o a grinding alarm
o what alarm
o what gloom around
o what black color
how strong and how terrible he is

tears flow in the eyes
the eyes of the river go
in front of my red light
in front of my fear
cutting fear

in front of one's eyes
on teeth on teeth in the world
in the world in the dark
on teeth on teeth only
only anxiety is only fear

23.08.18

Together we dance under the ceiling
Spinning around and around,
Love is such a wonderful feeling
Until you fall to the ground.

Around the strange world
The world is like a void
Like me only
He is like me

All around
What does not give an answer
But it gives a lot
More questions

Here it is the world
Here it is all
Strange world
Strange I

The world makes me think
That it does not make sense
Yes, maybe it is
Well, the denial of this truth

The world makes you think about
Completely false things
Which are alien to him
But agreement is not true

World strange world
Which leads me to a dead end
Which only gives a cry
Cry and howl

11.12.17

My heart broke in two that night. I was wondering how such a disaster could happen.
My tears flowed into a mini river. My body almost to the point of collapsing. I had to sit down, my mind thinking of the last time I saw him...

The last time I saw my brother before he was no more . so i now have to live with an aching heart.

choppy music consistent in my ears
water boiling in my chest
the steam makes my eyes water
the bubbles pop to the rhythm of a song
scalding
a reminder of how much the skin around my neck hurts when i think of you