It wasn't Really thought through
That momEnt changed
Altogether eVer feeling
Cascaded, rEations  of
What was kNown, regret
Was stained,naGging within,
It wasn't revengE it was a foolish moment, now regret.

Hello, are you there?
I'm waiting for you here,
I found a gem and it was rare,
Knowing it's you who really care.

My life is a waste,
It's worst than a nest,
When I found you I'm at rest,
Can I give my trust, for you to 'mess'?

I didn't see your mysterious, where you hid it
So you came here to me with your theatrics
And played the most affectionate dramas
Indeed i fell, like a pack of cards, oblivious me- fell graciously

I have seen your mysterious, where it is hidden
So the next time you come with your enchanting acts
And roll my frail heart into a toy ball to be flung at your discretion
I'd assume your act, having mastered it, and play you too
OUI
Play you like you once played me
And indeed you'd fall, you'd fall like a pack of cards, to your own game, unpleasantly.

We passed each other a day or two ago.
I remembered the day we met.
I remember our first date.When I gave you that sweater what you wrapped yourself in.
I remember the day of our first kiss.
I remember the name of your puppy.
I remember the days we spent inside my apartment watching movies.
I remember the first time we made love.
I remember the day you broke my heart in that e-mail.
It said, "Hey Jathan, I just wanted to be quite frank with you. I don't think I can do this anymore".
I replied back, "What about our memories?"
You then went on to say, "**** the memories". Then you decided to block me.
I went on to never have a great relationship like the one we had.
I still think about you and your puppy.
I remember that day I saw you.
You came up to me.
I remember my words perfectly.
I said,"*******".
I left you, I never turned around.

Mind full of confusion
Color blind delusions
Am I wrong? Am I right?
Is this even worth the fight?

I don't know which way is up
I'm descending into hell
You think you own me but your wrong
You can try, but you will fail

You project self hatred
On anyone you can
Never took responsibility
And you call yourself a man?

You think you're God twisting reality
Manipulating all my memories
Yet you believe that you're the victim
You take what's right and make it wrong

I've caught on to your tricks
I've mastered all your little games
I'm much stronger than you now
You're the only one to blame

I'm coming to take back what's mine
Reclaim my thoughts and my mind
My soul will not be caged
You will never control me

I am not afraid of you anymore
Never again will I live in fear
You are dead to me now
And I hope that's very clear

I wonder if you threw away
That giant Mickey Mouse doll I bought you in Times Square,
Or the art I made for you-
That little wooden chair that I burned designs into, describing you
As a goddess.
I wonder if you sifted through your colorful room
And exorcised my presence, gathered every piece of jewelry and thoughtful little gift
I ever gave you.
I wonder if you tore up my poems.
But the thing is
If you did, it means that I mean something
And if you didn't
It means that I mean something.
If you erased me, I know that, just like you will never find and destroy EVERY gift I gave you over 3 years
You will never erase me from your soul.
And if you didn't, I know that part of you can't let go
Of being loved so deeply and so purely.
I planned for this, my lost love.
I planned for years.
I never really thought you'd stay.
I only thought to make myself
Unforgettable
And
I know I did.