for years i thought i knew myself
but the wind has blown me astray.
with tears and scars i pleaded in vain...
but the current of time has driven me too far away.

i look back but not a patch of land.
beyond the water was a fading ship
whose waving flag whispered farewell…
and the dying light and frigid sea cast me further and further still.

these solemn nights drag on without pity.
i was alone, adrift in blue that blinded;
carried some place i knew not where…
who knew where i was headed (but deep and dark despair (?))

to hell with it! I leave it to the wrath of the gods--
i am blind to my kismet, like a sailor in foggy seas.
the first patch of land i find--i couldn’t care more
what it was! I just need to find myself (a place where i’d be me).

I have a big dream;
And it's my lifetime dream.
I want to take the risk to try it out;
But I'm also afraid of the consequences.
I keep thinking, maybe if I tried it out, I won't get accepted;
Or maybe if I will get accepted, I can encounter lots of obstacle and take big risks,
And that dream could change my life.
But still, it is my lifetime dream;
And I'm still very confused right now.
Should I take the risks or not?

You are like the scar on my hand,
I've been trying to get rid of.
But it just seems to stay
No matter what i do
I hate it
I don't want it
I try to rub it off again
And my skin starts bleeding.

Ive come to realize that I cant cry. I....am simply numb. My face expressionless to the untrained eye....

I question what Im doing here. When will this cloud go away. I feel so....empty. My thoughts silent to the untrained ear...

I find myself saying almost absolutely nothing....No sound. Words come out, but have no meaning. My cry, silent.

I have no meaning......

new day
old feeling
same life

head dizzy as I lay
am I truly being?
in this world of strife

hold my weight
as I try to figure out
what has come of me

I ask if this is my fate
you're filled with doubt
I try to agree

every time I try to escape you
I start to feel empty to my very core
I'd rather hold on then say adieu
because either way I was a wreck before