A taste like a hay,
Nothing satisfies
No one can save me
From my ability to realize.
Internal combustion takes over me,
As I stand on my own;
Trying to keep me down all the time I had myself shown.     
So, save me from this, make it end? I thought I'd say;
“No, I’d do everything to keep you breathe instead of to live.” It said.

Quick thought, fate deems me to be forsaken
Faith has been shaken, your love was just a ruse
You love to decide when you feel for me, you pick and choose
You make me feel blue, ironically that's my favourite colour
I have no clue what to do about you, because there will be no other
I understand that loves a mountain and you have to trek to the top
But the peak is below sea level and I don't want to drown, so I think we should stop

A cruise,
towards a place
suddenly the waves shake me
the blue,
drown me in
hug me tightly
take me between choices
free but lost
or
sink and die
in the calm that I crave.

Give me time to float
air, pull me
sea, hold me
let me dying
while I ask this
to God,

Can I shed tears
on things that are not mine
can I despair
For pain that is not my body
can I kneel down
on things that I can't have a second time

regret
comes crashing like the tides
all at once
pulling me under.
i gasp for air but there is only saltwater and tears.

i have a morbid fear of open ocean
maybe because it would mean
being alone
with my thoughts
that circle like sharks
and showers that
sting like jellyfish.

kayaks of self- preservation
shatter against the rocks.
there is no saving me.
let me sink
or i will drag you down with me.
please
leave me to drown.

yet, it's so hard for me to find the things i lost
in the clearest of blue waters
everytime i think i'll swim
i drown

How am I if ever to come to grips
With this world I wished to be dismissed
Like grey sky’s that fill the autumn days
So does the emptiness resound within this hollowed space

Never at all if ever does it turn around
With the inevitable change it brings
Trapped beneath the current
as you begin to drown

The hardest part is not the wading
rather watching others in calm ahead
Laughing at ease
While slowly your suffocating

What shame this has all become
As you ruminate on past mistakes
Validating your sorrow
Justifying your distaste

As you sink ever farther
The blackness surrounds
No more to fight against the current
As slip farther down

I drown again, depression, old friend,
You only one who never left,
And when i think that you are gone
You come and stay until the dawn.

Decide to die when sun will rise
That's fine, i've made my choice
When die, i'll look into your eyes
When die, i'll hear your Shape Of Voice.

There is nothing to say now
I am already wasted and dead.
So could I became a new cloud
in sky of the words that i haven't said?

The wind blew away the last cloud
and sky became clear.
I've buried myself deep under ground
and I'll never appear.

Finally - sunset,
And i forever gone,
You need to just forget,
All that i've ever done.

Fish would rather suffocate in land than drown in water.

Voices in my head
They louder than i am
Louder, than whole world
Can't even hear my own word

But i don't need to hear
because i feel - you near
Near the body, but no soul
i thought that i'm your only sole
i Want to just elope with you
We could be an amazing crew;

You have been changed a lot
Now not the one I fell in love,
But one whom i forgot.

i hate myself for hoping
My heart is almost broken
Though "hopes dies last"
But my cannot -
i left them in the past.

There is for me no other way
Be safe and sound another day
I'll not survive, i want to leave
Not enough power to believe
To live without suffer, fear
i say a pray and disappear