lying next to you
same bed
still
continents apart


wondering
where your mind travels
and where your heart
lies

One day you will
not remember my name

The touch of my hand
the rhytm of my heart

One day I disappear
from your life

From everybody's life
Even my own

I invited you to come
I didn't realize

that behind your back
your sister pain
slipped in as well

You left
and She stays

I know that my happiness
shouldn't rely on other people

But I still put my whole life
to the palm of your hand

I want to reach
Circle your lips
With my fingertips

Kiss gently
The curtains of your eyes
that guard your sleep

I'll put my hand
on your chest
Just for the second

to ease your pain
I' ll hide all your sorrow
In my palm

You never saw
the way I love you

It took me years
of self-hatred

to understand
I was not enough

So I choose myself
and leave

Unseen in the dark
I stole the piece
from the sky
that was never mine

Hidden ashamed
I must wait
for the price
I´ll have to pay

One glimpse
of the corner
of the stranger's eyes

And you sneaked
back in
my old friend
self- hate

Will
you
ever
leave?

You make me feel
like a monster
for  years

I did believe you
But you don't
even know me

And you
Don't
own me

I came to you
Over and over

For the pain
That became my air

But for the upcoming year
I promise myself

Never again

So here I am
As I Always do

Breathing the same air
Walking the same steets

You cannot see me
But I never stop hoping
That you can
Feel

In the hour
between sheep and wolf
I wait

with your words
burned  
in my skin  

and my soul
longing
for more

I saw the northern lights
and slept on the beach
to watch how the sun
greeted the morning

I cried at  Güell Park
and wept at Monet´s garden
to handle the beauty
I never see again

I kissed a stranger in Rome
and lid the candles in cathedrals  
I met the beautiful people
and make them my friends

And yet
I´d exchange all of that
for the little wrinkle you had
last time you smiled at me

The real poets
Are capable
bleed through
their verses


The only thing
I' ve ever wanted
was caress your heart
With my simple words

I miss the times,
when you made
me laugh

I miss the times
when you made
my heart beat fast

I miss the times
when you craved
the touch of mine

Those times we
left behind
Please lets figure out
what we are now

Wake me up
when it' s all over

When our distance
doesn't matter

Put your hand
on my head

and wake me up
my darling

when it all ends

I came to you slowly
after you pierced my heart
with your gaze

I came to you slowly
reaching just my fingertips
to ease my fears

I came to you slowly
opening my soul
exposing my flesh

I came to you too slow
after you
already left

I don't forget your face
and I tried hard
over and over again
Do you forget mine?

If you meet me
in my current state
would you recognize me
even with grey hair?

Will you recognize me
On the other side
Will you still feel
how my heart race

I caressed a stranger in the tube
brushed my fingers across his

For a little second desperate I became
to  feel the human´s warmth

I wonder why God gave me this body  
that no one never touches

I don´t care anymore
where the life brings me
as long as you´re alright
content and happy

Sometimes I want to
melt all broken hearts
together
into one piece of unity

Your unrequited lust
sentenced me
for life
in solitude

Will I ever
set my soul
free?

I want to wake up
Fifty years
From now
when time will
be right

But for tonight
let me close my eyes
and put my head
On your chest
To rest for a second

For little moment
That only could
be us

Your eyes make me
pure again

Your touch  removes
all  my scars

Your caress heals
my broken parts

You are
My miracle
That is yet
to happen