she knows he hates her
she can feel the resentment from a mile away non-stop thinking about him turns into nightmares waking her up everyday at 3am she can't go back to sleep her mistakes haunt her every night and she hates herself for it, and can't seem to forgive herself
jason i'm sorry.
I waited in vain for your validation
In hopes that maybe you’d see me The way I saw you, beloved Sadly, you viewed me like thin air While I was mesmerized by your cappuccino skin And the way your hair danced in the wind You couldn’t give a **** about me I was just one of many who looked your way Even as I would ignore you in plain sight I would beg for your attention in my head But you only threw crumbs at me Like I was some lost street pigeon Keep your linty crumbs for someone else The hell you think you are? I am deserving of so much riches Yet I feel like some vagabond
The two ol' pals are facing each other.
He passes a glass of poison to his dear guest, leaning near the front door, slightly opened; and he's learning the reason— why he's standing there, about to storm out of the stone-cold apartment— 'bout to burst in tears shedding the vivid droplets that shouldn't be belonging to a mere ghost. Yet he's fleeting, escaping the scene still, while the owner of the kitchenette is putting back the bottle to where it belonged; and he's gone, present no longer. The drink on the rock—left on the shelf— is evaporating, following the vaporized guest, leaving the scent of faint alcohol that lulls the other friend to regretful sleep.
(C) Copyright: Saul Bae (Sungmoo Bae)
Last Revised: 21th of December, 2020.
In other words; you were forced down my throat and now I can't breathe without you.
You're just another ******* hidden under the name of God.
You're soon to be 40 I'm nowhere near 30 I hate you so much now, I only wish you bad I hope you'll die soon, wasn't your plan to be closer to God? All your ******* stupid beliefs broke us apart. And I feel a LOSER falling in your trap of love. I hope you'll read this and understand that you shouldn't exist A mistake you were always, an angry ******* beast.
So upset with my ex. Tired of all the things I had to go through for him. I'm tired of thinking about him.
You think I really hate you
Know I ******* should But I do not think I ever will Any girl in my place would In head screams echo off the walls My soul rotting, begging to heal Organs a meager cushion for substances Heart beats but doesn't want to feel Raindrops pound, I miss your kiss And I swear painful truth is all I see Used to write my adoration for you It is clear you are unworthy Picking at emotional scabs Left by resentful carving knives I wonder between snaps of anger If this is how you wanted us to live our lives
I wish you would have thought things through
This shore is where we walked
between the whistling sands of the dunes The cry of seabirds and the thunder of the sea as it broke its waves upon our feet. I thought of you as I walked the spray filling my eyes like salty tears. and I know my days will turn past deaths shadows and time will freeze the mountains before you hear these sounds again with me.
Resenting the light,
from the Olympian, that warms my wool. It cowards behind holly, that grows in the pine grove. Retreats to shaded cold, below timber arms. It is disgusted to the sight, of white, yellow and orange. Prefers the blue of night. As it fades, flows and steeps. It becomes clear, pillaged of its white veneer. Though, it carries forward, like a grudge that won’t melt away. Or is it more like love, ever changing. Or even as stubborn, as a cold bedded love. That brings life to you, at least once a year. But, in the end it recedes. Into the wood, from under the holly. Then waits, until you’ve almost forgotten.
Don't you dare try to convince me that
You taught me how to fly when You were the one who pushed me Over the edge. Before you, I was afraid of heights and Even then I didn't stop falling after I realized you would never be there to catch me.
I might have hit the ground, but I got up again.
Horror binds my body in place
I'm struck by the height of your ignorance Facing the hateful comments from a race That uses religion as it's weapon. Help me cleanse myself of this Of evil thoughts of destroying them too For I will not take their place. I wont become you. I wont spend sleepless nights venting my frustrations on the innocent Poisoning my ideals and my future With fools who have no aspiration i wont bow down to your demands And i wont speak to you either For your brain doesn't have the capacity to understand this: society is evil. Keep my body as an example Of a girl who dared to try, Who stood up for true morals, And fought for what was right.