Time pervaded with regrets
is your biggest enemy

We are all just but
longing for mercy

Looking for a way to escape
the inescapable.

Yet we stand here
as if we are

Unbreakable

Wrapped up in my natural surroundings
around my home that has grown over the last 59 years.

I remember my Nana this week,
it's been a year since she’s left and I am still emotionally bereft.

I feel her in her favourite place,
her beautiful garden, now my saving grace.

I am wrapped in her densely rich oasis filled with colorful flowers and fruit trees that her hands planted in their place.

I miss you Nana but I know whichever field I walk through or wherever a greenhouse I plant, you will be not far from me.

It hurts,
thinking about you,
Smelling your scent on your t-shirt,
Knowing you aren’t around anymore,
It hurts.

I thank God for another year of life, for keeping you here longer each day.

I remember as a child I would pray my heart out to keep you safe forever, “God don’t take her away from me,” I’d say.

You told me at age 50 you prayed the same “God keep me alive till she’s grown,” you’d say.

28 years later and he hasn’t let us down.

It hasn’t been the easiest of years but God please forgive me of my sins.

Not today she’d say, not today.