that

        never matured more than a seed
                      of contemplation.

Your dead before you reach my height,
                limp stumps brittle to the flow

of my breath..

windswept failings, your just a seed
                dead in the wind of change.

But the only thing you fall is fake...


          I'll grow beyond your seeds of discontent.

           Watch my syllables plant in the young,
                    growing in height that you never

clipped, every word is nourishment that is
                neither an ego to grow.


But I1'l grow with every sentence read.
         your my wind, gusting me to new

Ground to fertilise the metaphors of nourishment
              that i feed to the masses, no pesticides
                   were used in the growth of this word.
Chrissy Jan 2019
Don't leave your "I love you" until your tears fertilise the ground that carries their vessel.
nivek Dec 2016
the womb of the Universe still hasn't shrivelled
just as the hand with the gun in it itches for a target
ploughed and seeded with the past and future
Mankind gropes forward with its technology
to fertilise the unfertile, make a robot army
and give birth to the immortal generation.
Prashant Shaurya May 2020
The raging river tears apart
Mighty Himalayas’ sturdy frame
It pierces the mountain’s rocky heart
Burgeons, to fertilise the plains.

The mist conspires with the clouds
To pour down on the foothills weak
Which crumble across the hilly terrain
To break the traveller’s winning streak.


Prashant Shaurya ©

All Rights Reserved
14/07/2019
Geraldine Taylor Jun 2017
Blueberries, bananas, apples that fall

Berries and pears, we love them all

Fresh rainwater, summer heat

The part of plants that we can eat



Inside the fruit, contains the seeds

Found on bushes, grown on trees

Tomato plants, of heights will rise

With soil and compost, fertilise



Seeds we scatter, seeds we sow

All around the world they grow

Celebrate at food events

Cities, countries, continents



Supermarkets, stalls be manned

Frozen, dried, fresh or canned

Varied fruits ripen with time

Fresh fruit salad, shall we dine



A complement of any meal

Fruits to blend and fruits to peel

Expectations to surpass

Blended poured into a glass



Garden fruit and fruit in tins

Daily fibre, vitamins

Large vineyards, where growers take

From tiny buds, to blossomed grape



Strawberry smoothie, raspberry jam

Tomato sandwich, cheese and ham

Assembled fruit upon the plate

Master-chef provide your rate



Written by Geraldine Taylor ©
IncholPoem Jan 2019
A  flying  insect
without   control
on  itself
touched   the  stomata.


A female spider's
hunting   net
was   covering  
the  empty  area
of    stomata.


It   did  bind
and  ****   that
insect.


But  that  insect
had  egg  to  fertilise
in  its body.
Chrissy Apr 2019
I did not ask for you to paint your feelings of past hurting from other lovers on my body
But you did
I want you to know
That I would not never clench your heart
And squeeze out its contents
In an attempt to fertilise my own insecurities
I want you to know that
It is ok to show emotion and to be delicate
It is ok to show weakness because after weakness comes strength
I want you to know
That I know it takes great courage to pick yourself out of the rubble war has caused instead of burying your head in the dirt
I want you to know
that I am not like her
I am like me
I would not inflict the pain of a million heartaches on you to appease my own hurting
nivek Aug 2017
ash
ash is good for vegetables

your ash, and mine
when she finally blows
our life giving life taking Sun

may well help fertilise a distant garden
DM Otonashi Feb 2017
And so I thought I'd died enough
To wake Diana in the night.
Diana sits and looks at me.

She holds the veil up, the breeze
Comes whistling through my hollow knees,
I glimpse light moving in the trees,
The crown dances,
Birds in flames,
I thought I'd never be released
To sift,
To fertilise,
To rouse
These common grounds.

Diana sits and looks at me.
She lifts the bow,
Strings in me pick up a melody.

I conjure up another spring by clapping twice
And in between my fingers lightning strikes.
My face is solemn, stiff and long.
I scatter seeds around and I
Believe that I belong.

