Away from the roots of it,
far from the truth;
there you'll be.
Asking questions no one can answer.
dodging stares,
slurring, launching
slings and arrows
at your darling- your sweetheart.
Hard to believe this could be your reality,
but it twist and it turns all within the bounds.
Yet, physics will mean little to you
as the heart aches.
and the roots of it all
are out of reach now.

I'm so sorry
I never meant to hurt your feelings.
I tried and tried.
I tried to tell you so many times.

But always waiting for me was a smile.
Breakfast in bed, at the right times.
Always there, to kiss me good night.
Never faulting, ever the gentleman.

Your company, always a delight.
The host with the treats,
The guest with the gift.

You were always happy,
Always kind.
The nice guy.

I didn't want to take that away.
I didn't want to make you cry.
How do I tell you I don't love you anymore?

You remember the dates,
You always put me first.
You do everything right.

So, How do I tell you that 'perfect' isn't making me happy?
That 'Mr. Right' isn't enough for me.
It hurt every single day.
I just didn't know what to say.

I'm sorry.
I never meant for you to find out like this.
I know I messed up,
Please, forgive me!

I thought
I was blind
until I witnessed,
first hand, the
beauty in your eyes.
Now I see why
I fell for you.

You never had time for me
But you went to see him.

I called for weeks.
Hoping to see you,
Even if it was for a minute

But you said you were busy.
Had things to do.
Things that could not wait.
Things that were more important,
Than anything.

Imagine my disbelief.
When I saw you under that tree.
Holding his hand; smiling
Laughing, bearing all your teeth.
Touching his face, affectionately.
Leaning in, going for a kiss.
My God, I couldn't believe it.

I thought we had something.
I thought you said it was just me.
I thought you said I was your everything.

I'm not even mad or angry
I'm only sad,
You never looked at me.
The way you looked at him.

you found me worthy
and left me feeling worthless
when you turned away

7:28 PM
28/6/19

I thought I was over you
until I saw your smile,
a sad smile-
oh, how I wish I could
fix that smile.
I try to justify the flutter
of my heart at the
mere sight of you.
That smile on your face-
oh, how I wish it was
still for me.

I try and I try
to write the perfect haiku-
as perfect as you

11:25 PM
19/6/19

you look like
the one who
left me behind,
but you smile
just a little wider
and my heart
already feels
a lot warmer.

My mind used to run
A day ahead
And sometimes
It would get lost in
Weeks ahead.

Now,
All I can think about
Is you and me
Feet buried in cool sand.
One towel to shield us
From the ocean breeze.
My head on your shoulder
Your head resting against mine.

And how beautiful it is—
The world in our now.

You're the oil in my engine.
The flow to my rhythm.
The foundation of my building,
The one that keeps me from falling.

You're the helium in my balloon,
The fire to my Zeppelin.
Without you, my shape can't be sustained.
You're the medicine to my pain.
In my heart, your love is forever ingrained.

You're the light to my darkness,
Brightening up my day with your every/very presence.
You are the spark, the inspiration.
With you in my life, there are no limitations.

You're the rain to my seeds,
The one that makes them grow.
Always coming in calm drizzles.
Never a storm, always the perfect dose.

You are the air that I breathe.
The oxygen, the one that keeps my fire blazing.
You are my everything.
If I have you, I have no need of anything.