I just had a flash,
An image that's come to mind...
of little (me) bek (lb) splashing
knee-deep in puddles,
in the grey shallows of rain clouds
that's me...
always seeking,
searching for something in the gallows;
in the ebb-n-flow of life.

Sure
constantly o'er searching
for who I'm meant to be —
always peering, hoping,
that they'd pick me —

but

then

A ray of light dawns,
Someone peeks behind
the curtain, pulls me
out from the shadows

What I've been dreamin' of?! —

I freeze —
like a deer in sight

And I try to shrink
back in slight.

I discombobulate
self-destruct.

I don't know how to act this part out —

How can I move forward, be lb in the sunlight?

Gently, and lovingly, accepting that I am alright...

In the darkness where my mind resides,
Demons whisper, never quiet, never kind,
They crawl in shadows, feeding on my fears,
Turning whispers into screams no one hears.

Overthinking is a tangled maze,
Thoughts like thorns, sharp and ablaze,
Every turn a deeper void I find,
Each echo louder, pulling at my mind.

Depression dances in the dim lit space,
A heavy weight I cannot trace,
It wraps around me like a cold embrace,
Sinking deeper, leaving no escape.

Demons laugh, they know my pain,
They thrive in the endless rain,
Each drop a memory I can’t erase,
Each tear a battle I can’t face.

But somewhere beyond, a faint light gleams,
A distant hope within my dreams,
Though demons linger, I still try,
For in the darkness, I learn to defy.

I am a Nyctophile.
I love the night, the darkness:
it gives me pleasure,
it gives me comfort,
it gives me peace.

In the night hours
I can hear the soft rustling of the trees,
the trilling of insects,
the gentle pad of the cat,
the bark of the fox,
the scurrying of the hedgehog
as they go about their night-time adventures.

In the night hours
I can see the the stars
glimmering above
and when the moon is risen,
I can bask in her soft, silver glow.

In the night hours
I can smell the cool air
and taste the new-formed dew.

In the night hours
all that is familiar
takes on a new persona
in the shadows.

And what secrets
hide in those shadows?

They do not bring me fear
but curiosity …

In the quiet of the night,
my thoughts are mine,
uninterrupted and unencumbered
by the noises of the day;
the clamour of voices,
the roar of the traffic,
the cacophony of daily life.

I love the night, the darkness,
it gives me pleasure,
it gives me comfort,
it gives me peace.

© 2025

Shadows waltzing across my ceiling never seem to fear the future.
They come when called, enthusiastically enthralled.
They kiss and trail
Every night without fail

My frail body lays awake
I lie and ache
Fear a constant, leering foe.
I yearn to be the soft, sweet 6 year old.
She was scared and alone
But she had been safe.

The shadows have no worldly fears
Their care is only the forever dance of night
When they intertwine
Together
Instil fear into the hearts of young
And bring hope to the future generation

In shadows they lurk, with deceit as their guide,
Claiming truths not their own, where their morals have died.
A hollow pursuit, in the depths of the night,
Seeking light from others, to claim as their right.

But truth is a flame that burns from within,
Not a trophy to steal, nor a prize to win.
It's the essence of being, the core of our soul,
Not a void to be filled, nor a gap to control.

So let's hold our truth, with compassion and grace,
And walk our own paths, at our own steady pace.
For the truth that we live, is the light that we give,
In a world of shadows, it's how we truly live.

In the shadows, I’m trapped and alone,
A twisted world, my heart’s turned to stone.
He watches my every move with a grin,
But I’ll fight back, I won’t give in.
His whispers haunt me in the dark,
I feel his touch, his evil mark.
But I wait for the moon to light the way,
The eclipse will come, I’ll escape today.
Eclipse in the sky, the dark fades away,
A spark of light to guide my way.
Under the moon, my magic will rise,
And when the sun fades, I’ll claim my prize.
The clock ticks down, the moment nears,
The eclipse will end my fears.
In the silence, I hear his breath,
But I’ll rise above, even through death.
I close my eyes and feel the heat,
The power within me, it’s bittersweet.
The chains are cold, but my heart beats strong,
I’ll hold on tight, I’ll prove him wrong.
Eclipse in the sky, the dark fades away,
A spark of light to guide my way.
Under the moon, my magic will rise,
And when the sun fades, I’ll claim my prize.
His laughter echoes, but I won’t break,
I know the eclipse is mine to take.
The stars align, my power grows,
And in that moment, my spirit glows.
I feel the change, the magic stirs,
The eclipse will come, my mind it blurs.
I’ll break these chains, I’ll break his hold,
For in the light, my story’s told.
The shadows close in, but I won’t fall,
I’ll rise above, I’ll stand tall.
With every heartbeat, I feel the spark,
The eclipse will come, and I’ll leave the dark.
Stars collide, the night turns bright,
The eclipse is here, I feel the light.
My power calls, the chains unwind,
And in the light, I leave the dark behind.
The door is open, I see the sky,
No more whispers, no more lies.
The chains fall down, I take a breath,
I’m free at last, no more death.
He screams my name, but it’s too late,
I’m gone now, sealed by fate.
The eclipse has come, the world’s anew,
I’ll rise from here, and start anew.
The moon is fading, the sun will rise,
I’ll walk into the light, no more disguise.
The world is mine, the battle won,
And in the light, my freedom’s just begun.
Eclipse in the sky, the dark fades away,
A spark of light to guide my way.
Under the moon, my magic will rise,
And when the sun fades, I’ll claim my prize.

It took forever for the hot water to get up to my room 
Every hotel I get a room in the hot water takes forever to get to me
I'm not kidding 
And I'm on like the 3rd floor, not the 12th or the 32nd
The hotels I stay in don't have 12 stories and definitely don't have 32

But the view was ok
The roof of the lobby had a lot of things going on
Like big fans and motors and pipes
And water in big puddles
All the hotels I stay in have a lot of water in big puddles
They really do

But the girl at the check-in counter really knew what she was doing
She checked me in real quick 
And she was friendly
Most check-in girls are not friendly at all
They act like you're a inconvenience to their job
Which is checking people in to the hotel
Check-in guys too

But when they're nice it makes everything seem not so shady 
I hate it when people treat you like you're standing in a shadow
like you're invisible
It makes me feel like they can't see me
It really gets annoying after a while
Like all they see is a big fan and a lot of water in a big puddle

It really does