im so sorry
but I just
can't come to
my senses
to not tell
someone goodnight
to someone i love
because every night
my mom tells me goodnight
and I love her very much

The only time I write is
when
  your words are like knives that leave scars.
when
  your words trap me behind metal bars.
when
  your words are like darkness that shrouds my view of the stars.

But as your words cloud my emotions,
I slowly lose my reason to write.
I thought what we had was forever.
Turns out everybody else was right.

So many reasons why, not enough time

I. i tried
rolling around
your name
in my mouth
but quickly
spit it out
because the taste
reminded me of
something like
bitter coffee and
regret

II. last year
around this time
i would have
gladly given you
my heart
on a cutting board
screaming at you
arms wide open
to do with it
what you will
but my
how the earth
has made its way
around the sun
so can you
just imagine
the distance
that i’ve come

III. slowly
you’ve become
something of a
lone star in a
vast constellation
to me
an empty idea
something that
died thousands
of years ago

I wish I had
Nine
Reasons to give
As to why
You
Capture my gaze
Yet I'm missing
One
Reason to live
So why would
You
Lengthen my days

Okay here goes.

A lot of people ask why I put my pen to the page
Put my heart into words that don't inspire or engage
Well I write because I know I haven't had the perfect life
And I know others out there can attest to that tonight
But to get to the point I picked up my pen
I was the tender young age of 3 years plus 10
I had a crush on a girl, and it was killing me inside
I couldn't take it anymore, my feelings I could no longer hide
I finally got my nerve, and told her how I felt
I didn't know the rough hand I'd be dealt.
I got teased relentlessly, with no qualms on the matter
my heart was ripped out, against the floor I felt it splatter,
ever since I've found it hard to open up,
except through these words I've found solace and as such
I dedicated my pen to those kids that ever got picked on or hurt
NeroameeAlucard did it, you can drag your name from the dirt

I'm dancing in the rain jumping in  puddles
Leaving all my pain behind
Breathing in the sunshine watching the clouds roll by
The seasons pass
The reasons pass too
Tears will dry
The smiles will come and go
Breathe in today breathe out today
Forgetting about tomorrow
I'm dancing in the rain jumping in puddles
Leaving all my pain behind
The sun will rise again tomorrow
Breathing in all of today breathing out all of yesterday
The wounds will heal
the pain will fade
That smile will grow brighter
Dancing in the rain jumping in puddles
Leaving the pain behind
Breathing in all of today
Breathing out all of yesterday