"cornea" poems
Nov 2016 - The Fall Line
~
*all the lines of man-made yellows,
so tempting threatening...inviting,
the subway platform, the street curb,
the highway divide
the double parallel equal sign that has no solution,
remaining hopelessly empty,
defining the watery soluble
inequality of null*
~~
The Fall Line
first heard the phrase months ago in Argentina,
standing before the c-shaped Iguazu Falls
the fall line
where the crystalline basement rock
erodes away the oncoming soft sedimentary,
there, where,
a waterfall is nature-gifted
so intuitive, so obvious,
what else to call the water's owned edge,
line of demarcation,
where we grow captivated,
mesmerized, knee weak,
traumatized and tantalized
knew that instant when spoken,
The Fall Line,
saw inarguable symmetry to so many lives,
would be a someday poem
selective service phrases stored and
someday up recalled,
a thousand, maybe more,
waiting for the confluence of
time and place,
to be a mother
letting my fluid sac burst,
giving birth to a concoction symphonic,
the emotions waterfalling, cascading,
the precision, vision seconds,
when words
pour, gush, surge, spill,
stream, flow, issue, spurt
~~~
silently crafted in the weeks and months prior,
the unconscious drowning in ache and pain
of suffocating drudge sludge of everyday living
*all the lines of man made yellows,
so tempting threatening...inviting
the subway platform, the street curb,
the highway divide
the double parallel equal sign that has no solution remaining empty, defining the inequality of null*
the vision infection of the majestic fall line,
so accessible in an instance of overwhelm,
cornea implanted, the sounding call of sweet blissful
whatever
one more additional addiction unshakeable,
jumping from fall line to fall line,
it's the game I am played,
but the controller
is not in my possess
**for the joy stick that drives my actions,
toys with me,
the human fool jumping
from fall line to fall line,
unsure of what he desires,**
salvation or saving
11/26/16
Apr 20, 2017
Apr 20, 2017 at 9:41 PM UTC
Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.
I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.
Then the almost unnameable lust returns.
Even then I have nothing against life.
I know well the grass blades you mention,
the furniture you have placed under the sun.
But suicides have a special language.
Like carpenters they want to know which tools.
They never ask why build.
Twice I have so simply declared myself,
have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy,
have taken on his craft, his magic.
In this way, heavy and thoughtful,
warmer than oil or water,
I have rested, drooling at the mouth-hole.
I did not think of my body at needle point.
Even the cornea and the leftover ***** were gone.
Suicides have already betrayed the body.
Still-born, they don't always die,
but dazzled, they can't forget a drug so sweet
that even children would look on and smile.
To ****** all that life under your tongue!-
that, all by itself, becomes a passion.
Death's a sad bone; bruised, you'd say,
and yet she waits for me, year after year,
to so delicately undo an old wound,
to empty my breath from its bad prison.
Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet,
raging at the fruit a pumped-up moon,
leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss,
leaving the page of the book carelessly open,
something unsaid, the phone off the hook
and the love whatever it was, an infection.
5.1k
Wolves of all,
Hear thy cry.
Save me from this light.
It blinds my cornea.
It burns my skin...
The melanin darkens.
Revealing the Scars.
The scars of the past.
Have been raised from the dead.
Resurrected now,
Revealing my sins.
Wolves of Old,
Hear my cry...
Save me from this world.
Take me from this life..
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 9:52 AM UTC
it's only that i want to
permeate particles like marie
curie did. lay your lungs out
on a slab and i will show you
intricacies in fissures. i don't know if i
want you inside me but i definitely
want you inside-out. the aches come
on worst in the morning and at
night, hold me in those moments like marie
curie would. demonstrate an interest
in the unseen and i will bring you
spectrometry. demonstrate an interest.
voices happen all day and i am
fixated. that friendly fire barely
shows herself at all anymore, only
in your absence, like an ill-conditioned
cat. i don't know if you noticed but
my boots are booking miles. my daemons
feed on a seed in my back, so do not
wag that tail. do not turn those beads
of fleshy water, there are magnets that
your cornea can't block. i'm past my
half life and you've passed your lethal dose,
so don't let me decay into an isotope
with half my strength. i'm leaving
traces on the walls you can scrape off
like brown ice. don't let me decay into
a softer neon. hold me tight like marie
curie died.
Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 1:17 PM UTC
My anomalous trip thus far has been dichotomous.
Harbingers motivate my advent: a chorus.
Acceptance of frolic ventures sent: a quest.
My sneakers meet familiar soil at last.
Designed to be a panacea, yet I fall ill.
Sleets of rain impact my soul: a slight chill.
Hazed trance, awashed clean of all acrimony.
A lurid stroll, downhill, parallel, perfunctory.
I, a stoic mercenary, avenging my ties tonight.
Arcane magic flow through my veins, my sight.
Moisture sparkle, glistens through my mental maze.
Resistance, control: I attempt to regain ablaze.
Synaptics fuse, burn, misfire, discombobulate.
Higher functions remain: calculus, formulate.
Veritas! Visual focus be on 2D layer sharp.
Disintegrated data sung with melodious harp.
Laissez-faire slayed by Communist meritocracy.
Mental hierarchy arise from wayward sorcery.
My affection for her nets only melancholia.
The amity cease... yet reborn by spying cornea.
Upon a hill from sea to sea brings forth diplomacy.
Lively lads, enshrouded in black; they be prodigies.
Persons of worth: one stranger joins their ranks.
If my creed offend, beg you pardon pranks.
Silent drizzle softly sings of night and majesty.
Lament under moonlight, behold gray sanctity.
Ne'er shall dreadful turmoil befall our facilities.
Literature conceals such divine secrecy.
Aug 28, 2010
Aug 28, 2010 at 5:15 AM UTC
I am writing yet another poem
in my attempt to,
not lure,
but to request for your loving attention.
When I woke up this morning,
I woke up a failure
and I felt dead with every breath I take.
I recognized and realized that
I have so many undeserving help
from people who deserves
so much more from me.
I should not lay here with comfort
but rather with remorse.
With regret.
With hatred.
I feel like I failed in masterminding
most of my relationships,
be it a social one, a formal one,
a normal one, a unique one.
Our one.
I drove around town,
my head spinning much quicker
than my 5-spook rims
and my 16-inch tires.
My thoughts spoke words my tongue could not pronounce.
My tongue locked itself up as though my lips were sealed.
Night seems like days with flashes of lights and images
cutting every cells in my cornea, in my brain.
Images of you.
So bright were your light.
I miss you, let that be known.
I am courageous enough for a stanza or two,
but a coward I am truly, madly, deeply.
But I have a passion for us
for we share one common trait that is rather rare.
But it is rather unfair
that the stairs to your room of hearts
stops halfway.
Because if I were to bare you and expose the nakedness of your soul
you will see yourself transforming into someone you want to be
in the glisten of my tear drop,
because I see you right through like an arrow leaving the bow.
And I know you see me right through like the bow-tie I wear can
never hide from you the nervousness I have behind my sleek tuxedo.
We share this common love for words, our view of life.
We share this unique taste in music, and our unique waste of talent
by only having our poems sit on paper and allow it to rot as the paper
expel from it's expiration date.
We share this weird relationship that we had
that I hope I can have back,
that I hope you want to have it back too.
Nothing is as good a pleasure as having our eyes meet
in a slender of a minute;
or even a second.
But it was enough.
It was more than perfection.
We were perfect. Weren't we?
A mixed *** filled with strange mysterious fervor,
Filled with confused but exciting flavors.
We were a jumbled jar of unconditional affection for each other.
Jumbled and crumbled like a hot *** of chutney.
So shall we try again?
Let's have a taste of what I've wasted,
Let's have our hands stretched out wide,
and just hug it out.
Just you and me,
finally
with nothing to hide.
Let's stop the cold fight.
It's never meant to be.
We are always meant to be.
Have I already said that I miss you?
Mar 18, 2013
Mar 18, 2013 at 4:25 AM UTC
A shadow holds me in his grip and seeks the bones that he must find. The grazes of ghostly fingers on myself remind me of my ending youth and the ticking time that is left.
I’ve disappeared into the morning fog as the people I love have begun to stare straight through me They strain to look at me although I vanish upon them catching a small glimpse- I am acid to the cornea causing burning blindness and hatred.
