if you're not sorry, i'm not sorry.
let's get drunk. let's get ****** up. let's forget each other's names and call each other charles and maude for no good reason.
let's go swimming in the river and freeze our ***** off.

this world, this world, this world. it's too big for us and we love disappearing in it.
if you're not sorry, i'm not sorry.
we'll write a song and these will be the only words.
we'll sing it sweet and out of tune around a campfire and watch our friends kiss the wrong people.

i wanna die smiling. i don't care when. i just wanna.
promise me you won't be around when i get boring.
promise me we won't even talk about it when the time comes for us to leave each other.
one of us will wake up and we'll just feel it. we'll just know.

that's how i want this to go.
a song with only a chorus. no bridge, no fade out, just a steady tune that doesn't get tired.

keep driving.
i wanna know what the air smells like in nevada. i wanna see it all.
if you're not sorry, i'm not sorry.
let's stop talking. keep this song on, it's my favorite.

feelings, they still linger
i can hug her, hold her, or come over
and you, b... you living so far away
it's a way i fed my hunger.

then, i had no clue but now i knew
maybe i fell in love with her because
she reminded me so much of you

in littlest ways i could notice
it's such a mess but i think I'm being honest.
the time she left, you caught me
but i was too caught up in the moment i didn't noticed.
...i missed you
and she was the closest thing to you
that i ever knew

now that you told me that you missed me too
that i've been in your mind nonstop, is that true?
because now i just don't know what to do.

Feelings they still linger
You miss me, i miss you, i miss us
but what can we do, you're living far away.
if only you could be here in a snap of a finger
my feelings for you came rushing in
they never left, they still linger.

Look who came running back
What am I just some fool
You think I just want you?
After all, you did
After all, you said
Oh wait that's right
You said nothing
I was the one chasing you
I really tried and fought for you
I lost and you left
And girl I'm sorry I don't do second best

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

All warm and tucked in bed
That's when my phone lit up
Yeah I got a text
Saying how much you miss me
You wish that you were with me
My eyes just rolled
Can I slam my head against the wall
Because I thought I told you
I don't do second best
Maybe I didn't so I'll send that back in a text I guess

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

Excuse me
while I go find someone else
Someone better
Because I know
I deserve better
I can do better
Plenty more fish in the sea
That want to get with me
Yeah just wait, you'll see
Don't blame me
For all your mistakes
That you went and made
You could have had it all
But you chose somebody else
You placed me back on that lonely shelf
And now I've learnt
to live without you
You came running back
Because you miss me
Chick you were the one
Who completely ditched me

What do you mean
You want a relationship now?
Weren't you the one
who turned me down?
I'm sorry girl
all I wanna do
Is **** around
You messed with my head
So I'll mess around
with every other girl instead
Oh you really want me now
Sorry girl gonna have to let you down
Because all I wanna do
Is **** around (**** around)

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's looking out the window
A tear rolls down her cheek
She can't believe
what she had  just seen
The way he up and left
Slamming the door as he went
She called me on the phone
I said hello
There was a vulnerability
In her voice,
it was a conversation
In which I had no choice
And so I rocked up at your house
You opened the door
And that is when I saw

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

I sat you down on the couch
And looked into your eyes
There was a fire raging inside
But you didn't show it
Instead, you were breaking down
So low upon the ground
Tell me what happened now?
That's when you looked away from me

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up,
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

She was staring at the ground
And I was running through scenarios in my mind
That's when you turned to me and said
He's met another girl
I saw him with her the other night
I thought I could forgive him
He said he'd make it right
Am I really that unlovable
Am I just not enough
Is that why he left me like this
Maybe I deserved this

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

You're always so quick,
To blame yourself
The blame is not yours
The blame lies with him
He obviously couldn't
See the perfect girl
Standing in front of him
You're loyal,
You never break the trust
That's why your heart
Has taken the fall
It's not weakness
It's a beautiful thing
It just means
You deserve better than him

The pain was really aching
Inside your heart was breaking
I had to grab your hands
To stop them from shaking

It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll hold you in these arms
As long as you need
It's okay girl
Let your mascara run
I'll clean you up
When you're done,
So let your mascara run

©2017 Written By Benji James

Since when did life become this hard?
When did this battle start?
It felt like I had come so far,
When did this hurt become a scar?

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

I can hear echoes in my head,
Screams from the darkness underneath my bed.
I'm trapped in chains, caged in my brain.
A fire of rage, a storm of rain.
A soul to claim, can't escape.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

This river of blood,
is like a raging flood,
tearing apart the arteries,
In my heart.
All this pain, is like a train,
crashing through my veins.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

The suffering, is suffocating my soul
I'm shaking, breaking
Think this is the breakdown,
They were talking about.
And now I can't get out,
Of this room full of doubt.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

©2017 Written By Benji James