My Nan taught me a lot-
but two lessons/phrases were uttered the most.
“Don’t trust men, they only want one thing.”
Problem solved Nanny, I’m as gay as they come
and never gave one man that one thing.

The other thing she’d often tell me was
“We get two gifts in this world; people we love
and sleep to save us from missing them when they’re gone.”
The second lesson I think of often and relate to heavily.
Both were true for my Nan;
she deserved a better life.

Do you feel my PAIN??
And YEAH I got a LOT OF IT!!
HAPPINESS is what I LACK,
I'm hurting EMOTIONALLY,
I MUST ADMIT.
YOU SAY YOU KNOW
HOW I FEEL!!!
And I call out,
B**T!!!
Like a CAR FLYING 105MPH,
My FEELINGS just got HIT!!
I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND SO HARSH
JUST EXPRESSING
HOW I FEEL!!!
PAIN HAS WEASLED
ITS UGLY LITTLE HEAD,
WRITING IS MY ONLY WAY
TO DEAL!!
LIKE A LOCOMITIVE MAKING
AN IMPACT TO MY SOUL!!
GIVES A MIGHTY ******,
A POWERFUL BLOW!!!
I'm not just SAD,
I'M NOT JUST HAPPY,
A MIND FULL OF
EMOTIONS GOT ME
FEELING SO ******,
THIS UP AND DOWN EMOTIONS
GOT ME FEELING REALLY SNAPPY,
DEALING WITH THIS PAIN MAKES ME FEEL SO UNHAPPY!!
I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL
HAPPY, SAD
ANGRY, OR MAD
I MUST make a CONFESSION!!
I'm DEALING with DEPRESSION,
because of LIFE'S ACTIONS,
This is a FULL COURSE LESSON
I'm LEARNING from this TEMPORAL PAIN!!
A LONG and DRAWN out SESSION!!


B.R.
01/27/2023

I can't express it enough times;
I keep putting down these rhymes;
I keep spitting these lines,
as my inspiring words
comes to ones mind.
I'm giving out expressions,
My lines are like Lessons,
More like a full Confession,
I just want to be a Blessing.
I Express the way I feel,
For, this Poetist is Real
I give rhymes like everyday,
Turn your gray clouds
to a Sunny Day!!!
When you don't have a clue,
believe, I go through struggles too
I know just how you feel
This Love for you is Real!!!
Through good or bad weather,
We'll get through it together!!!!


B.R.
Date: 02/10/2023

How can I love anyone
When I hate myself so completely
"Can't love yourself means the lady's sung, love is done"
That's what they say face to face and back to me
I only feel real between the setting and rising sun
Daylight, she has no use for me
I run when I should stay, I stay when I should run
Any past lesson dissolves immediately
This current tale can stop being spun
I wish to fade to black discretely

©2024

Quiet as a CHURCH MOUSE,
I don't MAKE A SOUND,
SPEAKING LOUDLY in my MIND,
Cos, of the PEOPLE ALL AROUND!!!

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I want to SPEAK OUT LOUD TO YOU,
I have SO MUCH I want to SAY,
Just SPILLING OUT MY GUTS, but
In a LOW KEY kind of WAY!!!

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SILENT UNSPOKEN CONFESSIONS,
That are Needing to BE OUTSPOKEN,
In ORDER for you to COMPREHEND,
I am TORN and MY HEART IS BROKEN,

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I need to STOP BEING SO SILENT,
SO DOCILE, and SO KIND,
PUT MY BIG GIRL PANTS ON, and
REALLY RANT TO YOU WHAT'S ON MY MIND!!!!

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I'M TIRED OF HOLDING IT IN,
THESE ARE ONLY PART OF LIFE LESSONS,
IT'S TIME FOR US TO HAVE A STERN TALK,
OF THESE SILENT UNSPOKEN CONFESSIONS!!!!


B.R.
Date: 6/19/2024