I miss the way,
Your arms,
Wrapped around me,
When our fingers laced,
And I could tell,
You were nervous,
By the way,
Our hands started,
To stick together,
I miss your heartbeat,
Accelerating,
Every beat,
Pressed into my skin,
Those were,
The only moments
I ever felt safe.

We are laying in bed with our legs intertwined, and I can't think of anything besides how lucky I am to have you here at my side.

I want you to know that my heart is yours. You have me hooked. And I never stop thinking about you. And I’m falling in love with you but I’m trying so hard not to. I’m afraid to let go because in one way or another, even if you catch me, history says I’ll sooner or later be dropped from your arms, off a ledge.
And my wings aren’t repaired yet I’m not ready to fly.
And I wish I could tell you all of this.
(I hope you don’t think me saying it’s okay is a lie)
But I’m so broken that the connection between my heart and my mouth was severed by the shards.
So instead I support you in what you want and wish that you could read my mind and know that even though it’s okay, it hurts. I wish you knew that in order for me to learn to trust you enough to stop putting up walls, you need to be persistent. I want you to want me but not out of obligation.
I will always leave the door open.
I hope you don’t feel inclined to use it.

Head over heels
On solid ground
I’d like to say you’ve got me, now.


Please keep me safe and sound.

She wanted to climb inside her ribcage                                                                                            
Make a home in these bones
For these for walls
rattled so violently
In a way that never felt
Like home.  
  
He wanted to be swaddled in love
Because she didn’t love him enough
And maybe if the blankets weren’t so tight  
He could be freed, finally, a dove
But he was always too scared
To take flight.

It seems like yesterday
That we all have a common item
All within our hands
That can give me more
My bread and water
Can turn to money in abundance
In which I prefer
To sell it all

So he says,

"So come buy my product
By selling yours
I deny all disruptions
That would claim
That they're fake

I promise not to scam you
As long as you give me
Your personal info
And your stock
But if you block me
I will give your computer
A nasty virus
As a ransom"

And I said "no,
I have an antivirus
In which I shall combat
Your scam in which
You try to take away
My life from me."

They think I am cold,
And distant,
Some would say aloof.
I glare at everyone I see,
Ignore anyone who talks,
Shut out my friends and family.

I retreat into myself,
Into my room,
Into whatever dark corner I can find
Because the pain of facing them,
Enduring another heartbreak,
It's just too much to bear.

I've tried to let people in,
Let them see my warmer side,
Show them who I truly am.
All they do is tear a **** in my heart,
And leave me to bleed,
To die with only myself as company.

So I am cold.
I am distant.
I am aloof.
I glare at everyone.
I talk to no one.
I shut out my friends and family.
But only to protect myself
From all the pain they will cause,
And all the lies they will tell.
I protect myself from the world,
And they protect themselves from me.

You once told me that if you were to end your life, you'd pour chemicals on your car,
On yourself,
And maybe take a couple sips while your at it.

You said you would light that **** on fire and watch the world burn around you.
And I know that if you told that to our society, they would laugh and just say,

"Don't forget to put on your seatbelt."