These bones are brittle and the wind has picked up, the sky is darkening as if to rain and the rainbow day is done. However, the rainbow days were spent as a child whisked to the side to be plucked like a fruit all of the brightness and sweets taken, leaving me dull, laughter drops from me like a stone.
I attempt to concentrate on the slivers of light peering through the bars of my own psychological prison cell, but such magnification did not set my heart on afire.
Rain droplets taste my skin, unraveling at the ripples as 3 lightning bolts fork through the houses, 7 claps of thunder, 12 bursts of laughter in the house next door and a thousand tears rolling down my cheeks. I suddenly realize that my head was severed from my body days ago while lying sleepless on the worn couch.
Each season the garden dies, i die with each, until i die no more- although his death and mine were not the same, we still rot underneath the dirt in worms and earth as the city streets blacken and decompose.
The tears cling to the sleeve of my jacket mucus separating with a sticky pull and the dolls and smiles of my life are gone replaced by the headache and the row of cuts on my thighs.
Dec 22, 2018
Dec 22, 2018 at 3:03 PM UTC
The Satan residing in the cornea,
Tries too hard to insist
And the continuously contaminated
Clockwork fails to resist.
The ***** of the aces – Corrupt
In a while it will erupt,
And puke out disrupt
****** emotions outburst
Of unbearable lust.
The pubescent plaque
Haemorrhages seeds of deeds
Culminates all over – the wicked weeds.
Seductive seas
The mind browses
****** ***** the louses.
Engulfed in the trap of crap
Cornea turns Pornea.
Mar 4, 2010
Mar 4, 2010 at 12:11 PM UTC
Do not dissimulate from life
Lethargy instills apathy
Droning everything bores you
Nothing gets your blood boiling
Truth evades your gray cornea
Your persistence is persuasive
Petite energy emitted
Exhausted to convince numbness
You are the youth, the world’s future
Dissimulation not an option
Wave the white flag. We’ll still wage war
Never will you conquer concern
My comrades in texts and I’ll fight
To give hope, future, and success
Or we will perish in battle
Content knowing we truly cared
PLEASE CARE ABOUT YOURSELF!
Feb 9, 2013
Feb 9, 2013 at 4:16 PM UTC
Intrusive image invading unstable imagination
Bursting bright bringing bouncing bobbling bits of bubbling illusions into brain
A memory of magical messy minutes moseying and mingling
A menagerie of magnificent moments miraculously marked in my mischievous mind
Coming into chaotic corners of cornea calmly
Cruising without cares
Dec 10, 2020
Dec 10, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC
Like love
At first sight
I watched
Eden
bloom in your eyelids.
As my heart beat
Richter scales,
I was afraid the
weight of my breath would sound
earthquake
and break the
snow globes
in your eye sockets.
For the first time,
I wished everything would
freeze
in the moment our eyes met.
When our gaze broke I was
shook
so hard I could see my dreams floating in air,
like snowflakes
looking for a place to come true.
They found a home
on your fingertips
and some you even caught on your tongue.
Now gardens grow
in my cheeks when I sleep,
and every time
our eyes kiss I
drip
into the nooks and crannies of
your lips.
You built me
a snowman
out of blown kisses and
promised it wouldn't melt.
And I built you a cottage in my cornea.
Mar 5, 2013
Mar 5, 2013 at 12:22 AM UTC
you are a body in a boat
on the lake with the shadows
of a million birds over your chest
and you are breathing with them all
and the waves want you
like I want you
and we will both kiss the tips
of your dripping fingers
stretching from your crinkled
hand, like all of Tennessee
in your palm.
oh, how full of fog you are.
you are a body in a boat
on the lake with that shore
covered in rocks, unskipped
the plants unpulled,
roots unslipped.
but as your fingers drip
from body to liquid
the discs of ripples
spread
to me on that shore
holding my own
holy head
so little did we know (so little did we know)
those ripples were not our own
but instead
the alternating white/blue
of iris and cornea
of skin and vein
of hand and sky (of iris and cornea
that all go away of skin and vein
that all die of hand and sky)
and one day, we will find
(beneath the shadows cast
by temporary leaves) (that all go away
our own bones, buried deep that all die)
under the roots.
