The wind utters it's weary lullaby
a tender serenade of a newly slaughtered body

Blood.....
dripping into the soil, savoring the nutrients
sweet....

but bitter....

I need love like a contradiction
To hold it at arms length
So I can push it away.
I need hope like an intervention
Tell me it’s gonna be alright
Tell me it will be okay
When I go insane.

I hate getting drunk, because I think of you.

I hate getting sad, because it started with you.

I hate thinking of you, because I cant stop thinking of you.

I hate shedding tears, because Im sad for you.

I hate when my mind drives, because it races towards you

I hate when people ask if Im ok, because I know the answer is because of you

I'll never love again, because I'll never love anyone but you

I hate smoking green, because it would remind me while I drift

I hate sitting still with my thoughts, because theres too many of you

With this liqour, green or sadness it'll all surround you.

You would swear you were the greatest thing to this world

But only because I made you that way.

I love getting drunk, because I think of you

I love getting sad, because it started with you.

I love thinking of you, because I can't stop thinking of you.

I love shedding tears, because I'm sad for you.

I love when my mind drives, because it races towards you

I love when people ask if im ok, because I know the answer is because of you

I'll never love again, because I'll never love anyone but you.

Lights, no lights
warm, not warm
pain, numbness
isolation, on display
I can't think straight.
Fallin from the social norm.
Noting eyes gaining awareness.
And I can't keep the darkness at bay.

I can't sleep,
But I'm dreaming
I'm confused
But I understand your meaning
I'm nervous but simultaneously
At peace so it's clear to me
That I'm a walking contradicton
A healthy heart attack
I guess what I mean is
I'm a dreaming insomniac