I am so powerful, you know,
But you can see right through the bluff.
My boat can carry two but you
Will drift above the river of...
Among the blue you'll meet those who...
Who'd noticed something in the stream
Then stomped their feet and laughed.

It's still a mystery to me
How you can evidently be
Somewhere outside.
But facts are stubborn,
Runes in stone
When spread around on the lawn
Do illustrate in solid form
How I can be and how I am
Preposterously wrong.

I do accept,
I do agree,
My bow is polite,
But secretly, my little one,
I know that I am right.
You see,
I'm selfish like a cat who busks in morning light.
You dance,
You laugh,
You sing for me,
Just me.
Right now.
Inside.
Le maître du suspense disait :
"Film your murders like love scenes
And film your love scenes like murders"

En matière de meurtre
Comme en matière d'amour
Il faut se rendre aux évidences.
Assouvir les fantasmes d'une hydre muse
C'est assouvir en même temps neuf petites morts
De concert en une seule et unique nuée ardente d'aludes
Au-dessus d'une forêt de brume.
Pour que la petite mort soit presque parfaite
Il ne suffit pas de composer M pour MUSE
Et il en faut plus qu'une tige
Aussi frénétique soit-elle
Pour mordre les fesses offertes
Et laisser son empreinte immortelle
Dans les fantasmes des muses.
Ce n'est une question ni de calibre
Ni d'âge ni d'atomes crochus.
C'est une question purement biologique
Les coqs n'ont pas de dents
Qu'ils soient coqs de bruyère
Ou coqs-games ou coq des prés
Les coqs n'ont pas de dents
Mais des crêtes.
Et même s'ils peuvent picorer
Le grain d'or des muses
Et lui faire rendre leur café volcanique
Ce n'est pas par leurs crêtes rouge sang qu'ils les séduisent
Ni par leur bec ni par leur queue
Ni par leur bréchet ni par leurs cuisses
Ni par leurs suprêmes
Ce n'est pas par leurs crêtes piquées à cent degrés au four de la distance.
C'est le sang du coq et non son chant qui fait sa garniture aromatique
La sangre del gallo
The rooster's blood
A sangue do galo
San a kokla
C'est le sang du coq, le chant nu, L'ethos sans poil ni plume,
La cendre braconnière qui fertilise
De sa lave visqueuse
La forêt luxuriante des hydres-muses,
Le pays où fleurissent les sources du poème.
Geraldine Taylor Jun 2017
The emergence thereof, a cycle begins

Of different forms – developing

Exceeding growth of varied rate

Conditions there to germinate



To reproduce they fertilise

New plants to materialise

Protection of the embryo

Seeds produced, equipped to grow



Soil with moisture and daylight

A season with conditions right

Outer case of seed to split

Cells divide at the root tip



Food produced with sunlight caught

A stronger stem for base support

Grass re-growth of no delay

Species grow in the same way



Creeping plants that climb a wall

Taking shape and growing tall

Carbon dioxide, water involved

The minerals are then dissolved



Tree exposure strong and willed

Healthy cells of which to build

Plants and trees are all around

Natural wonders, calm surround



Written by Geraldine Taylor ©
Nothing May 2020
Why
For what reason is
The little bird kicked out of
the nest
It was different

For what reason does
rotting flesh of fellows
fertilise the ground
They were caught between a
match of boars
The artificial islet

