How could I not sit there besides you and stare into your infinite eyes
Realize
Epiphany after epiphany
How could I not want to spend my entire life getting lost in your entity and never wanting to come back
I heard it's only cliche to those who haven't felt it yet
How could I not love every fiber of your being
Every inch of your skin that I have kissed
Every lash on your eye
Every measure of step you take
The pitch of your voice
The twitches when you sleep
Our sweat that drips while we make love
I want to sleep in your ribcage and act as every vital *****
Keeping you sane
Keeping you safe
I never want to come back
I want to be under your possession
Under your skin shelter
Til my very last drunken night
Thinking of ways to make you smile
Thinking of ways to croud the space above your carium with memories
Memories of us under the influence of every bitter taste of alcohol
Under the influence of eachother
Becoming more and more intoxicated with every kiss
Gripping your hand tighter
Feeling the skin on your lower back
Never been more blissful
Kissing your neck with a handful of your hair
Grasping your thighs and Kissing the ground you walk on
I've never been so idealistic in my life
You change every thought I've ever had
And I love it
Tonight I write how much I miss our cells growing within eachother
Our shadow in the inner side of the side walk
Pokeballs and wings
How much I miss everything in between
Everything that represents you
How could I not want to spend the rest of my life intoxicated by your essance

That first drink I took I
Regret
It was only a few shots but I
Got ****** off my head
Got so drunk so I could forget
Ecstasy so powerful, a craving so
Raw
Who knew I could break the law?
At 13 this happened
Right when most worried about
Nothing
I stole of my family to fund
Now I live right, but my childhood is
Gone

what do you do
when the person you love
chooses alcohol
over you?

With each thought comes disaster, a living corpse hung high
Oxymorons and illegitimate thoughts, broken voices
Tomorrow is the future but another days past
When it all ends there will only be dust
Rumbling pixie dust from nonexistent faeries
It's time to pull the batteries out of the controller
Auto pilot feels so good
Like tomorrow won't happen, never said those words
Just like that, stand still, stand tall
Eat your words as they leave, rot through your gums
Hang men with the melody that leaves your notes
Only then beg for solid thoughts, for one line
To end the thinking
Intoxication is so cruel, it let's me forgive my own tongue
How scornful

Staring at this glass I'm holding in my hand
I wonder why they serve it with a plastic little pirate sword
and a storm starts brewing in the sky, up above-
CRACK like a lightening bolt from in the sky, up above
...up above.

Sword in hand I am the captain here of my ship,
staring at my drink I see the waves that break upon the rocks
I see new horizons every time i'm turning keel
and every time I'm turnin I see new sunsets a'burnin
...sunsets are burning.

Bounce off the rocks for a drink or two, all night through,
not really sure where I'm going to, don't have a clue,
-maybe I'll find a way...
-hey, bartender, mister Poseidon now,
the tide's gone out,
I've beached my ship.
and when I look around I see this ain't the place I wanna be.
So top me up
and set my sails,
I know you know that I just want to be free.
Sword in hand I am the captain here of my ship,
it's not called drinking when you're sailing to another land.
No no, thank you, I've never used a crew before
and I'll drift like this for days if I need to.

And I need to.