slowly
our tears danced with the rain
and people thought we're doing just fine
doubt and fear created our prison

staring at a warped window
we couldn't even fathom how to survive
the explosion going on in our chests

we couldn't even breathe
we couldn't even run
we couldn't even

Tonight, I went to bed but I wasn’t alone

I made space for the silence

Words you said, but forgot quietly watched over me

Tonight, I went to bed but I wasn’t alone

And while the moon shivered, I kept thinking, “Remember when you said you’ll never leave me?”

Tonight you went to bed, but you weren’t alone

You made space for my hurt.

Words I said, promises I kept, quietly watched over you

Tonight we went to bed, but we weren’t alone.

Throwback, to those days,
when you held me
close to your *****.
                                                                       With your tender voice,
                                                                        care and kisses all over,
                                                                        as you lull me to sleep.
Your withered hands,
filled with devotion,
Now entangle with mine,
                                                                       As I sing your lullabies,
                                                                       While you pass on to,
                                                                        the greater beyond.

It is so hard to watch you leave.
Especially,
when you turn away
without saying a word.
It feels as if someone has stabbed
through my heart with a sword.
I can’t breathe, it is as if someone
is breathing the life out of me.
I want to break free
but I am too weak.
I am too frail to even try and fight.
This feeling is sickening
and it is filling my heart with grief.
A grief that I didn’t know existed
till I saw you leave.
I see your hands touch the door ****
and I want to scream your name,
but all I can do is sit and watch.
No, I can’t watch!
I can’t watch you leave
because it fills my heart with grief.
Instead I will turn my back on you
and let you go.

Hold on
You don't understand yet
Seems like it went
Just like you planned it

Now you're deeper underneath
I can hear it when you breathe
I can hear you ask yourself
What's wrong with that girl?

But she don't owe you a thing, nah
She's not on your string, yeah
She don't want you

You just don't get it
You don't own her
Can't wait for you to forget
The number to phone her

And we say what we want
And we get what we get
Of our own device
You ain't no prize
Don't give me those eyes

How many times can I let go?
I'm gonna feel it in my bones
How can you say that that one kiss
Means I owe you more than this?

How many times?
How many times?

You just don't get it
You don't own her
Can't wait for you to forget
The number to phone her.

And we say what we want
And we get what we get
Of our own device
You ain't no prize
Don't give me those eyes.

she felt his gravitational pull
she thought it would lead
to another universe
one glittering with stars.

instead, she was pulled into
a vast, pitch black void -
one with no life to be seen,
in which stars were only a dream.

she could only hear her heartbeat
and his voice tempting her
she started to shiver,
wondering when this would end.

suddenly, she felt a pull
from the people she loved
that pull was strong, urgent -
just what she needed to leave him.

before she knew it,
she was back in her universe,
safe, warm, loved, lively.
the stars were here all along.

Wailing, screaming, crying
I'm tearing my hair out
Breaking, sobbing, wheezing
I'm eating too much
Wishing, hoping, pleading
I'm checking my phone
Hurting, falling, snapping

i don't know why you did what you did or why youre here now