You are not him
All along deep within I knew the rhythm The expectation was grim You weren't the man Where a grand love began You are he who ran And left me with no plan You ain't the one To render my solitude done My hopes for your love gone This whole idea was a con You are him turning me dim You are that man I was your fan You are he who made me flee You are my captor but I'm a be FREE!
Until I met you, I had no idea that someone like you existed
My hopes had all dashed away and I grew jaded It felt as if I were the only *** without a lid And so I sat on the stove top all alone with nothing but emptiness Entering my stratosphere and as I watched Other pots with their lids be conjoined A rage filled with blistering pain filled my insides To lay here beside you I would’ve never imagined Finding home within your arms and heart Never did I believe I was worthy of such a love Yet you fill me up every day and nourish A heart that was so vastly hungry for affection Not sure what would ever happen If you left this poor soul behind I waited too long to find you Too many winters afflicting my soul Your warmth my only salvation
I wrote this imagining a special man writing these words to me. I could only hope I'd get so lucky!
I hate your ****** face
Those squinty eyes, them closed lips Your expression so emotionless Flat and stagnant is what it drips Those masculine eyebrows, your expansive hair That skin void of blemishes and scars Complexion of espresso dancing with milk Leaving the beholder seeing stars Empty of smiles and feelings Your visage the definition of dry I go seeking for some semblance of life Through your dark mysterious eyes So I hate your ****** face For it is the one that leaves me breathless Casting the root on my heart Rendering me into a state of restless
These emotions are thin like loose leaf
Yet visible with the ink and stains of my sorrows Smears, fingerprints representing my scars Scrunched up, wrinkled and harrowed Feeling a rip here and a tear there Endless amounts of tape can't hold them in place One split away from becoming dull confetti Too fragile to withstand a heavy duty case Shredded is life for these delicate woes The wind setting their mark to blow Away these particles to the unknown Landing scattered on the Earth to sow
I love you yet I have to let go
Never granted me the chance to get close I've been running tirelessly in circles Waiting for you to love me back You cast a powerful spell on me Three and a half years long Yet you've barely uttered a vowel Your eyes put the root on my weak heart So I ran inside this hamster wheel In hopes you would set me free Time is up and need to break out No more of this dizzying runaround
Walking through the door at night
Awaits a quiet that I've grown tired of Some days I hope for it to move out Yet it sits in darkness awaiting my arrival As I settle in from a long day at work Candles are lit to keep me company Pull up a chair to my window Watch scenarios play out before my eyes These are the sneak previews of what is to come Life becoming lonelier as I approach golden years A painful silence will become my roommate Such a cruelty sentenced to us with lonely hearts
A lonely woman stands in the distance
As the apple of her eye is perusing the apples That sit on display outside the market She watches her apple grab a basket This woman waits in the cold February breezes To catch her forbidden fruit emerge When said apple steps outside Her heart pulls her like a toddler to follow As her eyes focus on her beloved subject Her feet begin to pace in slow motion The subject so far away now like in a tunnel Her mind interjects with words that hurt Leave that apple hanging on the tree Along with its happy family Pick not what isn't yours and never was Return to your own empty branches Where you shall hang alone