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Osii Sep 2020
Growing up, I had a precious father
And a loving mother.
But why become a wife
If you were  gonna choose another?

You had 2 sons and a daughter
So why the hell did you leave us?
Should I have done better?
Now im confused, as if I'm still a fetus.

If you're someone I don't know
Should I still call you mother?
I know nothing about you now.
Is it befitting to call you a stranger?

I remember the old me, feeling sadness,
Unstoppable.

What did I think of what you did? Sad and
Unforgivable.

You made a family

And wrecked it with your vanity.

You made children

But you couldn't be there for them.

Over the years I've had someone to support me
They weren't my relative, but it felt as if they are
I tried searching for you high, low, near, and far
But I still couldn't find you, the thing that haunted me

all my life, I've sought out discovery

Of the sole reason why my own creator

Was not able to love me.

All I found was your name in a tombstone

And the names of your children

Whom you've chosen

To thrown
To the mother who wasn't
H A Vitatoe Sep 2020
I jumped
into the car
On that
clear
Summer day

When the
flashing sirens
Drove
pass
The other way

The country side
Gazed
Through my mind
The Sea green
How beautiful
Down
That country line

Even though
There was some light
on the way.
Which way to turn
on this bright
Solstice day?

Do we turn right?
Toward
The tree shine
Or
Do we turn left
To try
and find a sign

Now
down
that
Old  rocky road
Of earths
under
tone

There was nothing
I was told
But a wooded
house
That had
turned old

Guess
This will be
Our stop
Until
We see
Not one  cop

I went inside
To wait out
The weather
But then came
a bang
On my wooden
shelter
          
Even though
I thought
I had some
deft
I guess
I should of
never made
a left
When making choices
flamingogirl Sep 2020
What if I don't want
to get better? This hunger is the only thing
I feel anymore. You abandoned me,
so I sit on the bathroom
floor. I drown out my tears
with lyrics to songs we used
to scream out the car
window. While others congratulate
the damage this hunger has caused,
I obsess over the numbers that
light up whenever I step on
the scale. This is the only thing
I can control anymore. Since
you left.
Zhell Aug 2020
I'm smiling at you while where at the park
The sky is so dark
I forgot that you're not in my side
I left behind
Where are you?
Maria Hernandez Aug 2020
Tell me what it is
that causes my
unhappiness
despite having
everything?
Moza Aug 2020
You were trying everything to get noticed, yet it was lashed in the shutter of echoes. In the end, your mind played the inferior part, believed no one wanted you.
You were used to closed doors.
Never seen the light walk through.
With every step you take, Blur images started to appear of an unwanted child.

- Moza
Terra Levez Aug 2020
Before she came
I went through hell and heaven to get her here

Once she was here
I didn't notice her as much as I should've
So she went through hell and heaven to be with me

Today she left
Just left with a small, sad wave

Now I'm going through hell
For every thought of what we could've done.
To keep reminding myself not to over look the people and situations present right now. They aren't always gonna be the same...as my sister reminded me here.
-elixir- Aug 2020
I wish you'd all see the person
in me beneath my insecurities,
layers of locks into my heart.
Why'd you leave me before I speak?
am I not as normal as you?
what is normal if there are many?
Am I crazy or are you blind to see the
normal in me?
I wonder what's missing in me that
forced you to leave.
As you remain blind to the eons
of hope that remains in my heart for you.
As I redefine my normal for the next layer of lock
that encapsulates my heart.
It hurts when your friends and those you held close to your heart ignores you and turn their backs on you. You feel as if your opinions are not normal and you question your sanity.
Heyaless Aug 2020
You left like there was no reason to stay
I hold no gruges for you
I hold no regret that you left
I hold no accusations against you

I hope whatever you're trying to do with your life you find true peace .
I hope you are loved .
I hope you don't have to look back .
I hope your live a life with fulfillment.

I was fighting alone in my life with everything I have .
I have no grasp on my shattered life anymore .
This time when you left i didn't think for a second to ask if I hold on or let go ..!
I took this decision on my hand .
I hold onto that love we had , but I don't expect you'll return .
I hold onto that word , you said " I'll be back soon " . But I don't expect you'll return .

Sometimes it was hard to love you knowing you're gone ..!
I was not okay , i am still not okay .
I hold my whole life on my back , and didn't even let you know about the storm i was tangled in .

Everytime i had a bad , worst day I thought about us . I thought about the love we had ..
It was a relief like a soft wind in a harsh weather .
It was a relief like a warmth in a sharp winter .

All I've ever needed that you to exist in my life .


But I don't find any relief now ..I am so shattered , broken .
Still i am fighting .
One day when this all will end i don't know if I will ever be able to fix my self emotionally .

Still i hope you're okay and have a good life .
You know I understand 🖤
You're in my prayers .
JCabanilla Aug 2020
He was my happiness also my pain,
He was the hell in my heaven,
He was the demon in my sanity,
But I'd lie if I'll tell you I didn't like it.

He was the nightmare I want to have every night.
He was the darkness I will always choose over the light.
He was the devil I want to hug so tight.
Loving him was wrong? No, it feels so right.
I can't stop loving him even if we weren't together anymore
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