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                              MOTHERS
                      ­           LOVE
                          

                              ­                       DAD
                                                     LOVE
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BUT THERE  N O N E  T H E  L E S S

like a flowing river

THAT LEADS TO THE SEA

         TO THE ANCESTORS

                   TO THE  S O U L

                            OF A MAN

Annie darling,

We may not be able to build the space ship you wanted
It's not that you weren't a good girl,
nor was it because you didn't pass the soccer trials

We may not also get you the hairpin you wanted,
the one encrusted in silver,
lined with satin
and chiseled by the finest sculptor

Once again, it wasn't because you forgot your homework
nor was it because you yelled at me


Annie darling,
We love you.

Just maybe not today.

It seems hard

But not concequential

To understand but still neglect the inner meaning

I've been meaning to look at you and understand a man

Mixed signals and arguments

Sacrasm and bombardments

Is all it gets

And I'm sure we have our differences

But I'm tired of it

Their is a void in myself

Where the desolate roam

And more seem to go

Underhanded it may seem but it seems to me

That this won't be fixed

I feel like it's the only way we communicate

My opinions spark the outrages

Now this feeling I'm gauging

Seems Amiss

There is rouble afoot

And the footstep I can't follow

Won't follow

Seems out of place

I guess even a parent is a person

And it's not the worst version

Of revaluations

Can't we relate the more in realize it's a debate

I'm trying

But im done trying

Let it repeat

Saturday is, it doesn't matter day,
I don't care to answer the phone
my day to get things done as so

To play in the sun, while living fun,
reliving youth with my child
being a dad as best I can

This day, I forget the world at large,
kicking back to whatever thrills me
letting go of the shackles that restrain

I let go of all my aches and sorrows.
hold on to the little arms, gifted by God
making it his day to be who he is

So I say to Saturday, my doesn't matter day
I am blessed to have you here
But, here's to the others in the week

I'm treating you just as the same!!

Copyright © J.L.Gonzalez 2015

Never forget to say
A heartiest thanks
To the Peoples
Who led us
Whatever we're.
Being the Friend at bad times
Being the Philosopher at lost moments
Being the Guide to the journey of unknown.
My heart felt honor,respect to all of You
Who're liberal enough to teach me.
The priceless lesson's of Life.
Not possible to repay
Just a l'll tribute to the great souls. - 05.09.2014

Surely I have no idea about jealousy
until I see her having a lovely dinner
next to my table with her mother

little
nugget, wide-eyed,
hairless, with red-faced wails;
you just ate - why are we awake
tonight?

Hit me again.*
You say it's a punishment.
You told me it's a learning process.
You act like it's the way to learn;
That you've done wrong.
So if I hit you back this time,
Will you realise what you've done?

Well I've gone and done it
I've gone and been true to myself
stood up for what I believe
and said so out loud
to the one most important to me
consequences be ******.

I'm sorry you could not do the same
afraid of what the fallout might be
yet in seeing your struggles
I knew what I could not be
and it made me stronger.

You made me stronger
in your choice to never
stamp your weaknesses upon me
in encouraging my choices
and questioning my doubts
and in showing me
that I had your respect.

Thank you Momma.
I love you and miss you.