No, I don't know
What love is
At all.
I am wondering
And my soul
Is about to fall
What is love
Why is love
And why are we all?
Are these simply questions of a depressed mind?
Maybe.
But also of one that is trying to find
Reasons
To live and to feel and to love.
Again.
More
And more honestly than ever.
Searching is my current state.
It's rather stuck, but does vibrate
Uncomfortably under my ribs
Where the deepest of feelings should be
Instead I am mostly inhibiting my head
But I want to learn to change that
My body needs more of my attention
I need to connect
To reconnect I guess.
I noticed there is a big gap
Between my soul, my head, my body..
It is as if I am existing in parts.
Maybe it's true cause energy is divided
Maybe.
I don't really know much
My focus recently has been very shallow
I guess I lost other people's touch
The human connections with fellows
They matter. Society matters.
This is where love meets me
But rarely.
I did experience hate though
In groups.
No body came to save me
But that's over, isn't it?
Or do I still have to learn to trust?
Am I still so influenced by it?
That I'd rather deny myself
Than to accept
That someone might not like
Sth about me instead.
Why is it so bad?
How to get rid of this weird energy.
How to find a way to be finally free.
I am not even begging for materialistic freedom.
I just want to be able to decide
How my life is gonna be
Where I am gonna be
And in each and every moment
What is actually right for me?
I know I overstepped some boundaries
And I will overstep even more
There are boundaries I overstep unwillingly
And there's others that I knowingly ignore.
A human mind reflects...
