When did I get so cynical?
Was it when promises were broken?
Did it happen once you left?
When you left my wounds open?
Was it when you left me bereft?

Was it when I saw what people did?
Did it happen after noticing your vie?
When you made that dishonest bid?
Was it when all you did was belie?

Was it when plans were changed?
Did it happen when I was manipulated?
When you made me feel so estranged?
Was it when I was left debilitated?

When did I get so cynical?
Was it when I left promises broken?
Did it happen once I left?
When I saw your wounds open?
Was it when my wake left you bereft?

Was it when I saw what I did?
Did it happen after noticing my vie?
When I made those dishonest bids?
Was it when all I did was belie?

Was it when I made plans change?
Did it happen once I manipulated?
When I made people feel estranged?
Was it when I made you debilitated?
When did I get so cynical?

They said it would hurt less,
They said life would kick-start again,
But who knew what lay deep within this fool's heart?
May she be happy, he wished.
May she love, live and laugh, he wished.
But who wished for him?
The memories within him were too deep to be scraped off.
He was just left with the memories buried deep within him.
They said he would recover.
They said he would forget those times,
But forgot about the hurt his heart was filled with.
They said he would learn to love again,
They said he would learn to trust again,
But they forgot, once bitten, twice shied.
He was there, just there, like a puppet, and all that remains within him are memories.

Confusion clouds my mind
You're perfect and you love me
Why can't I love you?
I don't know who else to be

My heart yearns for the one
That knows without knowing
This boy that was a man even in youth
The ache in my heart still growing

I miss him, and I've tried to fill the hole
That was left when I pushed him away
But you aren't him, I can't love you the same
So I hold back everything I feel everyday

He said what I needed to hear
In his faults I find perfection
And I just can't let him go
But these lies are becoming an infection

I love him, the way I can't love you
I lie in hopes my heart will change
But I know I don't really want to change
Everything in my life I must rearrange

I wait and ponder why my heart is gone
My heart has not been mine for years now
But I finally feel the empty place there
When he's not in my life somehow

I made a promise to you
I shan't break it, but in the end
When my vow has been fulfilled
I am going to have to make a mend

Because that will be the end
Of the us of you and I
I will hold out for the one I love
And I'll never again say good-bye

I live in the dark
You tell me it’s better this way
Don’t have any dreams, they’ll only get crushed
I am scared of the outside world
The only reason why
Because you tell me to fear it

I’m like a puppet on a string
You’re in control of me
You tell me to move, I move
You tell me to sing, I sing
Because I have nothing to lose
But I want to cut these ties that bind us
But I don’t know how to live without you
I will spread my wings and fly
Because I will survive

You tell me don’t go
It’s dangerous out there alone
I don’t know how to be by myself
I’ll only get hurt if I leave
Won’t let you lie to me
I will not let these chains **** me

I’m like a puppet on a string
You’re in control of me
You tell me to move, I move
You tell me to sing, I sing
Because I have nothing to lose
But I want to cut these ties that bind us
But I don’t know how to live without you
I will spread my wings and fly
Because I will survive

Wish that I could undo
All those bad choices
All of those days spent with you
Wishing that I could be free
But not letting myself be happy
For fear of what would happen to you
But now I see, you manipulate me
Into believing I’m at fault
That won’ t happen anymore

I was like a puppet on a string
You were in control of me
You told me to move, I moved
You told me to sing, I sang
Because I had nothing to lose
But I cut those ties that bind us
I  know how to live without you now
I have spread my wings and flew
I will survive