I find myself at such a loss.
Just wait.
Here me out.
What I'm bout to say comes straight from the heart.

Look, I get it, you dont have to answer any of my calls.
I'm believing..
Hell, I'm hoping, you'll pick up one day.
Please just know, I'd never want to add to your pain.
I'm praying that time makes a change in our life.

This is a strange place to be in.
This is a strange place I've put myself in.
Admitting things I never would.
Confessing things, that's just something I never did.

I find myself pacing, I feel like I'm going crazy, realizing how much you made a difference in my life,
And I don't want anybody else.

Hear me?
Don't nobody deserve myself, but you.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is..

You ain't gotta make your mind up
right now.
Darling, there's no rush.
So take your time, don't rush.
There's no pressure, I just gatta express this...

You took me by such surprise.
Never thought I'd take you serious.
But you came in and changed everything.
You came in and changed all of me


I miss your little hands and the way they caressed away all of my inner pain.
I admit, I took you for granted.
So now here I sit, on the edge of my empty bed with nothing but the reflection of all my bad decisions.

There were some nights, I'd find myself talking to my conscience.
I knew I made a few mistakes.
I knew I did it to myself.
I know I never admitted this,
but I'm the only one to blame for this.
I know you might need a little time to believe all of this.
To believe in me again.
To love again.

God, you must really not know it do you? How beautiful you are, standing there in front of me as I say all this.
Those beautiful hazel eyes staring back at me, unaware of how every cell in my entire body just wants to reach out and touch you.
You're not making this easy. Especially when I see you make that face, all I wanna do is make love to you all over the place.
  
I can't do this, I'm determined to fight for this.
I'ma put up a fight for this.
I cannot give up on a love like this.

So I'll be patient, I'll wait for however long you need because to me you're worth it.

Let go your ego's, even if it's tough
Let's just say, that time was rough

Don't break the trust again by playing bluff
End this now, I guess it's enough

It's time to clean up the mess
How long will you take to confess

I'll expect nothing more from you
I know things won’t be same, as I expect to

Still, try & let go your ego's, even if it's tough
Let's just say, that time was rough

I’ll admit
I’m a bit romantic.
With theories and opinions
On why and how people love.

I’ve always been a bit clueless
When people have tried to confess
Anything indirectly said
Tends to go over my head.

My mind tends to fantasize
Everything all the time.
Things that are impossible
Or unfathomable

But I’ve learned as time goes
Though there is much i dont know
That when feelings occur
I should get to know the person first.

To wait and to understand
Quirks and habits and traits piling up like sand.
To know a person before getting together
Makes a relationship a lot better.

So off my brain goes
While i research the soul.

Forgive me
for I am a sinner
a sucker
for
trouble
a victim
for
being
a
lover