~ june 15, 2018 ~
i feel so lost right now. i don't think i've ever felt this way before. i look in the mirror and i don't recognize myself. i look in the mirror and think, "who is this person staring back at me?"

I look at you now
Yeah what I used to see
Is breaking me down
Why ain't you like you used to be?
Still beautiful as ever, yet I feel no unity
Usually, I just feel like you're using me
You're telling me you love me, yeah, from the lips of your mouth
But honestly, honesty isn't what I think's coming out
Seems the people you love the most, push you down, let you go
That's why I'm here to let you know, we lie to people just for show
You pretend you care, but really it don't bother you
Wonder if it will when I decide to say goodbye to you
I'm trying to fix it, what you think I'm trying to do?
You don't like my attitude, then wonder why I'm mad at you
I've had enough of it
My heart, you ain't touching it
You say you're in love with it
But really, you're crushing it
I don't hate you, I'm just trying to understand how you feel
There ain't no point of continuing this if it ain't even real

Madness

Never
apologize
for feeling too
recklessly,

the greatest lessons
are
always
learned
through

Madness

yes, she was beautiful
but sometimes
the most beautiful flowers,
aren’t given the cleanest water.