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Autumn Lewis May 2018
I don't want you to hate me but you do
I don't want you to leave but you did
I just want what we once had
"I'm here for you and I always will be"
"I won't give up on you , because I love you."
Now it seems I'm as meaningless as the milk you pour on your cereal
What happened to laughs and camping and telling me stories?
What happened to tickling my feet to see me smile and saying one day I'll be great and find love?
I'm replaced in your heart with
"Why aren't you as good as him?" and "I hate you , I despise you."
I just want my true dad and his love...
I guess people will just have to keep labeling me with "daddy issues"
And maybe I do have them but they won't stop until he does.
This is not like my usual poem I could have rhymed but I didn't
I just needed to release some things
stargazer May 2018
I give you my trust
That belongs to so few
So old, it's covered in rust
It's been years since it grew

My trust has grown tough
Having been broken too many times
It's calluses are rough
Rougher than the skin of limes

I am trusting you
Please be careful with me
Promise you'll be true
I break very easily

I love you
That's a fact
Truer than true
It's not an act

So take my trust
Treat it with care
Lest it be dust
Crushed out of despair
Paranoia gets the better of me all too often, but many times I am right to be paranoid. We live in a lying, cheating, broken world.
Nyx May 2018
Enter my mind
I dare you
Take a walk within my shoes
Jog a mile and see
Stop and live through my issues
Face the battlegrounds of mind and emotion
See the remains of my pain and devotion
Dodge the bullets of my insecurities and pressure
The further you go the wounds just get fresher

Take a walk down memory lane
A childhood of happiness with people unnamed
Smiles and laughter all is bright
But you reach a section when there is no longer any light
A place where you can hear screams and cries
Go to that place, Don't you dare turn a blind eye
Feel the pain, the overwhelming fear
Let it coarse through your body till your vision is unclear
Feel the aftermaths the trauma that goes on for years
Even to the current date you are unable to stop the tears

Open the book of the present
Flick through the endless pages
It may not be traumatic but the pain goes on for ages
Isolation, betrayal and all the backstabbing lies
It really is no wonder that so many of us cry
Lock up your feelings, become a void of emotion
After so many years you can feel the painful erosion
Keep trying to fit in, do your best with what you've got
Even though sometimes that will never be enough
Force on that smile and act as you normally would
As a little bit of acting will do you quiet good

So take a step back
Return to your own life
You don't know what anyone is going through
So don't you dare try and judge somebody's life
We are all crazy, mental, we've been through some ****** up things
But each experience is different, don't try and act like your a king
Each mindset is different, Its complicated and complex
So the least you can do is show some basic respect

Our minds aren't kind
Not to you or even ourselves
We just push through and work around it
We don't need another person adding to our hell
Deal with your own problems, Face your own fears
Don't hurt anybody else in the process
Because in the end
Only you can see into your mind
Chey Ferrill May 2018
Snakes masquerading as friends...
Shed the facade you have crafted;
I can see your forked tongue
tasting the air.
I'm not a fool.
Jo Barber May 2018
Your sweet compliments
bring a flutter to my knees.
It's not out of politesse
that I smile and say, "Oh geez."

In your presence, I feel at ease,
though my mouth feels like cottage cheese.

Saying such things out loud is hard.
For me, this has always been my guard.
hannah May 2018
I told you so
Why did you make take a risk that led to my death
Why did I die, a horrible death
I didn’t want to take a blind leap of faith
Why when i told you what was going to happen
Was it for your selfish need
I promised you I would do anything for you
But your just like the rest using me for your own selfish purposes.
Why do people push me to do things I don't want to do?
IamThatGirl May 2018
I did it good, I did it all,
I tried my best and I threw that ball,
I went to school, I did my job,
I worked my *** of even tho math was a flop,

I brush my teeth and I go to sleep,
but suddenly I´m wide awake,
nothing works not even counting sheep,
and I´m yet again loosing faith,

I can lay in bed for hours,
I realize that I have no real power,
so I shove a pill down my throat,
I´m ready for sleep I´m stoked

but all it does is make me dizzy,
and I´m getting cranky and pissy,
it has been like this a few days in a row,
and I want to get out of this deep dark hole,

suddenly I cant bring myself to school,
doing anything is a mess,
my bodys getting weaker,
and I´m collapsing underneath the stress,

I´m trying pill after pill but nothings working,
some makes me drunk,
others just makes me thirsty,

after hours of hours,
days and hot showers,
my memory is fading,
the room is once again shading,

I´m putting my my head on the bed,
lights go out,
and I´m finally at rest.
I´m a serious insomniac, and I am a really rare rare case because of my adhd, I have had insomnia since I was born. I was born with it. Sometimes it feels like I´m always awake, and I am also always alone
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