(our own bones, buried deep
under the roots)
and you are breathing with them all
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 9:18 PM UTC
Drip
Drip
Let it drip
rain droplets
that stings my face
and flows across my sullen face
my eyebrows drench
my lips moist
my eyes surrounded by water
where the cornea of my eye became a pool
those same wet eyes looking to the heavenly skies of charcoal
blocked by branches full of red berries
red dots in the sky
Like an insane painting
I vigorously wave my hands to the sky
trying to rid the blood
like a car's windshield, stained by someones brain organs
spaghetti and tomato sauce
the blotches of red from the sky fell
like greasy bullets
Gravity increased its accelerating
piercing my skin
infected piercings, my skin turn green
one sour green berry slowly fell into my mouth
Now I'm finally free.
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 12:02 PM UTC
Neptune
Eyed baby
I'll admit I'm
Light-years past crazy
I'd give
The Galaxy
For you
Juniper
Burned Haley's
Comet as it
Lit up our daily
Blues
Set in our awkward shoes
Mind-tight dreaming
Garnished with gleaming
Silence kept screaming
In hope for the breaking word
Spark-wet
Drenched breaths
Under the tree
That murdered death
I'd make
The sun burn
For you
Grass-stained
Sky-dressed
You leave me to
My obsession's mess-y
Blues
Set in our awkward shoes
Mind tight dreaming
Garnished with gleaming
Silence kept screaming
In hope for the breaking word
Violent heart rate
In nerve-wrecked state
Tempting all fates
To go back on their word
And I say
Goodbye, Cornea,
Goodbye
And I say
I love you, Cornea
Goodnight
And I say
Goodbye, Alice,
Goodbye
And I say
I love you, Alice
Goodnight
Mind-tight dreaming
Garnished with gleaming
Silence kept screaming
In hope for the breaking word
Violent heart rate
In nerve-wrecked state
Tempting all fates
To go back on their word
Neptune
Eyed baby
I'll admit I'm
Light-years past crazy
For you
May 26, 2010
May 26, 2010 at 1:24 PM UTC
I dissected a cow's eye
Today.
I cut the muscle from the pale ball
And cut that alabaster sphere
In half.
The cornea was as hard as a marble
And perfectly round
When I lifted it from
The ****** pale moon
That stared up at my scalpel.
It was a returning.
May 14, 2014
May 14, 2014 at 9:27 AM UTC
Oh mirror, the flattened cornea,
Whom do you belong to, dear?
-Who love me as themselves.
Oh my childhood Barbie,
Whom do you belong to, dear?
-Who put their breath in me.
Oh the young walking stick,
Whom do you belong to, sir?
-Dependence of helpless old.
Nov 25, 2016
Nov 25, 2016 at 8:55 AM UTC
I woke up this morning in an orange dystopian world. An eerie darkness filled the room as a faint rusty glow bled through the blinds. Profound silence swept the streets and with it all forms of life vanished. My breath and the beat of my heart were the only things that reassured my existence. A viscosity that of molasses filled the air weighing down gravity itself, or at least it felt like it, as my body lethargically swam back towards the dark depths of the room. The curiosity within me sought external perspective so I dialed into the digital realm. What followed was disheartening to say the least. People from all over questioning if this was the end so nonchalantly, exposing the desolation that’s taken their lives hostage. I ask myself, how is it that we are so quick to **** ourselves? How is it that we’ve grown incredibly numb in a state of great psychological stress? I ask as the answer stares me in the face. Optical dopamine beaming into my cornea penetrating parts of me I thought only I had access too. Altered genetic code, altered state of mind, altered fabric of space and time, altered reality.
Still, I cling on to the utopian beliefs that veil my unwavering optimistic heart... and I pray.
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 3:51 PM UTC
There’s a pressure.
It’s building,
Inside of my head.
My skull, it might crack,
Soon I’ll be dead.
It’s clogging my throat,
My nose,
Even ears.
I can’t breath, I can’t think,
I can’t even,
Shed tears.
My vision is blurry,
Like a film,
White and thin,
Has laid over my cornea.
And sunken,
Right in.
It just keeps on building,
And I think;
‘This must be it’
But it just keeps on building,
And I’m not,
Dead yet.
