Go ahead and drink your hateraid
There is not one **** to be gave
All the hateful things you thought was said
Was only the voices in your head

You turn every word upside down
As a victim you want to be crowned
But we are the victim of your thoughts
In your mind it all gets tossed

The helping hand that we extend
Gets lost as your minds bends
Everything ment for good into black
Till the bridge is in flames, no going back

As you scream out your sarcasm
It only makes to widen the chasm
Then you cry "I have no friends"
You play the victim to the end

So burn your bridges, blow them up
Just don't come yapping at me like a little pup
Maybe one day you'll act grownup
Before someone makes you drink from your own cup

Amazing I'm still here
Swirling, and spinning, trying not to fall.
Never quite sure who we are trying to find it in our beer
Looking like we are 10 feet tall, but feeling so incredibly small.

Overly aware of time and space
But everyone just sees a space case.
You drink too much
You smoke too much
You cry too much
I try too much

In and out of love at the drop of a dime
Just trying to find someone to love us for real
Maybe someone who means it for real this time.
And can maybe make us forget the hurt we feel.

In the heat of the moment
The best years of our lives
But still suffer from the torment
Of the deep abyss of the unknown into which we dive

Grown up but still our mothers baby
Adults who are still afraid of the dark
Who can only answer every question with maybe
But are told we need to be black and white and stark

Here goes nothing
Being 20 something

My nephew notices nearly everything around
he says saaad cooorn! because the corn outside
has now turned brown.

He knows a few colors that consist of yellow, red,
purple and green.. he likes to read and sometimes he'll sing.

My little nephew is getting too big..
He's at the age just before monsters
are under his bed,
I don't want him to experience that yet.

But someday he just might, and that's okay
we all grow up eventually.

let's leave the country without telling a soul,
let's get a house on the sand with a balcony facing the ocean waves,
let's live off of local fruits and tortillas

let's play a vinyl at night while we dance drunk around the fire,
with our record player and its huge bronze speaker coming out the top,
jumpy prison blues or old movie lines that play with a nostalgic static

let's build a blanket fort with a million sheets
watch our favorite old films off the wall in a psychedelic haze
let's binge on ice cream and oreos and let our inner fat child run free

let's have hot ******* shower ***
when we come down we pass out with the bottle of riesling between us
it almost empty, except for the small ring that neither of us could finish

let's wear nothing but robes and never have to leave our palace
let's get naked and roll around in paint, creating a heartfelt masterpiece
let's wake up to an amazing cup of coffee that gets better and better
just like our ***

let's never let anyone know about our little escape from the world and our grown-up fairytails come true.

You're merely seventeen, you aren't in love,
you don't even know what love means-
but then...
neither do I,
and you may think I’m being ignorant
but I'm really just bitter to the taste and rough at the core.

My blood runs black, but my tears are sapphire.
My eyes are as glaring as the air in March.
Don't tell me my mind is powerless.
My soul is dense.
And though my heart is tattered and covered in scabs,
the wounds are more wise than your attempts of being an adult.

You may slush wine in a glass-
as tipsy as the seesaw on the playground from your childhood,
but you will never be able to see.

You can sing and dance that you're in love because you ****** the first girl that said she loved you,
but you shouldn't be so naive,
because it’s easier to be hurt if you are.

So you can wear your six inch heels
and prance around in your chiffon mini skirt and Chanel handbag,
but you will never be a grownup.

"Nice hair
did you dye it that colour
so you could look like me?"
Giggle

Those looks
The one off comments
I knew I was Different

When I was little
boys chased my bike and
threw rocks and me

When I was older
boys put notes in
my locker

While girls did
what girls do
which was often
(at that age)
not very nice
giggle

Those witty
pretty
pre teen
Muses

when we were little
we all had ambition
we all saw potential in us
we all knew what we wanted
what happened
what happened to
*** is gross
what happened to
drugs are bad
what happened to
believing in ourselves
what happened to
waking up with smiles
what happened to
making promises we promise not to break
"we all grew up"
they say
no
we didn't grow up
we all just became sad
and knew no other way
we all got lost at some point
we all misunderstood what it meant to grow up
what happened to
telling mommy and daddy we'll make them proud