Hard
And
Soft

Tense
But
Relaxed

Hurt
Yet
Loved

Cheated on
However
Still loyal

Alive
Still
Dead

This is the repercussions of forgiveness towards
A lover
That wondered off into
Eves garden.

Today, there is a storm in my head that is viscious and threatens to drown me.
Under a moonlit sky, a thousand thousand stinging insects swarm.
Locked inside Pandora's box, the weak cries of hope are fading.
And love is sleeping in the beds of death, refusing to check the time.

The change I had to cross the river Styx has been misplaced, nor could I drink the amnesic gold of the River Lethe.
In limbo, I must think of you obsessively.
Your divine beauty, your quicksilver song, the distance that remained between us.

Let her go.
You're draining the life from her.
Blood red, petals drift to the ground.
Wilting.
Curling.
Finding stillness and turning to monochrome.

Let her go.
Beating.
Slow and lazy.
Beating.
Its barely there.
The world falls to stillness around her.
The inside of a glass tomb.
People will morn, maybe even you.

Let her go.
Your embrace is too strong.
Unforgiving.
You don't want her anyway, let her be free.
Controlling her doesn't fix you.
Controlling her won't make you love you.

Let her go.
She's fading to numbness.
A slow thud.
Survival.
Love?
This isn't love.

**But this is loving you

You say that I’ve changed,
I’m simply not the same.
A stranger that stole
Your little sisters face.
What a disgrace,
To be so misplaced.
But tell me dear siblings,
How would you know?
You never see me.
I have bent over backwards
All for you.
My “loving” family,
I have broken my heart
Again and again
On the cold steel of your eyes.
I have choked on the storm
Of your torrent of lies.
I have cut myself open
And poured my blood all over
the razor whip of your cruel words.
I have cried for you
I have died  inside for you
And when you were jealous,
because I could fly
I let you tear off my wings
And chain me to the ground.
Because I was told your love
Had to be earned
I did everything you asked of me.
I gave you my everything
And then a little more
Only to hear you demand for more.
Your eyes stayed cold
And words cut deeper still
I froze from your gaze
And collapsed from the blood loss
And you were insulted
And as you broke me
You laughed when you snapped me in two
Then left me behind,
As you always do.
You expect me to take the pain
And rise once more
On trembling limbs
To trail on after you
So you can break me some more.
You demand I be there should you have the need
To always be willing to let you watch me bleed.
And yet you claim that It is I,
Who has changed,
That I am simply not the same.
A stranger that stole
Your little sisters face.
And as I lay bleeding
I realized you were leeching
The life from my soul
And I felt the betrayal swallow me whole
I gasp for air,
Running out of breath
From the noose of expectations
You’ve tied round my neck.