you and i
will always be
on opposite sides
of
the moon.

where are you?

not gone,
you promised.

not answering.

where are you?

i need you.

where are you?

im sorry,
i was gone.

where are you?

please respond
i am scared
i am terrified
i need you

where are you?
not gone.

My happiness lies within you
The smile upon your face
The deep laughter emitting
The way your eyes shine with joy when least expected
Even when consumed by sadness
That comforting smile never strays
Never fades
Never disappears
Always left as a reminder
That the strongest are the most broken

My pride lies within you
Your willingness to accept what life throws
Your contagious confidence
Your ability to be brave
In place of those that are not
To you
Your reflection reveals nothing but a broken shard
But all I see
Is a kind soul
Temporarily held down by fate

My trust lies within you
The words spoken from your mouth
Are never in question
Never doubted
A secret told
Is a secret kept
In constant aim for what is good
Not straying from beliefs
Proof that doing what’s right
Isn’t always doing what’s best

My tears lie within you
An endless stream
Locked away
Fought back by your warm embrace
A rare light in a dark world
A sensation that used to bring nothing but joy
Now brings with it once lost pain
Unfamiliar with the agony
Consumed by loneliness
The final strike upon the dam

My fear lies within you
Ignorant to fate’s design
Lost in thoughts of the future
Miscommunication
Or even lack thereof
Distance
Physical and mental
Undecided upon which is worse
Yearning for neither
Receiving both

My guilt lies within you
A dark shadow lurking in memories
Happiness pushed aside
Struggling to regain control
Pulling you away from dreams
Hoping to escape my nightmare
A selfish desire that clouds my thoughts
Blurs my vision
Distorts my reality
But I’ll push this aside
To put your happiness first

I always said the world was too small. Grain of sand on an infinite beach type ****. So small that you could get a reasonable understanding of its history and diversity in just one human lifetime. It’s limiting, right? Like ****. We’re just one planet in a constantly expanding universe that’s full of planets.

It feels big now, thanks to you.

Too big. I’m overwhelmed by the distance between you and I, I think about it and I get woozy, nauseous. Two little fish on opposite sides of a big pond. The biggest pond. The ocean. I wish I could shrink it down and make it small enough that you and I were next door neighbors or one town over or **** it lll settle with driving distance. But this? It’s too ******* much. You’re a world apart, so far that your sun rises and sets on a different schedule.

I worry if I see you again it won’t be enough. The distance have driven me mad, I’d long to be closer even when our skin was stuck together. I fantasize about curling up inside the confines of your ribcage and resting my head on your still beating heart. It’s not enough to be close to you, ****, I want to be part of you.

The way you’re a part of me.

I never liked blue eyes until yours, you know. How odd that they’re the same color as the thing that separates us.

You were standing in front of the crowd
Wearing the color of purity
White as the cotton and clouds
Clean as your intentions on me.

I walked slowly towards your way
Wearing the color of romance
Red as the rose and fire
To make your cold spirit warm.

As our bodies embraced one another
Two hearts made a distinct harmony
Even the great Bach won't understand
Love is really unexplainable
It is maybe the eyes to hear
Or perhaps ears to see.

We were kingdoms and oceans apart,
Until I met you in a distant land.
Love slowly thawed our frozen hearts,
As we reached out, hand in hand.
I held your caring soul so near,
And you embraced me, flaws and all.
Together, we became whole,
As another chapter begins to unfold.