There is an island in the sea
ten feet deep it has a mountain to
of baby diapers which fertilise
the layers of sand blown by the wind.
Some birds lay eggs there
the hatchlings have plastic wings
but cannot fly.
This island is man creation and has
no worth other than a warning for
for shipping in the vicinity.
Mateuš Conrad Mar 2018
i almost can't believe that i write
my best poems,
  and then completely flip
****** with the cursor button
                  and ****!
              it's... gone...
   and i'm left with scraps...
            bits and pieces,
            sayings out of context,
    like:
           only rich boys get to play the
"chase" game women so romance
about... when i hear of "the chase"
coming out of a man's mouth,
   i start thinking, dude:
      enough of this david attenborough
****!
        ****, nothing noble can
ever come out of my mouth these
days,
          when you say: the druids
speak for the gods,
       i say the tongue of a poet
is owned by the people...
     i could have written this wild
poem about the myths of
the Faroese,
      i.e. the sea of ragnarök at Hvalba,
or the ones seeking wings,
               descending at Lønin;
watch enough lion's ***
  and i'm pretty sure it'll soon
     turn into a mouth of a monkey...
there's is nothing accidental
about this world,
    the rich boys get to play
the chase game, i.e. chase women...
the poor boys?
      just have to, ******* live
with them!
         i'm already "claustrophobic"
having a shadow...
         mind if i say that i like
those dark places:
       where the two of us meet?
there are places like that...
    pupils dilate,
        the shadow disappears...
        we, one and as one alone,
toss the autumn leaves into
a fire to abscond from perfumes
of decay...
          and then listen
to the meat heads...
          bashing, grizzly grinding
a chewing sound...
      and the tongue of man, became
the foetus, in the yet to take form,
within a woman's body...

     for man the coward,
then woman: the chandelier
         shackler...
               upon who's duty?
to play a game with women is one
thing...
          but to live with one?
                  i typescripted
the conversation between
dr. isak borg, marianne borg
   and dr. evald borg for ten or so minutes...
   and i found that:
after a while...
             this will never be
what i have already lost...
         and in that what i can only
gain is a similar answer
   we function to our own needs,
you have a **** need to live create life,
to which she replied: so what are your
needs?
           i need to be completely,
immovably... dead.
              as one might say:
for man the already apparent
burial...
        for woman, cremation,
and reincarnation...
           if women wear the veil,
or not...
           no woman is worth
being remembered...
         men ought to fertilise
the earth with a burial ground...
while women, to ease the pain
of not having either a lover
or a mourner stand by her grave:
be... cremated.
Ryan O'Leary Apr 26
Rumours

Rumours are clouds, so full of rains

from heavens above they fertilise plains.

Rumours are made in river water mills

each turn of the wheel and another one spills.

Rumours grow wings and then they take flight

nocturnal as well so they don't not need no light.

Rumours are echoes that wail in the halls

some say graffiti that are scribbled on walls.

Rumours are goods trains brimming with thought

but sometimes bad news can often be brought.

Rat a tat rumours speak to the sleepers

and when they wake they tell the grim reapers.

Some rumours are known not to be true

oh how we’d act different if only we knew.

Rumours have echoes bouncing like *****

but rarely those juggled eventually falls.

RumuR like this is a spelt palindrome

goes out and comes back but never at home.

Rumours increase and then multiply

but by no calculation could one verify.

Rumours are whispers, Chinese on the vine

though not for 3 monkeys who never drink wine.

Rumours are fables that begin with no end

it’s rare that one hears one which doesn’t offend.

Rumours are stories by authors all gone

when asked of the source they’re always anon.

Rumours are secrets that didn’t survive

they always need someone with which to connive.

Rumours when lost can always be found

a nod and a wink and one ear to the ground.

Priests they hear rumours, often confessed

just say 3 Hail Mary’s and then you are blessed.

A rumour’s a tumour once started it grows

delivered by storks and it reared by the crows.

Rumours have beaks that look like a nose

they start out as sonnets and end up in prose.

A rumour can rhyme and can live in a phone

in a Limerick or haiku it’s never alone.

A rumour can mutter can stammer or stutter

but just like a bread slice it’s nought without butter.

I heard a rumour that my sister was dead

by then she was buried but no family said.

I heard a rumour I was barred from the grave

and security told, that I was a knave.

A rumour that “Plutus” the god of great wealth

from her will, removed me, but I’d prefer health.

But these stories are gossip and some even rumour

and sure what does it matter, I’ve still got my humour.

— The End —