Sep 19, 2011
Sep 19, 2011 at 12:38 PM UTC
A cigarette filter dangles between the boney knuckles of my middle and index finger
Smoke rolls up my hand
My head falls to the back of the chair
I can smell the pollen drifting from the oak trees
They remember when dying for what you believed in was an easy decision
A cigarette filter hangs between my lips
Smoke rolls up my cheeks
Stinging my cornea
They have yet to see what it means to hold the hand of a brother you have never met
To watch his life become a folded flag
A cigarette filter lies in an ash tray
The smoke rolling into the atmosphere
The cherry red slowly fading
The filter has heard the worries of a soldier yet to serve his country
A pack of cigarettes lay on a bedside counter
Waiting to hear what more I have to say
Oct 21, 2013
Oct 21, 2013 at 9:10 PM UTC
I wander upon the pond of my sufferings.
I wander freely, misguided and wonder
Where these footsteps might lead.
Strange dots collide into infinite dots,
Then divide into answers shaped as knots.
They are paths I don't want to seek.
I dived too deep into this obscurity, too deep.
The weight of my inner world
Keeps crushing my feet.
They can't run any longer
For my heart beats too weak,
I don't intend to hide under,
Just need a place to sleep.
My soul craves for the silence of katharsis
And I can only dream of a deserted oasis,
When time was only a clear drop,
A time when I was me and you were you...
I should stop writing this, I should stop.
Can't deny my letters miss writng your name,
They miss you a lot.
Innocence was written on the warmth
Of our holding hands
And smiles embraced the air
Of our own molded lands.
I've lost myself
In this "fear-hate" game.
I've come to my end
In my mind's jungle,
There's no escape train.
Nightmares became too often real
In my awaken mornings rays,
Despite rainbows of sounds and joly colours,
Demented wounds and bruises never heal.
So here I am...
Thrown on this arsenic pond
My life ends here -
Death is born.
Don't blame me,
My beloved one.
You see
Miracles don't happen for me,
For the lost times I felt undone.
I shall find my sleep
In this lifeless area.
Between these scarlet whispers,
Between garments of memories
From the back of my cornea.
These are my last invalid words
To you...
I will be lost in my mistakes hue,
Forever lost, forever unwritten.
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 12:31 PM UTC
Unexpectedly he has been cracked
Squarely across his dainty skull
Inevitably to his knees he languishes
Supplemented by a concussion
Havoc is illicitly wreaked upon the delicacy
Of this young man's psyche
As another swift, sucker punch is executed
Stylishly into his jawbone
Followed by an unforeseen series
Of frenzied jabs to the nose
The anguish screams through the brooks
Of crimson oozing from his nostrils
While a dangerous haymaker
Shockingly arises from thin air
Sinking fiercely into his cornea
Rupturing the veins in his eyeball
A circular crown of black envelops
The entire surface of his left eye
Oh, the gruesome consequences of
Applauding the eminence of nonexistence
A truculent knockout that will truly
Abduct one into an eerie coma
And rightfully deliver them back to
The portion of reality where they belong
Aug 28, 2011
Aug 28, 2011 at 4:54 PM UTC
*Not everything I can make into a poem
like the sky just after rain
her embroidered smile its minutest hem
in her shade of cornea a grain of pain!
Not everything I can make into a poem
like wind eddies from wings of bird
her amorous veil that stokes my flame
in her lips’ quiver the unuttered word!
Not everything I can make into a poem
like the heron’s swoosh on the moon of marsh
her endless aroma without a name
in her eyes the million stars!
Not everything I can make into a poem
like when perches the bird on nest
her flushed cheeks in love game
in her kiss the sea salt’s taste!*
Aug 13, 2014
Aug 13, 2014 at 1:21 PM UTC
the apple is pupil plus cornea
or maybe the magnetized pole
in pacific sea, pinhole
or some sinkhole in a shelf
of split ice. my flamboyant
sadness smells of citrus
and paint thinner. what if
i painted my future kid’s walls
that color. what if i could
talk to the three-letter word
that is one letter. a hole
in a hollow is also me
and an eye and the middle
of the riddle. and the eye is echo
not rhyme, linked like a low keen
from sea to sea, or a fruit
bruised perfect blue. beginnings
can be magnetized, too. i try
not to think of ice when i’m
with you.
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 6:08 PM UTC