Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
---
By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.

Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
---
By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.

They say pain is temporary
But how long will it hurt?

It's a neverending cycle

Pain
Sadness
Suffering

And when everything starts to get better
When the pain starts to cease
You burn yourself all over again

How long will it hurt?

I had been staring at corporate blocks of incestuous dual notation, rippling within a multitudinous sea horn. Many of my skins partook in the abuse of subterfuge in order to forget the sea horns. We would head into the night, deep into oblique dens of solitary apparition, conjuring that which had plagued our collective mental cognition.

With cascading light festering, lurid transcendence of encumbered paralysis began. Physical forms traversing innumerable alleyways of dread, between concrete moulded into the shape of modernity, and cables transpiring towards opaque operating systems which imported and exported collected consciousness for the trade of gelatinous brain matter, had overcame us.

Sliding into abyssal-black tar of stroking, crawling, writhing primal sludge; escaping through pores of sweat coagulation, allowing silk-woven experience to be spun within a lair of manifestation, coinciding with visions of mutilation, inspired by visions of arachnid dread— inspired by visions of arachnid dread!

G♾D

And in those moments,
However fleeting,
I thought we would make it;
I thought we were infinite