Following me
Chilling my bones
Sending ripples through my muscles
Fear slowly injected into my veins

Running
Shouting
But none show
None are there
Only you

Panting
Looking back
Only to see you are lost
In a forest so dark and unknown
Stealing the light
Not even doing so much
As to put up a fight

Feather falls
Bird unseen
Cries into the void
Echos returning
Haunting

Fragile soul
Yet ever so bold
Stronger as it grows old
Scrape away the mold
To reveal the marvel within

But this mold
Cracked and chipped
Will it ever break of its prison?
Will it ever glimpse a future
Beyond this childhood?

Laughter
Cries
Wailing from the depths of the heart
Only one of two emerges
Taking the child in
Arguments burst
Continue
For years...

Finally
Break
Separate
Blame
It overwhelms

Temporary stability
Then the world quakes
Your life shakes
Then all is quiet
Only for a little while

Yelling, shouting,
Whilst I am hiding
Trying so hard to escape it
But you're too caught up
In your terror and rage
That you don't think of me
Hiding in the dark
Waiting for the sweet
Yet haunting
Sound of silence...

- Jay M
April 17th, 2019

tires on the pavement
just rolling
sunglasses and smiles

we don't know where we're going

we pay it no mind
we're just rolling
windows down
hair tangled

no money to get lunch
adventure fills our stomachs
we don't mind
we're rolling

maybe we're running

just rolling
sun on our skin
fear buried, lodged in our throats

we don't know how much longer we can do this

but it doesn't matter
we're rolling
and if we never stop, so be it
this summer will be eternal
if it must

all that matters
is we keep rolling

Today your memory haunts me
As I ran the torture you brought me came flooding back
I ran faster
Hoping that running would somehow would temporarily erase that night
You screamed
I cried
For the first time your abuse turned physical
I ran faster
I couldn't breathe
You took my oxygen
I ran faster
If only I ran that night
Maybe then your memories wouldn't always make me want
to run faster

Between the two of you I was equally divided.
In comes year two and now It’s mostly one sided.
Between the two of you I sat and sobbed unheard.
Your choices after truly dragged you through the dirt.
Brown like that fan you hit implies my choice of words.
So now you upgraded,
And all the past faded.
Like all the parts of you I liked, they're simply outdated.
No more time for family.
You’re stuck running and angry,
You chose to go with the flow, and now the tides changing.

i drink coffee
before bed
because i want to dream of running a marathon
far far far far away from you.