It felt like I was the reason things started going wrong in your life
The leash of guilt tightening firmly around my neck
Was it love?
                     or
                           Was it Pity?
It sounds stupid,
But once I was ******* in this invisible cage
I found it hard to escape from you
Like an idiot, I forgave you numerous times
For you knew how to twist things around
And every time i did something
I could feel as though this guilt was loosening
Even if it was just a bit,
I thought this is a fair price to pay
As he needs me
                        As much
                                          As I need him
But we both know that together we are Toxic

                              

My rage continues to build
Behind this glass of a cell
This is not what I willed
My soul will burn endlessly by this window sill
But I suppose I should be thankful
My flames will not be able to burn you
And its glow is insightful
I will remain here amidst my blue

Society likes to lie to me

Lure me to cages

Take my book of life and rip out all its pages

It's as untouchable as a ghost

It's a ghost with many faces

It shows up in the safest of places

Haunting our home

Possessing our closest of friends’ hearts mind and soul

It's a finger shaking no

The voice in our ear whispering

"let it go"

The monster under our beds

Keeping us from sleep

Keeping us from realizing our larger than life dreams

It's the vibration after being trapped in a spider’s web

It's the shouts
The screams

Echoing rejection in our heads

Imagination completely neglected till' it's gone and fled

It's telling us what life's supposed to be about

but...

I'm getting older now

The dark is more inviting now than frightening

Don't ask me how but it seems my chains are

snapping
bending
breaking

I fear no ghost
no monster
no lack of safety

I take my chances
Take my stances
Take my life back and they call it madness

Well...

Now society's scared me

Scared that I'll grow up to be the best that I can be

Scared that I have broken free

Set out to change society and all its hypocrisy and greed

They tell me it's impossible but just you wait and see

I remove my emotions, shut down my heart.
No longer allow life to trouble me because that’s how it all starts.

[I CLOSE MY EYES, THE COLD BLADE SLIDES CUTTING DEEP. WITH ONE SLICE EVERYTHING CHANGES]

Anxiety grips and takes control pulling everything down into this tiny black hole.
No use fighting just go with the flow.
You will rise again and go on with the show...

[THE BLOOD FILLS THE SPACE CREATED BY THE SCLICE. AT FIRST A TRICKLE AND THEN EBBING FURTHER AWAY FROM LIFE]

I place myself in this cage to preserve my life. From the outside I appear cruel and riddled with strife.

[I STARE AT THE RIVER OF RED. MY EYES START TO CLOSE, HEAVY EYES. MY MIND FEELS FREE]

I fight this battle every day.
My fight, my rules...
I will always find a way to win...

My cage is my way....

Dear little girl inside, everything is fine
We got through all the pain and even got to keep our minds
Sometimes we still get crazy, but not the way we used to
When the love that you know now is nothing you were used to
Sometimes you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself
And love You, that way you can teach anybody else
And if it's pain that you were feeling, you release it till it stops
Or else it will get stronger and just beat you till you drop
You're a lot smarter than you're ever given credit for
Live like a simile, lessons are a metaphor
I hope one day you're strong enough to break free from the cage
And that everything inside you is the reason I be great

And it's you and me, and everything we are is everything we'll be
I swear I'll always love you, I know you feel the same
And I just want to say you made it through