11 comes 12, then 1 for a new rotation
a fresh start too close to previous victory
"This is what you're made for !
Only you predict the sun"
yet here is the heresy

the sun will only be measured
as a cup is filled to brim
and when each value is tested and weighed
small gold surpasses tin

so when a watch serves its one purpose
who determines its value?
Prisoners can serve one purpose
as leaders do the same

What makes them separate?
What dictates gain?

"you know, being able to grow with someone, or just being there watching someone grow is probably the closest explanation to love i've found during my very short time on earth."

"is it because it's a need? or a want?"

"it's neither i think. think of it like this, have you ever day dreamt about holding someones hand?"

"yes of course."

"what was that feeling, what made you prefer the dream to the day?"

"it's because i knew that it'd happen."

"there we go. because 'you knew'. all the love i've felt comes from the not knowing, or the knowing it'd never come, and to keep loving, even after the realisation, after the heartbreak, the pleading, bartering, sometimes there's just nothing you can do, but love without reciprocation."

"doesn't it hurt?"
"yeah. but love takes many forms. even if its not the one you want."
"i'm sorry."
"but i am not."

put my poems
into a blender
to
swallow
my pride.