you came to me at 9 pm
with a heartbreak that driving you numb
turn a elegant independent woman that I know
into a classy ***** that drunk by her love for him

I left a bruise on your cheek
to bring you back to the reality

remember how did he dump you
he doesn't deserve your tears

held your head high Princess, it's almost New Year
don't let your sadness slip down your crown
have a break, take your time
let's have our afternoon tea and have some chit chat
think about how to make you worth to keep

don't look for love
love will find you eventually

and when the right person came, you both deserve for the best

all my life
i have known turmoil
i have known pain
i have experienced betrayal
at the hands of those
who were meant to love me
to care for me

all my life
i have known worry
i have known fear
my anxiety is the devil on my back
crushing me with the weight of a thousand stones
stones that are my thoughts
a never ending monologue in my head
"you are nothing"
"you are not loved"
"you are not enough"

all my life
i have been alone
i have been afraid
i have fallen prey to hands and hearts
that only aimed to tear apart my own
i have been running from anyone and everyone
who tried to get past my walls
to know me

but now there is you
you sooth the turmoil
you relieve the pain
you have erased the betrayal from my memories
and care for me above yourself

but now there is you
you allay my worry
you alleviate my fear
you fight the devil on my back
and pull him off of me
you share my burden
and ease the weight of my thoughts
you give me a new monologue
"you are everything to me"
"you are the love of my life"
"you are more than I ever could have asked for
more than I thought to dream of"

but now there is you
i am not alone
i am not afraid
the only hands and heart i am in are yours
and they hold me with reverence
you don't tear me apart
you piece me together

Hanna to me is the  BEGINNING of an evolution,
She finds me the END(of her fervent seeking for long)
Many worlds (we knew) existed between us until then,
Willingly crunch to make a perfect ONE from the debris.

It’s silly for me to trade
My worth for something made
Up just for a keepsake…

A keepsake paper trade route I adjourned
To pacify a need I had begun to forlorn.
Fashioned by the angst of my discretion.

Lo and behold! Here I stand my heart I made open
Know this, I never put up nor faltered a thought
Then again true colors sprung up revealed a dismay.

What I had longed for, I quivered…
Apparent of what I foreclosed…
For I will not resolve to disclose any matter.

Should I have to, I am welcome.
I am a lion, that’s what I am.
Yes, I may have faltered but never will I am.

I can only take the blame for the actions I had begun
And the hurt, I take it, from which had sprung.
But never will I lift a finger, once I know I am betrayed.

For I know the worth of a friend,
I was blinded by my self-dismay.
Settle your thoughts, my dear, for such resolution;

For I have placed God to be my absolution.
Distance plays disregard to known other virtue.
See me as I am and you’ll see me I’m true.

somewhere
on unending
back roads of Nebraska
I left behind the ghost of my
cancer

Distance wedged between us
but we buried it down inside.
My heart questioned every move
but my thoughts were quickly denied.

Although things seemed to take a turn,
my hopes did not seem to heighten.
You brought up one thing but meant another
and my stomach surely tightened.

You spoke what you have not been able to,
giving breath to every sharp word.
Each one penetrated my goose-bumped skin
but left a sensation unheard.

To each word you spoke I defended myself
even when I knew I was wrong.
As time passed by and the cloud of anger rose
I realized your intentions all along.

My love, you are a special breed,
the one I much adore.
You helped me see through all the haze
and I could not love you more.